This shared story of ours
just sang its last verse.
In these last agonizing hours,
saw our love explode in reverse.

Rejected once again,
despair's endless chain.
Fate's allowed continuance,
illusion's promiscuous influence.

Kind time unwinds.
Memories separating.
Bright skies, clouding
Our happiness fading.

In the deepest recesses of my heart, I know,
I wont be able to escape from what follows.
The idea of a happy ending, so far, so hollow,
emptiness is what remains, misery's flow.

Barbed wires around my heart
both keep it safe and forsaken.
reality's trap, it was so smart,
experienced infatuation, so mistaken.

Amidst the rainbow storm inside my soul,
inner bright cacophony that just wont stop.
Destruction of self, my next goal.
one final harvest from hatred's crop.

Let the tar clouds from black skies
rain down on your people parade.
Let the endless sealess cries
remind you of my trust betrayed.

Dreams undo apart.
Hopes rise only to fall.
Illusion, a mastering art.
Delusion, the world in all.

A promising red moon over my head
tells me the story of what lies ahead.
Someone deserving your ill intent,
prays for resolution in time spent.

Did you see me falling in your darkness?
will you ever stop being my enemy?
Should I wait in eternity,
enduring it's cruel harshness?

My heart feels quite numb,
amidst this emotional emergency.
If one thing I know with certainty;
Fairy tales aren't real, I was so dumb.

Embracing my unrelenting demons
my terrors remain unclaimed.
Cannot find a logical reason,
to live with the monster, unnamed.

Friends, collateral damage.
Enslaved to the fear within me.
I know we cannot be salvaged,
still, I search for that lost part of me.

The red moonlight stirs
through the trees, so clear.
Only one wish left,
to burn it with fire.
This unholy forest of desire.

Storms settle down over a sunset.
A secret in the night,
against my plight,
a blessing in disguise,
a guardian onset.

Across these empty halls..
My forgotten heart,
screaming.

Inside these cursed walls..
Your name echoes,
decaying.

Under this blazing sun,
My lonely hate,
is burning.

A war raged between us,
engorged in distrust.

Our little piece of heaven
quickly turned to dust.

That fateful moment,
so long overdue,
stolen.

With lies spoken,
I became frozen,
broken.

They eat away at me like a parasite.
I know they still remain inside of me.

(Manifesting)

Destroying my identity,
Like an malevolent entity.
It eclipses me physically,
I've lost all tranquility.

(Confining)

Anxiety never going away.
In fear, forever thinking.
Closed doors to empty rooms,
memories are what remains.

(Dissolving)

What is wrong with me?
Why do I revel in suffering?
I try to push the crushing pain away,
but it returns at the end of the day.

(I just want to escape myself)

Nothing's changing.
My hope, sinking.
My story, erasing.
My love, paling.

(I feel I'm fading away..)

My misery unfolding,
the sickness, growing,
the wound, festering,
my strength, collapsing.

It's time to erase the last of me.
Left alone, stranded deep within,
in the mirror, a happier twin.
It's time to face the wrath of me.

(Confronting)

Feeling like being in stasis.
Maybe in a full metamorphosis.
Don't let me go of me.
until I escape myself.

Puertas cerradas y oportunidades escondidas.
Elecciones pasadas y consecuencias retorcidas.

En el vació entre corazones,
argumentos sin razones.

Lagrimas caen siguientes,
nunca son suficientes.

Entre comunicación fallida
malentendidos, la única salida.
Ofensa e ira, algo que nunca se olvida.

Dentro de esta fantasía, la crueldad se siente real.
A través de la travesía, el obstáculo se vuelven mental.

Atrás del reloj del tiempo naciente,
yace o se hace frente, pero nunca es suficiente.
Aquel amor pasado, el cual ya no esta presente.

Flotando sobre tumbas en niebla y nieve,
la esperanza se revienta pero nunca se atreve.

Nubes que opacan el cielo de la promesa,
ausentes como el corazón que nunca regresa.

El futuro carmesí, brilla como un rubí desolado
en medio del desierto del pensamiento cerrado.

No hay libertad del presente,
el momento siempre se siente.
cuando la esperanza se encuentre ausente.
al miedo hay que hacerle frente.

Sueña ahora con algo diferente.
Yo te deseo, mucha suerte.

A stray homeless dog wanders this crumbling city.
It's heart held back by fear of failure.
Sniffing for survival, hungry and filthy.
Exiled by the pack, forever branded a traitor.

His bark echoes in these empty streets
the sound oblivious to unwilling ears.
All these shadows waiting for sin's release
living their life with cogless gears.

Resolution, broken.
Hope lost, unspoken.
I've let all of you down.
trying to keep my ego's crown.

I'm sorry.

Old sepia photos, nostalgia recalls.
Did I have to be sacrificed after all?
Life is now colors of orange and black.
Still, I wish to bring the rainbow back.

My own fragile little universe,
protecting it with loneliness.
Icy waterfalls in reverse,
preventing friendly caress.

Come and break it down for me.

These cold walls, high into endless sky.
A precise strike it's all it's gonna take.
Under desolation's weight, walls will break.
So we can finally see each other, eye to eye.

Finding solace in your caring arms,
hunger for hope in soulless eyes
feeling parched for penitence.
regret, my only sentence.

I only wanted to be a hero.

Teach me to care again,
my emotions have been wasted,
my smile is only painted,
my stone heart, my only gain.

Make me human again,
sweep me with your sympathy,
my demons, with your love, slain.
our purpose, realigned, in symmetry.

Come and break down with me

A river of pain will flow,
drowning in torrential tears,
as we review our existing fears,
safe from the scorn of our peers.

Let the despair wash through,
clearing the path in front of us,
let's walk this road, together,
A crossroad, to places ubiquitous.

----------------------------------- -
It's never too late to start being
that which we always could be.

Aside the step which sounds hollow..
Bringing the solitude that as a shadow follows,
stranded in deep thought with pain and focus,
in this spot, another self has been brought.

Forming amidst the dark recess of a suicidal mind,
Desperation and longing for an end, combined.
Ego finds death and rebirth in kind.
A hellish pact has been signed.

Letting go of the remainder of a failing life..
An unholy dark tool, a carving knife.
Motivation and purpose sparks from this new strife.
Who else can think of a more satisfying rise?

Waking up on the hospital bed,
everything seems so shallow.
Only the new being in my stead
understands what lies ahead.

Blue skies in its eyes..
Free from the lies..
It has won it's prize.

Hello.

Again.

How long has it been?
since you took over my skin?
since you became my sin?
This sickness from within,
I'm sure you want my ending to begin.

Poison in my world,
a perfect place in hell,
inside a golden cell,
a story remains untold.

You want a special farewell
or something for my love to compel?
a destiny for your lies to quell
or a fate only God can foretell?

Do I have news for you..

I still remember how this path began.
A last broken vow, a final failed plan.
Invisibility your surprising shield
as you just concealed and disappeared.

Venom in your words,
a blight hidden inside,
corruption in your cards,
trust always denied.

Goodbye.

Again.

Inside a synthetic fantasy,
running from love's fall,
experiencing artificial destiny
when my life came to a crawl.

True life outside self-prison walls,
I can feel my purpose originate,
just another illusion's thrall,
twin ideas self-replicate.

(Why cant I keep misery at bay?!)

A lone perpetual memory,
I was just not chosen.
Reliving ancient agony,
I'm so cold, forgotten.

All senses lie to me,
truth hides unspoken.
Delusions are all I see,
I feel my mind is broken.

(Why cant this go away?!)

Unlit candles melt away,
under a cruel dark sun.
Colors fade back to grey,
watching a sadistic rerun.

Inside a forgotten cage
my heart lies sprawled,
unwilling to re-engage,
to her, enthralled.

How can I hope to see a new day?
If my heart still lies frozen..