So much hurt & so much pain
Too much confusion, I'm going insane.
So many questions & instead of answers, just lies
Because you’re a Narcissist I’ve had to say my goodbyes.

I loved you so much, to within an inch of my life
I felt a stab in my back and it was you holding the knife.
I was patient and loving, I gave you my soul
Being together as a family, that was my goal.

Unfortunately you lied and took other women to bed
While still promising me the world, you messed with my head!
You toyed with my heart and played me for a fool
I’ve never had anyone treat me that cruel.

It’ll be five weeks tomorrow since I sent my final text
Every single day since then I’ve wondered who’ll be next.
I guess you are working on finding a new supply
Such a typical narcissist, you will lovebomb until you die.

I can’t carrying on holding onto any hope
Of you coming back to me so we can elope
I miss spending time with you & running my fingers over your skin
Whenever I was near you the feeling I got within.

Memories will live with me forever, I will never forget
Falling in love with you though is something I’ll always regret.
You were not a real person, it was all just an act
You are a pathological liar & a narcissist, that Lee, is a fact.

There were times I dreamt
sometimes of us
sometimes of you
other times you'd show me
all the dreams of us

Now you're a nightmare
that I see in days and
talk about to myself at night
while the stars shine
and the wind is still cold

I dreamt last night
of you sinning again
with a sinner who wasn't me
and maybe that sinner
wasn't anyone

But I was mad
and you weren't sorry
and I woke recklessly
thinking of all the hate
and the filth

All of what had consumed
my mind but not my heart
my heart still pure and hurt
but my mind all filled with disgust

take me back to the day I laid eyes on you.
so I can ask you your name and tell you I'm in love with you.
and maybe it sounds crazy but I'm going to marry you.
take me back to the first time we skipped out on class together.
so you can hold my hand longer and not leave me this time.
and ill tell you that I know it's still so soon, but I want to hold your hand for forever, through whatever, always.
take me back to the day you crawled into bed with me and held me after I had fallen asleep.
so I can wake up in the middle of the night and tell you everything I'm too afraid to tell you in the daylight.
and ill admit that I think of you every day and strangely want to see your feet bare.. and.. your body.
take me back to the night we tried to have *** but you couldn't stop thinking of her.
so I can tell you it's okay if you aren't ready, because neither am I.
and if you want to just lay here, just exist together, ill tell you that's okay too. more than okay.
take me back to the day I held your head in my lap and we talked about everything that scared us.
so I can tell you not being with you scares me the most, and my heart never settles.
and I won't admit it but ill tell you with my eyes that I want you to keep me.
take me back to the moment we touched other people and for only a second, no longer, forgot each others name.
so I can run away from his lips, and into your arms.
and maybe then your fingers won't find her cheek, and she won't realize your eyes are the darkest brown, but your touch can melt anyone like honey.
take me back to the day we promised forever.
so we can walk away.
and maybe then it'll save us the pain
of you and I.