i don't know if i'am the only one
who ends up broken and sad
after anything happens

i don't know if i'am the only one
who stays up crying all night
and struggling to put on a smile in the morning

i don't know if i'am the only one
who overthinks things
and messes the wild thoughts running in my head

i don't know if i'am the only one
who ends up feeling used and
drained of all love that one can give

i don't know if i'am the only one
with a broken heart which is still beating
to be broken by someone someday

i don't know if i'am the only one ;

my thoughts are
wandering between
my deadly dreams and
beautiful nightmares ;

long
lonely
hours
of
heart
breaking ;

its surprising that my heart

is being be crushed,
crumpled,
broken,
torn and tortured
and burnt to ashes
inevitably

and it still beats ;

let the pain and hurt
overtake everything
until you are left alone with
the numbness ;

Sometimes you have all of it in your head,
But your feelings are just too sad
That your thoughts drown
With everything else
And you can’t find
The right way to
Say things that
You’re feeling;

even listening to songs
at 3 am in the morning
doesn't help me forget you ;