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 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
forestfaith
Messiness in my mind.
Gunshots like voices ringing.
The moon seems dark tonight.
The moon seems to cry.
That the tears drip down, and I see the blood of my heart.
Roses, made of thorns, the pain I felt when I see that cross.
flowers, painted with pain.
the light seems to hide.
the sorrow soaring high.
my heart hurts as i write this down.
i hope to see the beauty behind the madness before i fall down...
so urm, this is gonna stay here only for a while :)
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
oh me oh my
im sorry
i make your heels bleed from the eggshells,

im sorry
i bury landmines between your toes,

im sorry
i make you choke on your soft words.

im sorry i sail away.
same old same old
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
oh me oh my
when i arrived,
i rose as a sunrise.

as i grew,
i became his noon.

and i grew,
and i became dusk.

and now,
i am the night,
but he wanted day.

i hope he loves me anyway.
forever searching for my grandfather's approval
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
oh me oh my
They ask me if I still love you.

I blush, grin and say;

of course.

Why?

Because your eyes are of the most utter ocean blue,

but other days they're the currents of the stormy grey sea.

I see a current of salty water, deep, once blue, but now a faded grey.

I see a bundle of darkened grey clouds in the distance,

and the thunder rumbles from your irises,

and I hear it pound in the back of my mind.

I wonder if you knew.

I see a spark of lightening flash, only once in a while,

while you look at her.

My throat corrodes with bile.


She says she sees green demons lurking in the depth of my own ocean currents,

and I shrug.

What am I supposed to say?

I know you think about her.

Night and day.


The hardest part,

is a generic, old saying.

If you love them,

you let them go.

If they love you enough to stay,

or to come back,

you never let go.





But you haven't come back.
EDIT: Wow. Never expected this to blow up as big as it did. I thank you all so much!
EDIT: 2/15/14
i would say i never loved you, but that is a lie.
they say that your *first* love makes *you realize*, your first *love* wasnt really your first.
i pray for the day this happens.
*getting over you was the best thing i ever did.
and i did it for myself.*
so, one last:
*******.
you.***
EDIT: 9/14/14
i still hate you.
and you don't deserve her.
EDIT:   12/01/14
im sorry. you still arent
the same person
and neither is she.
but we all grow up.

EDIT
10/14/20
I was going through my bookmarks
on my old computer and found my old writings.
I just wanted to update this one last time to say things are better,
things are good. Thanks again for all the likes and comments.
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
cayden
talk
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
cayden
i want to talk
but the words don't come out
for i fear
you would find it uncomfortable

i want to talk
but i don't know how to say it
because my feelings
are a complete mess

i want to talk
but i don't know if you'd even appreciate the gesture
because i'm scared
that you will see me different

all i want to do is talk about how you feel
ask about how your day was
why you're not very excitable when your sister asks you to watch a movie you love
but you don't respond the way i hope you do

i don't know how to talk to you
recent events.
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
forestfaith
I might not know much.
But i know just this much about racism.
That it hurts.
that it scars and tears wounds apart.
that it kills and murders.
steals and slanders.
breaks and ruins.


Different people.
Different beds that they sleep on, is this how it is?
That some feel cold in a thick winter jacket.
That some feel starved even when they have enough.
putting labels on beautiful jars.
filled with the most beautiful of hearts and dreams untold.
words that burn.
burning them like paper.
are you one of no heart?
or perhaps a heart that simply has no sense of love.
that simply doesn't understand.
you say "its just a joke"
but it still burns them up with fire and smoke.
how those flowers die slowly i might know.
but i would need your help so that you don't have to know.
so that, you could put them back together and make them whole...
so urm I was scrolling through solli raphael's website and one thing really stood out to me. "The future needs YOU and ME to create EQUALITY across all levels of HUMANITY" ~ Solli and that we all could do something about the problems around us no matter the age. And I feel that we all could do a part in this!
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
forestfaith
Hello.
I am bare and broken.
I am lost, forsaken.
I am hurt and alone.
How lovely, sitting in the woods all on my own, far from home.
Memories flooding in, breaking my mind.
Mask, broken.
Shattered to the core.
I am sorry, I didn't mean to show you my true feelings.
Should I hide?
Should I have shown you the darkness painted in white?
I am so sorry.
I didn't mean to.
To show you how I really feel.
I am sorry that I offended you.
I am sorry that I have shown you my true colours in an attempt to heal,
To heal myself.
Farewell my friend, and I wish you good health.
heyooo hope you guys have a great day/night no matter where you are, I hope you know God loves you and have a blessed year ahead!
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
forestfaith
Goal
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
forestfaith
Short dreams.
Temporary beliefs.
Short-term hype.
Falling heights.
New "dreams" bought with money, dreams as sweet as honey.
It already ended when it started.
Coming back to only leave me dream-less, again, with temporary gains.
Stars I want to touch.
Joys I want in my heart.
I want living dreams.
To live in a breathing, moving, real dream...
A dream that is real.
A meaning, sealed.
A goal more valuable than gold.
My goal is to please God! yas
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
cayden
feelings
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
cayden
he's feeling something like love
she's also feeling something like love
he's unsure
she's confident
he's timid
she's brave
he's scared to commit
she's willing to commit

so she asks him
he rejects her

now both he and she are unsure
    timid
        scared to commit
recent events.
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
ryn
Indulgence
 Jun 2018 a M b 3 R
ryn
Let’s swim with our heads above the water
but our bodies defying the currents of the sea.
Let’s care not, the wants of others
and indulge in who we want to be.

Let’s drown in ourselves
and for once, forget the needs of others.
Because it’s been too long
we’ve cowered and cried the nights,
unfound beneath the covers.
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