I know we will end up getting hurt
Every memory cuts right through
Passing time as we grow and change
The memories never do

To hold the fleeting happiness
Together once shared
Had to capture past with photographs
Smiles we no longer wear

Instead are small
Sorrowful
Strained
Matching the sadness in pained eyes
Say we can retreive love lost
Telling ourselves lies

Sometimes have this look about you
Current of convincing energy
Against all sense and reason struggle
Trick my heart back into loyalty

Head above devoted delusions
Waiting for the rest of myself
My body's still stuck at rock bottom
After years of your loosely veiled hell

Love is the true Eldorado
Is a cruel mirage
Paradise we're not meant to find
Love is just pain camoflauged

There are those who love me
But not with a burning flame.
There are a few who make a frown
At the mention of my name.

There are those who think I’m God -
That I can walk on water
But when you tally up those votes
You can’t add in my daughter.

She thinks that I am toxic
And that I ruined her life.
The disdain that she has for me
Is sharper than a knife.

She has no joy to share with me,
Her sadness… hers alone.
I have no access to her thoughts
Her attitudes remain unknown.

She offers me the minimum
Of contact and of discourse
She cannot wait to get away
Runs faster than a race horse.

Toting up the fans who rave
The few who walk away
There’s only one that really counts
And she’s a “no” today.
ljm

There is nothing quite like loneliness
To make you empty and cold
No greater pain than when your heart is ripped apart
By same hand you used to hold

I'm angry with you
I am sure you don't care
If these words were spoken I'd be wasting my air
My feelings not even an afterthought in your brain
You are too selfish to consider my pain