I've got that feeling once again,
After staying up til 3 A.M,
When insecurities start to creep,
And I curse myself for lack of sleep.

It seems I have no way of knowing,
Which way my thought process is going,
One day I'm happy, the next I'm glum,
And console myself with smoke and ***.

I try to find a compromise-
Get blasted drunk, and close my eyes,
But the world keeps spinning round and round,
Bottle's empty- no peace found.

Like the Irish airman in the sky,
I seem to watch as other lives flash by,
Then I pass out, hoping I'll never know,
The places those tormented souls must go.

Do not fall inlove with a writer
they see and feel everything.
particles that somersault in the morning ray telling them to embrace the day

They can smell the haunting
aroma of a coffee
whispers 'go grab your pen and write'

they look into a person's eyes
and could witness
how a sea crash into someone's soul

Do not fall inlove with a writer
they appreciate and value everything you do

they could see the entire universe
from your smile
only the ocean could tell
their hopes and fears.

They easily fall and break too hard.

Don't fall inlove with a writer
they'll make you their muse

from good times to bad times,
you will be the lyrics of their song.

Last Day
Its your last day, our last stay.
Why you not awake,
Open your eyes for me
And lets pray.
This was not a mistake
How we met on that day
In that same place.
Me and you together, thats what they say.

So, please wake and,
Wait till we both hit the hay.
Cause watching you fall asleep,
Is causing me so much pain.
Were in the same space, same place.
Open your eyes for me,
So we can play our last game,
talk this last talk and
End my pain.

Please don't leave me.
Don't you free me.
Cause you need me,
To guide you through this.
I can feel your pain.
At ease without you being awake
I understand its your last day.
Better to have your eyes closed,
To ensure we don't make no mistake.

I will pray,
Guide you through this,
To those forgotten gates,
On the other side
I will stay.
I will ensure your body remains at our place.
I will not forget you
I promise, I have that faith.

I feel like I'm alone,
Lost in this world,
Without no where to go.
Sometimes,
I'm like,
Forget this world.
I'm gone.

How can I have,
My friends and family around,
Yet  feel so cold,
Still have this hole.
I feel so lost.

Oh Lord save me.
These lonely nights,
Are making me hate me.
Didn't you say you,
Made me.
Changed me.
Saved me.
Lord don't forsake me.

My heart's telling me,
You got me.
But my mind feels,
Like you don't want me.
I feel so lost.
But in God, I trust.
Lord save me.