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Para akong sumusuntok sa hangin noon,
Noong bigla kang nagpadaig sa ihip nito.
Sana tinangay na rin pati ang damdamin,
Mas masakit pala kasi iniwan **** may pait.

Para akong sumusuntok sa pader ngayon,
Ngayong sabi **** hindi naman nagbago
Pero ang sakit na ng mga kamao ko,
Nasusugatan ako
Pero pilit akong kumakatok
Sa puso **** malaki ang pader.

Para akong sumusuntok sa punching bag,
Pinipilit kong husayan kahit dumadaplis ako.
Kapag  nangangatog ang tuhod ko't napapaluhod,
Sabay ang luha sa tagaktak ng pawis.
Pero muli akong bumabangon.

Para akong sumusuntok sa unan,
Gusto kong mamahinga
Pagkat pagod na ang puso.
Masakit na ang mga kamao
Naaawa na ako sa sarili ko,
Kaya't pipilitin kong pumikit.

Kailangan ko ng tulog na mahimbing
Oo, iiyak na naman ako
Sinusuntok kita
Hindi dahil galit ako;
Sinusuntok kita
Kasi kahit pagod na
Sayo nais mamahinga.

Here I am
Once again
Faced with the challenge of writing something new

Here I have
A clean slate
A brand new outlet to put myself into

A new piece to write!
A fresh new start!
Another chance to give all of my heart!

Yet
I struggle to find the right words to place
On this unfamiliar, empty space
And I slowly end up tearing myself apart

Because beginnings are always the hardest part

It's said that there are many fish in the sea
But to me
You were the ocean
So blue and yet so unclear
Engulfing me in your waters until I dissappeared
Into the unknown

I dove headfirst into the abyss
As I watched the waters turn a darker shade of blue
Descending deeper into a world that was all too new
I headed straight down

1000...
2000...
3000 meters
Until I finally reached the bottom and saw your darkest regions
The place where no sunlight ever dared enter
And you introduced me to the ghastly creatures that called your sea bed home

I spent so much time absorbed that I didn't even notice that I was running out of air
That I was already suffocating
So I came out flailing with exhausted lungs
Sputtering water and gasping to breathe
Yet even as I lay there on the surface
Unconsciously drifting away
Your relentless waves crashed over me and dragged me back in a maddening cycle

But I let it all happened

Because I chose to test your waters
I took on the challenges of braving the currents
The challenges of loving you
And even though your tides took me to places I didn't want to go and your waves relentlessly toppled over me

I never held it against you

Because every night, when the tides stood still and your waves calmed down
I looked at you in admiration and saw how you reflected the stars in the night sky
How they glimmered on your skin
And shined with so much hope
Radiated so much wonder
Mesmerized with such beauty
I was enthralled

But it's sad to think that a man can only last so long in the sea
That over time, the water turns his hands wrinkled
His body fatiguged
His feet sore from trying so hard to stay afloat
That eventually, he must swim back to the shore

And eventually lose sight of the ocean

It's been a while since I've been out of your waters
I don't know when I'll regain the strength to jump back in
But know that I'll be stronger next time

Your waters have made me more resilient
And at least I have that to thank you for

What a wonderful world you built for two,
A painter you are, and she- a hue
Guess I'll always be the girl; a palette only with shades of blue,
Drawn in my mind, *me and you.

If the person you love
Is truly
Holding you up
Then there's no way
You could fall
For someone else

A daytime nightmare
enough to make me cry
My beating heart you'd daringly tear
leaving me bawling and wondering *why?

I reach out and touch the glass
I see you safely in it
naive to the world's harsh reality
then I think to myself
"What a beautiful gem. So near yet so far."