trigger warning:

i'm a wanderer
though most of my travels
occur inside the confines
of my chaotic mind

i wouldn't recommend you follow
because i will leave you behind

     tell me
have you ever gotten lost
                                        in your own mind?
i cannot remember
                              what i was trying to find
perhaps
               i've lost it.

all alone in a crowded room
claustrophobia consumes
as i'm uncomfortably surrounded
by strangers
with friendly faces,
ultimately unfamiliar
yet seemingly displaced
from this blur of insanity
they pass as our reality

          where are we?

i am searching for familiarity

                                                  in an unfamiliar place

trying to find

                              a familiar face

salt on the streets
like salt in the wounds
of cracked, suburban sidewalks
swelling with trampled memories
of a forgotten yesterday

imagine a world far away
from the chaos of the everyday

won’t you come outside & play?
(everything is gonna be okay)

          the world is a snow globe,
          shake it up
          & let's watch it explode

          cut me up like a paper snowflake,
          did you feel the Earth shake?

this is a cry for help
but nobody's listening

(how
         would
                     you?
                             this silence is ear-splitting)

my patience is thinning
& it's only the beginning

can't you see that our world is spinning???

maybe it's just my head,
I'm unraveling like a loose thread
unable to avoid this looming dread
to which we're all condemned...

please, save me from myself, instead

sometimes, there are moments
when all the world goes quiet
and, for just a moment,
I get to enjoy the silence,
a moment away from the everyday violence
of society's daily defiance

yet, it never stays quiet...

the silence is so loud, I can hear
my heartbeat
pounding in my ears
as my darkest fears
begin to come near,
& someday, they'll find me
drowning, in the salt of my tears

Before the world forgets us, I need you to remember...

that cool afternoon in November;
the moment our eyes met,
I’d already fallen for you,
though I didn’t know it yet
our paths, they’ve nearly crossed before
only fate had something else in store
for us; you see,
you & I were meant for love,
but back then, we were just too young
to understand what it was

before they met,
our paths parted ways
so we could grow up
& learn how to stay
because fate knew our stubborn hearts
& feared we would walk away

I still remember the day we met
like it was yesterday,

& though I didn't yet know it,
fate had led you back to me
& as long as we're together
everything is gonna be okay

now I can’t seem to remember
a time you were absent from my dreams

but I keep having this fear
that our world is not what it seems,
& lately, my dreams,
                                      have been nightmares...

set me to airplane mode,
I feel like I'm going to implode...

my thoughts, they're spiraling,
there's a short-circuit in my wiring

this world beneath me has gone ablaze
& I cannot escape this fiery haze

I'm soaring toward a sea of flames
from our world without a trace

falling
fast

here
comes
the:
             crash