Searching for a dream is a lie
If I could swim through the fall
Then summer would be mine
Last seen, in the corner of my eye
Just beyond the clarity that skips across the sky
Dancing on the edge of an eyelash
Normality’s the enemy, she’s foreign to my mind
Bodies grinding, the skin turns raw
Do you take your drunken promises
With ice and a straw
Ode to wicked sins, another hopeless romance
I guess you have to find yourself
To ever stand a chance

Time separates me. By the neck and head.
It unscrews me, until I drop dead.
I don't want to write what you want to read
but then again I never want you to see me.

Don't do this, don't be foolish?
Let me tell you, don't
tell me I'm stupid.
Who are you
with your spiked shoes and hell hair
to tell me where to lay my bitterness.
Why - I'll drink myself to death.
Fig blood is sweeter than
the mud in my bedroom
and the drool on my textbooks
anyway
you'll never do a thing about it because
I don't think you've ever cared.

Have you ever fallen off a tree?
Oh, let me tell you a secret!
Age does not discriminate!
The fall can be so painful that even scars left behind
Will make you weep at night,
The deepest scars are full of regrets,
But the sweetest revenge is to rise once again!

Copyright© Cynthia Ulloa
All rights reserved.

school girl skirt
doorman
taste of corona in a coffee mug
sitting by the east river
red wine
kisses
drunk kissing
laughing
the beatles
dancing
harsh sunlight
wooden floor
no food in the fridge
only two coffee mugs
and a few beers.

My favorite fruit la mas sabrosa
La mas Hermosa mi querida
Esposa la bella rosa pienso en ti
Me muero sin ti Ya te vi
Cambiastes bien mucho
Pero todavia te quiero mas
Y bien mucho estas mas shorty
Es lo de menos me gustan tus cenos
No muy grandes tampoco chicos
Soy tu chico de tu tipo
Tus labios estan jugozos
Con amor los gozo
Comerte entera como el ozo
Eres mayor que yo en edad
Pero soy mas grande en realidad
No importa si no eres la mas bella
Para mi eres una estrella
La Luna Que Alumnae Mi Camino
No tengas miedo, para mi nunca
Seras fea, para mi siempre seras
La Mas Bella

You are a madman.* And I am drunk on your attention. I slither and glide towards you. Crawling beneath your still form,. Desperate for the heat that your body openly offers.

     You are a gladiator. And I a spectator in your quest for entertainment. I move to the rhythm of the lasso. I flinch and cry out. Bits of flesh tear from my skin. Small rivers of blood converge and flow.

     You are the dictator. And I am your slave. I'm here to please you. Serve you with all I am. I give my body. Unhitch my soul.

          *I am yours but you'll never be mine.

I aimed for the sky
and got myself to the moon
still,
i can't help but wish
you were my shooting star
so that you would quench
this burning desire
to have you all to myself

You think you know the way I think, huh?
You think you know me.

If you thought the way I did, you would have killed yourself by now.
And if you knew me,
You'd know that I love life way too much to end it.