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2.6k · Aug 2014
I don't want to get married
Chris Aug 2014
I don't want to be married

I don't want to be settled

I want to be me ..
holding hands ...
with ..someone..
who is not me

So very not me

But so very themselves

Someone who is their own someone
Who has chosen to walk beside...
me
who is me
So very me

Someone who continually chooses to walk beside me, because of and despite me

I don't want to get married

I want to get better

Get better at being me

beside you

Get better at loving you
and me

At teaching you how to love me and you
At learning me and you

I want to go to bed mad and wake up sad I wasted that time
when I see your cute night drenched face soaking up a pillow

Im going to regret things I say to you

And things you say to me

But I won't forget you and the place we carve for one another
In our heart trees

You won't be first

but you will be the last one..
I kiss before bed
and the last heart I strive to know the curves and edges of

So when I marry you

It's not a word

It's not some potion that changes the earth and it's motion

When I marry you

I choose to choose you
1.8k · Aug 2014
Music festival
Chris Aug 2014
This is the circus
What are you made of
This is the circus of conformity
In the form of high wasted short
Shorts
In short form:
Eyes slide off me like I'm made of Teflon
Whatever it is you feel make manifest
no wrong
Raging circus of creative spirits
Meld into one sort of monster
Claws out so you fear it
Exploring  the isles of freedom
In the confines of prescribed high fashion
Kissin and dashin
Smile and flash
Smile and flashin
This is the circus
And your a small note on the ledger line
Held hostage in the ******* of time
Wrote this about a music festival I went to this summer
813 · Jun 2014
Journey
Chris Jun 2014
Journey- by Christina Helen Marie

Step out your door only to step in once more
I am upward momentum spinning top
living for lessons learned not

I want freedom
interlaced dreams to carry  my weight
I must send my mind to that future time place date...

When all I have done is displayed
Having each melodic note pulled from lungs
to encompass a life well sung

For even then...
I will have not yet arrived
have brain filled and wholeness of mind
Even then...
I will step out my door only to step back in
once more

I choose to
jump
land
without hitting the floor
I am upward momentum spinning top
Living from lessons learned not

I want freedom...
interlaced dreams to carry my weight

I must send mind to that future date
when all I have done is displayed
Each melodic note pulled from lungs
to encompass a life well sung

Even then I will step out my door to step back
once more

I carry this awareness like birds with the **** they gather to make nests
It comes with me to tomorrow
To prepare for the heavy

You see
I cannot rest until heart song melody has leaked dry

However my girl,
rivers that flow from the deity renew themselves
Never ending joy in store houses

I can always be a fountain sopping wet dripping over the kettle

This yearning to create.....was never meant to settle
770 · Jun 2014
Measure
Chris Jun 2014
How to measure:

A table.
take out ruler, string or tape
Size  lines calculate with  retina powered eyes count the spit that flys from open mouths who gather fill it with their laughter,

count the crayon etchings of the determined fire in eyes Thomas the tank engine colorer extroidinair

Weight gain.
Gaze down at waste, shift in skin as you reach  depths in pockets to hide McDonalds receipts and push them in

Do, mental math, one apple a month has got to off set at least one Big Mac

Mileage.
Look at your spedometer Thelma, it's pretty much yelling at you. Take stalk of all the shoes that have  warn you.count backwards from twenty five to Two.

Count the steps you took when you didn't have to, subtract the ones that didn't count and divide by the moments you glide

Growth
Annual reports, minions in Arnold churgen assuring you to stalk up on the market. Your rrsps  with thank you as they soar and plummet as all must on the onslaught of such heights.

Talk to the fifth grader inside you and ask what got me here, was it that Dora the explorer hair cut or the time I didn't give up, that lead to that other time i didn't give up that lead to the time  i pushed quit to the back of my tongue and swallowed it.

A moment.
In corners of mouth stretched outwards in an upward slant.
Those 60 seconds you ranted and most of it was good
That kiss you can still feel as uou tried to hold on to your skin
In the calculated weight of truth transferred to hands in use


Or the science behind the fact that you actually breathed again and  your body, received the donation, the free gift that fuels you, rushes in caresses your sinues and prepares the way for another little wind

I Cherish that wind

One moment, your body will say thankyou very much air, but this relationship of you fueling me and me needing you.. Is baked like that pie your mom doesn't like talking about any more

How does one measure a life
Success, deductibles, YouTube hits,# shout outs, lives touched, damage done, or how many times you actually enjoyed a cinnomon bun without apologizing to your hips

You choose. You choose what measuring tape you wake up with because that's the one they are gonna pull out when the man with the answers recites your yagooogaly

When you measure dare to recall that when the air says adeui and all that is left is your spirit and as your body falls let spirit rise tall
764 · Jun 2014
loose rhyme
Chris Jun 2014
You
Oh no you sit
Really
I insist

Infact my whole trajectory supposedly pivots on you taking that seat
And not getting up

I don't know who you are

You have a different chromosomal make up
So were obviously a match

The frequency of my laugh
Moving from my lips is intriguing to you
Your thoughts have created a godess from a human

I wish you wouldn't

Yes the weather is right for a ride
And coconut surprise
But this whole sharade is rather sterile

Boy seeks out girl cause of her chest and the way she sits just so in the nest...

It's all so calculated and conducted like chopan
How bout raw unruly foot in mouth utterances Jackson ******* type splatter

How bout we show our worst cards and see if one is worthy of the good a test to extend the boundaries of our so called yard

How bout we throw up on the first date and skip the second

How bout we  call it check mate and  shake hands with the aching spirit inside, save a seat for a much

looser rhyme
531 · Jun 2014
Escondido
Chris Jun 2014
-Descubierto

Escondido, hidden it was
Cubierto covered by comprartment rationalizations
Untrained eye saw the flower in the dandelion unwilling to let die

Disdain kept this little girl afraid weary on  the outskirts of foraging paths to explore her brain
I was taught to desire a label fit a characture in Cinderella fable only to find, I don't fit

I sat down for dinner with my darkest allegories
I let theme name me
Highlight every frailty within me
Oh no don't stop go on I said
Under my fog of dark

Disdain kept this little girl afraid
Weary on the outskirts of foreging paths to explore her brain
I was taught to desire a label fit a characture in cinderella fable only to find I don't fit

Marinating in poison I lined myslef up beside my expectations
fail fail fail
I cannot See now
All is etched in dark at the enemies table

Disdain kept this little girl afraid weary on the outskirts of foreging paths to explore her brain I was daught to desire a label fit a characture in Cinderella fable

Omnipotent hope
After dinner I drank of peace
It caressed my bones and forced the enemies strangle hold to release
Peace renewed
Threading hope through my sinews

If u Must live
Don't try and grow under the hat they give U or wear a label sign
Live to ur own rythm
Sing to the chorus outside of time

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