Pretend you love me just for tonight

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                                                  and **rhyme

She looked at me
Confusedly
Pulled her hand back up
Asked me why
I shrugged and apologized
I don't think anyone's
Ever told her no
To getting into their pants

She had eyes like storms and
Words that fell from puckered lips
Like hail

*She was me

I watch the rise and fall of your chest
And in this moment time has no meaning;
In this moment time has not progressed.

Our past,
The horrible wounds inflicted on our souls
In the ****** war we waged
Never transpired

your eyes gaze lovingly into mine, and I am lost.

Everything melts away -
All that is left is us.
We are naked, pure,
And I am left breathless, and dazzled by
The presence of your soul

As always my love
We are one...
We are infinite.

And if I roll over, I know you'll be there,
With sad broken eyes, you'll convince me to throw away all my knives, the pang in my chest won't go away, you'll pull me close, not bothering to tell me it's okay, because you know the kind of girl I am, & your presence is like daggers, mixed with guilt & relief, I cry because im just a daughter trying to find my way in life.

You build up and I build down
You have roots and I have wings
You are calm and I am wild
You are nurturing and I am destructive
You are loving and I am hurtful
You stay and I leave
You walk and I sprint
You sit and I pace
You smile and I glare
You are disciplined and I fear rules
You are patient and I'm anxious
You are healthy and I dysfunctional
You are perfect and I am not
You ask why I love you.
Because you're everything I'm not.