Danielle Lilia

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

If

God existed,
Why'd he make me?

I must be worth something.
If I get to live.

He knows what I did.
He knows what I do.

And I'm sure He knows that someday,
I'll do great things too.

He chose me of all the angels above.
And so this is what makes me special.

We exist. We have the gift of being here. The gift of being able to think, to love and to hurt. All these are gifts. God chose us to live because He knows that one day, any day, you'll change someone's life.

#life #god #earth #he #angels #live #great #gift #chose

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

I said

I can make my choices,
Never did I say I'd make the right ones.

#expectations #independent #choices

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

Ups and Downs

You need to remember,
You can never reach the heavens,
If you were there all along.

You have to start below,
To jump high,
And reach the stars.

It is better that way,
Than to start all the way up,
And hit the earth, hard.

Life is just something that confuses,
Both me and you.
Sometimes, you fall when you’re up,
But when you least expect it,
You rise again.

But when you are reining the heavens,
You fall.
But when you are so close to giving up,
You rise.

You should always keep in mind,
That you can never stay in one place for too long.

Life has its ups and downs.
Allow it to bring you down,
And it will allow you to take flight.

It’s tough,
But that’s just how it is.

#heavens #perseverance #reach #goals

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

Goodbye

Goodbye my friend,
I thought about this,
Long before now,
It’s just that,
I have never showed my pain.

Friend, oh dear friend.
I have found the light.
I need to leave,
To a place far from here,
All the way up there.

It isn’t your fault.
PLease don't cry.
I love you,
But it’s gotten too hard.

You’ve helped me through,
But I am stuck,
I can’t move.
You have to go on,
Live life to it’s fullest.

Don’t follow me.
Please, it is fine.
I found the light.
I need to leave,
To a place far from here.

I’m leaving,
Right now.
So, goodbye my friend.
Hope to see you,

*In the next life.

This can be used as a suicide note. I was thinking of a plot when I was writing this. A friend, trying to help another friends had tried everything to stop whatever had happened after the character finished writing this poem. It, being life, was too much for her to handle.

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

Leaving Me

I remember,

Every time I fell
You picked me up.
And every time I cried
You stayed to comfort me.

You gave everything to me
And all I did was whine
You were beautiful
In and out.

Your smile was bright
And everyone believed you.

When I was weak
You stood tall
And pulled me up
To wake me.

Though, one day
I was at your doorstep
Ready to come in.

But hearing something peculiar,
I ran upstairs
Only to witness a scene I will never forget.

Reunited and so high above,
I now ask you,
“Why did you leave?”

When I suddenly noticed,
I left too.

Let's say this character was weak and it showed every single day of her life and depended on her friend who stayed strong for her. Her friend was the strong one, the shoulder to cry on, she had no time to cry because the character was doing enough crying for the both of them. But one afternoon, the character's friend took her life. The character went crazy after that, so depressed and tired. The character killed herself as well in the end.

#suicide #depression #alone #betrayal #friendship #heaven #left

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

Façade

Façade, dear façade,
Why show such lies?
Why mask my soul,
With smiles and laughs?
Why put up such a show?

Why make me play,
In front of an audience,
But cry when there’s none?

Why keep me up on the stage,
Making me fear the future?
I’ve spent too long,
Oh so long,
On a stage used ever so often.

I’ve been moulded into a statue,
With a smile on my lips.
I laugh a cracked laugh.

Façade, oh façade,*
Why show such lies?

#lies #facade

Danielle Lilia Jul 2014

Rope Against My Neck

They’re there to trick you,
And to trip you.
They make you fail, they break your heart.
But that isn’t even the worst part.

They keep you down,
And make you drown,
In the misery already indomitable.
Just another problem unsolvable.

They ****, they burn.
Not much new to learn.

And so, I keep my eyes forward,
Not sparing them a glance anymore.
And no longer do I move
As I savour my last breath.

Oh God, I have a rope against my neck.

#suicide #sad #depressed #rope

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