aesthenne

aesthenne Dec 2015

this peculiar, petty feeling
i have, never felt it before...
thoughts of you in my head keep reeling
but it won't last forevermore

you keep turning your head to take a glance
and your curious eyes caught my sight
oh how it wants to make me dance
it even makes my heart take flight

yet, these overflowing feelings that I take hold
no matter how many time I talk to you
there is no spark or an ignited fire to behold
no longer will there be the button of undo

such a waste my words that my mouth has formed
knowing that you don't like me is such a forlorn

'truly, a waste it is.'

#love #feelings #unrequited

aesthenne Oct 2015

relentless silence

staring out the windows
full of grey, black, or maybe even nothing
a cloud hanging over my head with it's woes
consistently reminding me that i'm losing

this blurry feeling that i'm starting to know
please, please, help me release it
it's chained to me like a pile of ten feet high snow
it's trying to shatter me apart into tiny bits

a shadow just lurking around the corner
it doesn't care if you have no choice or road
it will just take you away for it has no border
and it will just keep getting cold then colder

i'm locked inside a cage of this depression
so no wonder there's no progression

its a seasonal thing for me, too

#depression #life #sadness #thoughts #silence #condition #seasonal

aesthenne Sep 2015

falling into place

the lies that
i spread
around this
hopeless
little
world
are more than
just words

i hate how
i can
easily spread
lies to gain power
yet i become
blind to
what will
happen
to my friends

i have lived in vain

dont touch me
the world nor you doesn't deserve me
i'm as stupid as can be
so let me fall
to where
i belong

i hate living for my own

i am so insensitive
secrets are these
they can
be lies
they can be
a person
a place
yet
can slip from our
mouths and
through our
actions

up to this day, i don't know why i'm still alive

forgive me for destroying you

read a book

#lies #life #sorry #secrets #place

aesthenne Sep 2015

"How do I think of thee?"

How do I think of thee? Let me count the ways.
I think of thee with a smile for our memories are sweet.
Your red hair, your attitude such a confusing maze,
And your goofy smile, can almost make my heart miss a beat.

I think of thee with laughter as it glistens in my eyes,
While I listen to your jokes full of brevity and wit.
Butterflies form in my stomach, I can’t lie,
Then they flew away after you said three words to such a misfit.

I think of thee as tears are streaking down my pale coloured cheeks,
Seeing you hurt in the memory that I just remembered.
But this visualisation is now an antique,
Yet I feel guilty for I did not give the help that needed to be rendered.

I think of thee like a chapter or even a book itself,
Not ever wanting to put you back onto your shelf.

Made this for our homework in English class. Derived from the poem and idea of "How do I love thee?" by Elizabeth Barrett Browning.

#love #thoughts #think

aesthenne Sep 2015

untitled

reaching out to visualise some colours
but the possibility has a low chance

i can't even see the reason why i can make things
draw listlessly on a piece of parchment

holding a pen, my ideas are just suddenly gone
like my mind decided to leave me in my shadow

i desire to be good with my works
but it seems that, my imagination isn't enough for everyone

i'm no people-pleaser but, why can't i be good enough?
it's hard to make these poems, drawings and stories

it feels like you're taking me down to a level
where i will feel like having an untitled imagination

i want to feel appreciated but my humility pulls me down

*what is wrong with me?

aesthenne Sep 2015

lies under the petals

you lied to me, idiot
you told me that we would play songs together
you told me that you would play with me
for the last time in your life
before you truly left me *behind

under the petals of the cherry blossoms
i was just a friend of yours who seemed so ordinary
a person who just wrote scores to a music sheet
whose fingers haven't touched a piano in years
stuck in the past of his horrible memories

you keep bugging me for canelés
you keep hitting me with your shoe
you keep pestering me to keep practising
i hate the way you see me as just a friend
but i really don't know what made me love you

you hid a secret from me at the start of april
henceforth, i was able to know about it
to know about it by seeing it without warning
that you were at your last days during the winter months
your hand slipping from consciousness, losing its grip

these music sheets i was never able to grasp for long
you gave them back to me, the energy that i've lost
to play the music full of words and expression
for i truly cannot be good with my own words
but through sounds, i can reach your heart

for the last time, i played, i played out for you
my heart pouring its feelings onto the piano
as if it was my very own, indulged to its melody
you face before me one last time with your violin
before i knew it, you left me with tears streaking down my cheeks

*you may be an idiot, but i love you very much

Your Lie In April

#love #lies #tears #music #violin #piano #freeverse #anime

aesthenne Sep 2015

the soul of wit and wisdom

Blue curtains draping over high, tall windows
Gazing into the glorious night sky you should know
In the highest tower, lies the eagle above others
Certainly more victorious than another

This is the House of wit and learning
Where points will be given that will be earning
The confidence in ourselves we strive to seek
So don't be shy and not too meek

The House of Ravenclaw takes only the best
But do not forget to get along with the rest
We hold the colours of the cool blue and shiny bronze
Yet we are the most quirkiest against all odds

And most of all, we value our wit and wisdom
For it is like our soul and our kingdom

Ravenclaw.

#poem #bored #harry #wisdom #hp #wit #harrypotter #potter #ravenclaw #rowenaravenclaw