nerves intertwined
with the natural environment
breathing nature in and out
heart beating
with the rhythms of the surroundings
harmony
instinctual evolution
you want more than this?
there is nothing better than nativity
you made life worse
the people colonialism slandered
are better than you
than you will ever become
I told myself
quietly
comforting my tainted worries
like an eternal mother
to sleep

fiction
intimate
with non fiction
on a honeymoon
on an island
the natives
serve them liquor and fruit
pretending to like them
tolerating the love affair
they better keep making love
settling into marriage
comfortable
in rest
tolerated no more
looks like dead riot police apologizing
looks like their fear tactics failed
looks like independence
feels like forever
feels like the people of the world
have something in common
an enemy
out in the open
with its branches spread thin
receding roots
the plot thickened
dried up and crumbles
fiction and non fiction fornicate
the ultimate revolutionary
is born

I need a break
from this unbreakable chain
of oppressive concealment
maybe not enough people care
the more violent
the more pain
there is there
We are having a reaction
to the chains
chronological revolt syndrome
symbiotic backlash
normalization of freedom fought for

the dunes
exfoliating our bare naked skin
the ocean is there
I can feel it
making me
and the sun is caressing our new skin
the clouds are moving too fast
for me to keep track of the shapes
this is how life begins
on the shores of love and gratitude
this is the end of worries
that stop dreams before they start
sinking through the top layer of the dune
trusting the depths we carefully travel into one another
this one day has been seven days
and only we know
in each others lips
that time does not exist yet

the grandfather of slavery
wage labor
is an abusive relationship
domestic demise of humanism
I cannot tolerate or stand my light skin
I want to lay in the blazing sun
until I am burnt beyond recognition
a raging fire that catches anyone near
I cannot stand that white people
think I fit in
just to end up realizing I do not
I want to fight my way out
with language and brute force
until whiteness realizes
clearly
in a broken impotent rage
that it does not fit in
not in the world of the future
not in the world of ethnicities
having passionate ***
as its desperation of indulgence
greed
guilt
and brutality fade back to evolution
sustainability throws it aside
I am the medium
the vessel
the glory
of nature

the aperture of doubt

look divide separate perseverate
alleviate alone groups filled with emptiness
families without relatives
social climbing down a cliff
with nothing to hold
climbing the endless journey
away from evolved us
taking involved us
shaking our roots from the dirt
the ground we once had with us
roots will search forever
in darkness
water is somewhere to be found
we will never give up
by design
contrary to the common enforcement
of reality that separates perseverates
polarity sincerely and honestly
without remorse
resolve
a discourse
of course life sustains the death
you dream of so vividly
lucid
just like when woke up
by awake people
with so much at stake
they cannot wait to sleep again
on the memory foam of America
frothing into nature
white water rapids ******* math
engineering with no one steering
stretching for the light
that enforced he was the son of god
but that was not originally the lightning rod
of Zeus
who was also blacker than Olympus lead on
and Medusa turned your reality into stone
from liquid fluid intake of love

The bridge to the sea
through endless
loving captivity
to the rest of them
unannounced as white
constitutionalized
owns liberty and justice
declared independent
laborious enforcement
come across the bridge to the sea
that is me
that is you
women giving us birth
still after all this
the entirety of the coolest crew
in the school of whiteness
training facilities destined for a dangerous fate
under construction
caution tape
a crime scene
surrounding America
excess of whiteness
weapons designed to **** humans
genocide not hunting for food
the excess of constructing internal and external
civil war
with genius funding
murderously generous politics
To humans in America
whiteness has been the most brutal weapon
ever created
a weapon of mass destruction
I have never heard so many
children crying at the same time
dying too
in rivers like
me to you
oceans climbing on land
grinding massive stone mountain hearts
into the finest sand
pouring out in-between our fingers
again and again over
all over the earth
molten again
liquid heat like *****
whiteness the most dangerous standard to set
mixed is the thread of the world
the bones of society
the common blood
connecting the best of humanity
with the biggest mistakes ever conceived of
and it was never a time
when humans had to be conceived
it was the enforcement of whiteness
forcing indentured servitude
into race based slavery
enduring the mental illness of whiteness
criminally insane
whiteness that is not ethnicity
Irish
French
Russian
German
Scottish
Not the same as whiteness made in America
with parts imported from everywhere but itself
whiteness is nothing without humans
who justify its existence
by blinding with false goodness
reserved for a few
by pointing out some good in whiteness
the worst most painful torture
is experienced
whiteness should be on reservations
warm trusting
cozy domestication of evolution
covered with small pox blankets
supplied by Jeffrey Amherst
and desperately sought by Ivy connected leagues
of high class suicide
on reservations so that
while once again nativity
returns society to sustainability
so once again we can feel evolution
and the intimacy intended
the sexuality it needs
to be felt
otherwise whose feeling are you?
who is feeling who
here?
expressing such vile institution
where prisons should be whiteness
criminally insane
guarded by an oath back to humanity
as its permeable captive walls
slaves brought back from graves never had
reincarnated through
our organic intelligence
whiteness is nihilism
at its finest
thinnest vision
of illusion
fascism at its worst
cannot keep organic intelligence from humans

Not so sure
not so sure
they know what is what
what they do
that is for what people see
them doing
what they do for being human?
not so sure they think there is a difference
how much of what we do
is for the perspective of others
smothering originality
with a pillow
and shoot!!

Pharaohs and pheromones
resting my head in-between
Nefertiti’s
gyrating origins
whose ***?

I am Emmett Till
watch me not smile
you can feel me whistling to white America
while I beg to be let in
with agony arising around my soul
severity of envy crushed my heart
She watched with a smile
while I was tortured
by the white men she used
because I would not do with her
the ***
she wanted
white America
I am dead
and I am no longer your *** slave

you’ll make a great addition to the stars
telescopes wont miss you
you’ll guide the travelers
keep the compasses steady
its already happened
if it will
spill your heart out
why not?
its all you got
its just not enough for them
they want to see it out
to believe it
pumping blood on the floor
ignore it while its in your body
they want to see the lungs you breathe with
the air that made your words
the hair the birds made their nests
the tests that shows whose best
the energy you spend so you can rest
undress and shine in supple eyes
surprise the moment
with random sighs of relief
sheath your weapon
let out your grief

neon ****
haunted tobacco
vengeance of cotton
broken words
purpose of procreation
decapitated capitalism

semantics chewed you up
and spit out your bones

among the earth
consumed with mindless malice
chanting sanskrit mantras
spiraling from Tibet
holding what peace of mind
can see through chaos
the sound suspends physical existence
to the universe
like the air under the wings of an eagle
clasping a serpent in its talons

parades of bombs lighting the silver night
causing ripples in the magnificence of the ocean
depleting the sensitivities of creatures
famine in the midst of bountiful weaponry
abundance of fire
now self incandescent
peace of minds at war
mourning choice

poems are also my offspring
orating and orchestrating
a million word march
reshaping freedom
respecting boundaries
boundaries apologize at the end
giving reparations to my language
ceasing to exist among gratitude

its the savages that have defined civilizations
in the near future
and in my mind
I can see movies showing children
the savagery of enforcing whiteness
confused and unable to help themselves
slobbering all over evolution
stumbling away from intelligence
savages wore fancy clothes
to compensate for a fantastic failure
impossible to sustain
inorganic
draining us
of our main resource
thinking

The same reason
you try and stop my mixing
My internal interracial *******
*** combustion engine
Our world we all have come from
cowardly exploited
Too busy trapped in the decaying residue
of white supremacy

Looking back
whiteness is my footprints
in the eggshells
I walked over
ever so cautiously
ever so vengeful
treading gently
I do not think I can get away
everyone has heard the crunching
and I cannot deny that those
were my footprints
and yes that is why I have been limping
and yes the ****** footprints
were also mine
and thank you for helping me
remove the eggshell shards
from my tender soles

poetry is none other than life
people appreciate in public
the poems that are abstractly nature
more than the ones that describe
how to arise from oppression
its sad  but comforting
because I also like nature
and wish
I could solely
along with my black family
just be human

Ignorance means cowardly
not ignoring something you know
that is why ignorance is the best seller
petrified ignorance is not evolution

its so nice to have you all here
to watch me unravel
it makes me feel safe
usually I haev to unravel alone
I can do it myself
but I would rather other people be involved
it takes some of the pressure off
and that is what god is
pressure

you are the hollow version of perception

declare war on white supremacy
or I am not speaking to you anymore

******* humanitarian
evolution
this is a letter from corruption
don't tell them about the bodies

the psychosis of absolute freedom
possesses your alarm clock
you press snooze
existentialism is hiding behind the next corner
in the darkness
waiting to scare the **** out of you

the complex social problems that exist
manifest
when death is not being witnessed
by bombings and starvation

Africa sent a Trojan horse to America
You call them slave ships
Lurking through slavery
Pure resilience
And when
After a hard long day
In the future which is now
White supremacy
Having not worked at all
unlabored
Fell asleep
full from all the fruits of blackness
And its throat was slit
once and for all
The Trojan Horse is me

Sparkling water
photographic memories
Contributing to beautiful dreams
And to nightmares unbearable to sleep
Intelligence is an immune system
Resisting the most lengthy thought out mistakes
Decomposition is what demands the form of life

Quiet the mind for a little bit longer
Intend on noticing the end and beginning of each breathe
Stop controlling everything for a little while longer
Focus intently on extending and nurturing this thought
Expand it to include yourself and others
Reincarnate into the interest of the other

Separate yourself from your own understanding
Play with the thought
that this might be the most important thing ever said
Let go of the reoccurring disappointment
Notice your standard
Destroy it
Notice its inherent importance
Expand it to include yourself and others
Look up from writing
She is gone

What if my lover was an abolitionist?
How would our child differ?
Would my nights be less risky targeted by dangerous urges?
My revolutions of mind would not be so lonely
They could come out at our dinner dates
They could hang around with my family at the play ground
Protect our fatherhood

Other than the remnants
I leave behind for my daughter
I am nothing anymore
I am not fear or the pain after it
I do not feel the same I used to
That innocence I could feel inside
when I least expected it is no more
I do not want anyone looking in my eyes anymore
I want to take myself away
from a relentlessly resilient society to humanity

Enough of this ******* spree!
No more you and me alone
lived alone died alone
Actually you watched me die alone
I paid attention to how to grow things beyond imaginations wild
My inner child roars
and lions ride out on elephant tusks
My heart is not carved from ivory or mahogany
It grew!
It was never shaped by anyone
Like being in love and stepping in **** all at once
She can tell how much
this world has destroyed in my life
and she just wants my focus on her
No more world weighting you down
Just be with me and love again

The damage is deep from racism
How much depth can I show you?
Education needs to be like a nuclear bomb
set to detonate out of spite without telling anyone
Then telling everyone
you still really love them
while kissing their forehead and clammy cheeks

Imagine the oppressor
Imagine the oppressed
Comfort your anxieties
With the mantra
Torture and punishment has happened
To shape the confidence of your language
Stealing original image
Vengeance must be imagined or it will consume you all like fire
Imagine the fire
Begin a new hallucination
Social limits
Aesthetic will not care
if it were put off any longer we would be gone
Give importance just to ruin it
I am building upon it
It has never gone away
risking life and risking death are the same

beauty doesn’t need us
love does not feed us
must we make the choice now
how far are we really
seems as quiet as a bomb
the thing is your caution
proves you wrong to the risk
they don’t give a ****
about your families
enemies
enemies
enemies
all I see is words from captivity
only if we
could know what did
this to you and me
things dissipate for reasons
fade into corrosive obscurity
the beauty of creativity
is that it is inherently misunderstood

stay creatively fierce
time is frozen struggle
misunderstood memory
the other destroyed
by its own compassion
for movement

I died of anger
at the point which
poetry finds you
abstraction saves you
you could never
enter the violet night
concealing the moon
like violence does you
you always say poetry
like you are accomplished
accommodated
no one knows
what will happen
that is why
you accept gravity
light

every constant is a fortress of assumptions
in a world kept safe by change
the organic state
maintained as the only constant
change

perhaps
black and white
is not as distanced
as you thought
maybe even hoped
I am here
to prove that

regardless of whether is was me or not
it is inevitable
that a mixed race male
would be considered “passing”
and accumulate all the weapons
and silent confidence
of privileged society
trained with the most valuable
intellectual materials
he would expose the disparity
and its shame
in its naked entirety
like I
everyday
exist in its entirety
thoroughly through
the most cooperative
conceivable act
of eternal mixture

if the emanations of the motive were noticed
one would be completely still
defined
uniform
a choice in the flesh
intricate doubt

atleast when I am in a cell
blood drips pretty from these wrists
as handcuffs cut through
I am safe from the abuse
slander
and deceit
when freedom looks like ****** handcuffs
they didn’t use the second tool
that stops them from squeezing tighter
and tighter
with steel like unforgivable
cold and ******
and the fullness of the moon
glows through its nearest clouds
red and full of overshadowed doom
like a solar powered night lite
fathomless thought
pervades understanding
dragged two hundred feet
by the chain’s disparity
in-between each handcuff
while stomping on my head and chest
I never used to shake like this
or tremble as if my body
is someone else

plants evolved organic defense mechanisms
when being preyed upon
they send off organic frequencies
that attracts a predator to what preys on them
natives and indigenous humans
have and even more complex
organic defense mechanism
to hurt and torture sends signals
organic signals
evolved humans
so therefore slavery
although the intentions were white supremacy
attempting to subordinate and control
through fear and enforcement of whiteness
because whiteness exists from fear of being tortured
African who are native
indigenous
but also
native
doctors
lawyers
engineers
professors
families
warriors
forcing into slaves
shipping and importing into every space imaginable
of America
conception
thorough dispersion
****** and procreating
light skinned warriors
infiltrated every aspect
of predatory whiteness
and so without meaning to
accidentally
the organic defense of natives
indigenous
humans
those attempting it be predators
are overwhelmed by humans who are still
close to being native
indigenous
so whiteness
in denouncing
native
indigenous
evolution
denouncing blackness
denouncing womanhood
we all came from Africa
whiteness denouncing origins
creates a place that can no longer exist
having invited and imported its own demise
outsourcing its own existence and sustainability
what a terrible mistake
to torture such evolved
humans
who also have the freedom
to perform vengeance
in any way desired
without warning
private and public
invincible
impeccable
predators to the failure of whiteness
to consume humanity
into objects of indulgence
in order for whiteness to continue
it would have had to keep us in captivity
completely
thoroughly
but it couldn’t
it fails its attempt
because we are too powerful
and we charmed so many
of associates to whiteness
and competed with the fear of not being white
making it too dangerous
liable
to keep us in captivity
won them over
to being human
native evolved
evolution is destroying whiteness
through infiltration
conception
procreation
pseudo forgiveness
organization
impunity of whiteness
becomes its weakness
whiteness would have to declare
absolute martial law
and be completely uniform
about its intentions and meaning
to be its group
severely brutal and unforgiving
but it failed to maintain
this status quo
legally
socially
psychologically
institutionally
sexually

and more real than your fears

so if black people
enslaved white people
for 250 years
then let them be ex-slaves
in the name of liberty
under a hand written
signed constitution
to stilll labor
for the excitement of killing
impunity
****** superiority
lives of infinite compromise
less than possible to survive
constantly *****
and killed for being white
legally
by black and white women in uniforms
with badges
insurance
familes
anger and impunity
******* in their minds
chains and slave ships
designed for their efficient torture
then racism would matter to them
and they would help us
but then we wouldn't need help
they would

the scientific achievement of evil
pseudo perfection
of temporal stages of process
science works to find the answers
of indigenous
slain
by elitist impulses unfinished
incomplete logic
the past remains in writing
deceiving the oral history
of the earth’s true nature