a lot of people ask me why i smoke. it’s not that i want to be cool or i want “street cred”. it’s the feeling of numbness i’ve wanted to burn out of my life since the beginning. it’s the feeling of near suffocation. the feeling the smoke or vapor leaves behind in my lungs and in the back of my throat. it’s the feeling of being able to feel something that i’m so addicted to. i’m not addicted to nicotine or cannabis. i’m addicted to the feeling it’s leaves behind on my soul.

I abet your behavior
Without hesitation
I was awarded with love
Increasing temptation

I watched you claim
Your souls devine
The way you work
Shivered my spine

As i hold you hand
****** and bruised
You told me you loved me
Your devilish deed excused

I gave you my heart
You gave me yours
You treat me like royalty
My love for you pours

We now work together
Business partners if you will
You told me everything I need to know
You taught me *******

They say we’re going to hell
But love, we’re already there
We are always content
Living in each others care

I’ll be here forever
I’ll never get out
However I’m perfectly happy with that
My love you is devout

Our work will continue
Till our dying day
I love you forever and always
So come what may

~~~~~~{TRIGGER WARNING}~~~~~~

This girl
Torn,
Beaten up,
Sad,
Lonely,
Didn’t know much about love.
She was so used to being ignored.
This boy
Loved,
Known by everyone,
Kind,
Wished he’d never gotten all the attention.

The boy noticed the girl,
Asked her her name
No answer.
She’s so used to the quiet
So used to no one addressing to her
his words just passed her ears.
The only sound she heard was the clock
Tick- tick-
He asks again, this time a bit louder
Not being rude
She answers, very softly
Willow
Before he could say his name, she replies with I know
He thinks that name is really pretty
He wonders how he’s never noticed her before

These two built a friendship
One the girl never had before
She started to feel happy for once.
Unknowingly, this was a bet
She finds out
She finds out that this boy was rude,
Inconsiderate,
Just an overall nasty person.
Before she liked the boy
But this boy ended up breaking her more
Shattering her heart like a piece of ceramic.
The trust that was once found,
Now lost in the lies

She realizes why she never had any friends
It was because of the fear of something like this.
She goes back to the girl everyone saw her as
Weeping Willow
This time more depressed,
Lonely,
Sad,
Beaten up,
Torn.
These people drove her insane
She told that boy everything,
He told everyone else everything.
Those secrets being exposed hurt
She was overall hurt.

She feels empty,
Overwhelmed,
Mentally exhausted.
It came to the point where she couldn’t handle it,
This wasn’t any old joke,
These kids never knew her,
They never took the time to know her
It took just one person to find out everything for everyone.
Her world collapsed within not even a month.

She walked over to a tree,
Climbed the tree,
There was an unknown object in her hand.
She could only think about her insanity,
Other people’s insanity,
And what was in her hand.
She can’t think anymore,
Her mind took over,
The unknown object is a rope,
She’s on airplane mode,
Her mind tells her to tie it
2 places
She counts down to three…
1….
She can’t think,
It’s too late.
2….
Everything is flashing before her.
3.
The story of Weeping Willow.

We met at the crossroads
Blind in love
You had a beautiful mask
Like an angel from above

You asked for my soul
I gave it up
And with a shake of a hand
I was out of luck

I did your deed
But you struck me down
Watched me suffer
Without a frown

We stood there together
Side by side
You swept me up
I couldn’t deny

I loved you dearly
with all my heart
But now I wish
We were apart

You’ve beaten me senseless
Through me around
All with a smile
You’ve watched me drown

I’m an emotionless mess
A true work of art
How can i put up with this
“Until death do us part”

Now I’m here
In the pits of hell
Broken down
You beat me well

Ill never get out
Ill be here for life
Living with the devil
I call my wife