It's a feeling like no other.
To think, of one.
An invigorating rush travels up from the stomach.
Burning ball of adrenaline.
Only lasts a short second,
leaves me breathless.
It's painfully delightful.

*My red eyes glow, searching for it's desires.
Shadows haunt behind me, warning of the hatred.
The red never goes away.
Fiery hot ruby tears may drain the color,
but the aspiration never goes away.
The desire can paint back what was drained,
and let the greed live on.

take it.
go ahead, take it.
it won't harm you.
i dare you.

The evil serpet lies as it slithers down my back.
It's hiss and whispers send chills through my body.
I am stiff,
I am rigid.

I said take it.
You will achieve great happiness.
Just outstretch your arms,
and it will be yours.

Mind turns to greed,
My eyes turn red like the blood of the serpent's prey.
I open my arms, letting myself feel the power hit me,
knocking me to the ground.

See here,*
For you have taken what wasn't yours.
You have played my little game,
and for that, you shall pay.

I lay on the ground, blinking in confusion.
My eyes. They fill with water, they drain their color.
I cry red, hot, fiery tears that burn as they roll down my face.
This. This is the least pain I deserve.

...
      mother I've been wanting to die,
I've tried.
       i cant live with the fact that inside
my mind
       there's no brightness left to shine.
I'm fine?
       I lie because you've never seemed to care,
that's fair
       you've dealt with more than I've had.
you're sad
        I get it, but I still feel this way.
okay?

do not tell me to stop feeling
when it is what makes up my entire being
do not tell me to stop loving
when it is the only form of my healing

Don't. you. dare.

Rage builds up again,
Fury spills over,
A burning passion smothers all else.

Hypocrisy discovered,
Attitude noted.

I don't think you realize what you're doing.

Adding kindling to the fire,
sending an explosion through the blaze,
letting the flames roar more than before.

Going into harms way,
Walking into the inferno

This is you're *one and only warning

*Back. Off.

Fists clenched so hard,
Nails piercing the skin.
Memories flow, like an endless river.
I am not alone

Searching for the answers,
Tearing through the fantasy,
Digging through the graves of the past.
I feel so alone

Pushed against the wall,
Forcing away my breath,
Feeding the fire kindling in my heart.
I can't be alone

Eyes darting back and forth,
Wondering what wall will tumble down,
Scared that my every move will cause pain.
*But I am alone