at the age of 21
i was finally
legal to drink
at the age of 21
i was finally
legal to gamble
yet
at the age of 21
i slashed
my wrists
at the age of 21
i tried playing
within traffic
at the age of 21
i was ready to
swallow all of my lexapro
at the age of 21
the monster came out
the memories flooded
my brain
after years and years
of keeping them hidden
beneath the cupboard
after years and years
of keeping them locked away
so that sunlight
would never ever
touch them
where they would
rot away
turn black
turn cold
where these memories
ate away at my skin
like leaches in the dark
i should have been free
instead
i tried ending it all
i just want to feel again