take your car keys and drive towards the nearest bridge

park the car and walk to the edge
gaze upon the river and take a deep breath
try to let the air flood your lungs
and the view fill your eyes
try to let the afternoon sun warm up your cold skin
try to let all your senses work as one in harmony

walk closer to the edge
to the very brim
until there is no space left between now and then

what would happen if you let go?
what would happen if you gait to the void?

would someone miss you?
would you miss someone?

think of all the things you should have said and done
think of all the 'I love you' you left to be said
all the I'll do it later
when there's no more later to do it

in that moment
when everything feels wrong
take a step further
a step to your fate

picture your world framed by that sun
and keep it like there's no tomorrow to come

remember your family
remember your friends
remember all the people you know and care about

now go back to them
go back and pretend this never happened
put a smile in your face
live one day after another
pretending you never been in that bridge

the air feels different now
the landscape has more color
and the sun shines warmer
the smiles of your friends look more honest

but they don't know what happened there
they can suspect it
maybe see it in your eyes
but they don't know

only you and you yourself
knows what happened in the nearest bridge



it's funny how something that happened only to you
can change the perception you have
about all the other things
they look different
but it wasn't they who changed
it was you who grew

I can't support the smell of fried chicken
or the taste of fries
I can't stand the fizzy drinks
or the muffins or the pies

all this junk food they push down my throat makes me sick
it slowly kills my good taste
it crushes my creativity
it turns me into a big fat pig



I barely remember your smell
only when the night is quiet
and the moon shines in silence
I can recall the taste of Euphoria in your neck

that perfume that used to light this brume
and recharge my lungs
that perfume that I barely remember
but I miss it so much



in the end
all I got left is this disgusting smell of mine
over that sweet fresh fragrance
by Calvin Klein

let the clock stay frozen in time
let your lips be touched by mine
all the cells of our bodies working together
let just stop this ******* clock forever

here in the dark
let our souls be one
please let our souls be one
you know what I'm talking about

don't let this moment be just one more
please feel this second like you never felt before
don't kiss and smile
kiss me and stay still for awhile

look me in the eyes
show me you love me
show me you feel me
don't show me lies

cause if it's just for ***
I'll try to find love somewhere else

look at them
cattle being loaded in tricolor wagons
"Mind the closing doors"
the shepherd says

headless chickens trying to find a seat
bulls butting the walls
everyone is scared
they fear that the dog next to them
rips them inside out

so they just pretend it's fine
it's time to read the Evening Standard
let me show you my new iphone
I've been playing Candy Crush Saga
and I've become pretty good at it
you know?

The next station is Victoria
said Hall 9000
that's where I got off
and left the rest of my comrades
they are building a windmill in East London

and me?
I'm just a donkey
I don't really want to get involved

knock knock
who is it?
love
love who?
love you

go away, you're not welcome
I don't need you
you're just a stupid feeling
a disease that violate our hearts and souls
that make our eyes go blind
and changes our perception of things
you make everyone sick as you pass by

you pretend you're perfect
that everything is beautiful
and it will stay that way forever

but then you go
go without a warning
leaving a hole where once was a heart full of you

I still have the scars of your name in my chest
I still remember the tears I droped for you

why you just came back now?
why now?
why after all this time?

didn't you know I was waiting for you
to knock on my bedroom door?