There are those who love me
But not with a burning flame.
There are a few who make a frown
At the mention of my name.

There are those who think I’m God -
That I can walk on water
But when you tally up those votes
You can’t add in my daughter.

She thinks that I am toxic
And that I ruined her life.
The disdain that she has for me
Is sharper than a knife.

She has no joy to share with me,
Her sadness… hers alone.
I have no access to her thoughts
Her attitudes remain unknown.

She offers me the minimum
Of contact and of discourse
She cannot wait to get away
Runs faster than a race horse.

Toting up the fans who rave
The few who walk away
There’s only one that really counts
And she’s a “no” today.
ljm

There is nothing quite like loneliness
To make you empty and cold
No greater pain than when your heart is ripped apart
By same hand you used to hold

I'm angry with you
I am sure you don't care
If these words were spoken I'd be wasting my air
My feelings not even an afterthought in your brain
You are too selfish to consider my pain

I try to view as just a bump in the road
Wish silently the right way to be shown
I've been walking this path for so many years
Other directions seem to disappear
I sit and wait for opportunity's knock
It doesn't
Continue to walk..
Against wall my back is pressed
Is this destiny or simply a test?
I should be alarmed
The darkness closing in
It's nothing compared to the blackness within

Soon I will start healing
At least that's what I hope
It's what I tell myself each night
To ease my grief and help me cope

What a cruel reality
The lonely ditch I've dug
No words to describe the depth of my pain
No one to listen
Nobody to hug

A terrible lie resounds in my head
"It's all your fault "
A voice declares
A barrage of negative beliefs cavort
In a twisted game of musical chairs

Broken promise of forever
Remaining shards rest in my hands
Along with the fading traces
Of our once-unified plans

Imprisoned by sweet memories
Held captive in their embrace
Try to take a step forward
But my feet are frozen in place

Never have I felt so low
Crushed by overwhelming desire
Not understanding how attraction so strong
Could suddenly with no warning expire

I yearn for happiness I had
Before blue skies turned grey
Now the closest to joy I will get
Are those moments in my mind I replay

An awful truth I must accept
Is that you are never coming back
And since you left my heart has darkened
To an ugly shade of bluish-black

I fear my tomorrows will all be the same
In this tunnel I see no light at the end
It has been a whole year since goodbye
And these wounds haven't yet begun to mend

Set my soul free from misery
And the love to which it is bound
Maybe then I will uncover peace
That so far cannot be found