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 Oct 2014 catastrofvck
Adam Mott
I am the creature with one hundred eyes
Colorful yet blind
Hungry and trite
Pulling quotes from outside
I am rising to the tides
Listening to music from those who long ago died

I am
Tongue tied
Pulling verses from deep inside
Covering my inhibitions
Those which urged my insight
I am ready to go out with the tide
That final lustrous tide
With which,
I bid thee goodbye
Stressin or blessin
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 Oct 2014 catastrofvck
Dr Strange
I just want to be noticed and loved as well
First 10w
Hey just calling to say hi, 
Hoping you would make a little time, 
To talk to me and calm my fears. 
Missing you like crazy
I guess you're just too busy.

Hey me again, just calling to say hi,
Hoping to talk to me you would try. 
Been patiently waiting to hear
To my one true love,you my dear
But Wait a little longer I must do
Just to try and speak with you.

WHY Wont you pick up your phone
You Leave me hanging, all alone
I just want to hear you and just say hi,
Not to hurt you or hear you cry.
Just missing you and feeling bad, hoping to hear from you, sincerely sad.

Why won't you answer, you hear it ring. 
Please pick up, please oh please
I just need to hear from you, a voice so sweet
Need you more than my heart to beat.
So please pick up, im at my end
Be my lover, be my friend.
No answer again , its plain to see
Forever meant nothing, from you to me...
Goodbye my lover, goodbye my wife
Gave you everything including my life... 
So as you listen one day near, 
Please stay strong when you hear:

I try, and try, and try 
To reach you with no reply
Called before to just say hi, 
Calling this time to say goodbye...
I'll open up and let you in
My broken heart on need of mend,
I'll Fall in love it don't make sense... 
Looks like I'm Just a boost of confidience...
Pick you up to watch me fall,
You will walk and i will crawl. 
Back inside my shell i'll hide...
Put up walls to coincide... 
A world thats cold and never right, 
Let me love, if only for one more  night...
I fell for you so hard, so fast,
wanted this feelings to always last...
I hope you feel the way i still do,
But you don't... And now i'm blue,
You want to stay friends you've changed your mind,
Guess i'm just to weak and too kind,
So here i'll wait in this zone, 
And just a friend as i'll be known.
Thanks for your support you'll say,
But i'll die a little every day.
But I'll bear the burden for this to last, 
Because when im with you my heart beats fast...
i hope that one day dreams come true, 
and from your lips, I love you...
So here ill stay until the end,
In the zone just As a friend...
 Oct 2014 catastrofvck
Ash
Remember the day
We met at first glance?
You asked me to stay
So I took the chance

Now here I stand tall
Dear love, hear me cry
I gave you my all
So why would you lie?
 Oct 2014 catastrofvck
laiviv
One moment, you’ll start to realize
how much their touch could melt your skin,

and how their words bled
with empty promises

but could fill your soul,
starving for security, trying to fix the cracks.

And there will be agony,
but you’ll mistake it all for love.

One moment you’ll see yourself in their eyes—
lifeless—buried in tragedies, unable to escape

and there, you’ll stay.
Not in their life, but in their eyes,

burning with catastrophe;
there will be flames, devouring your insides

and you will mistake gasoline for your patience
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever stop crying

If I'll ever get over the years of training
the sweat
the bruises
the strains and sprains
the cool of a sprung floor against my cheek
out of breath in the wings awaiting my queue

I wonder if it's actually possible to regain the flexibility that can only come from hundreds of hours of plies and port de bras
I wonder if I'll ever be able to feel as alive as I do in a leotard and footless tights in any other article of clothing?
Because sometimes I feel like one of my favorite parts of me is a
memory

fading more and more every year

like a spirit trapped inside a body that can't handle all its grace and beauty and freedom
that can't hold its pirouettes

I fear that I'll never walk into a studio and feel like I own it again,
like the sky is the limit
like my strength knows no bounds

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to just accept whatever is in store.
Was my last audition my last audition?
I wish I savored it more

I know I'll be fine
but that is the only me I've ever known
and
the largest dream I ever felt I could absolutely realize
How do you let go of something you've wanted your entire life?
...a drive that flows through your blood...
How do you accept the possibility of never attaining it?

There are times when I'm okay
or more or less distracted
and feel like I'm at peace with God's omnipotent will
If he want's me to dance, then I'll dance one day
He knows the desires of my heart
Still
I can't help seeing reminders of where I want to be
where I ought to be
this fundamental piece that's missing
that has helped shaped all that I am today

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever stop crying
in mourning
for the dancer in me.
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