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Aug 2017 Xyns

Substance

Aug 2017 Xyns

King Dre Pencasso

I used to get high to get over you, drinking just to **** the pain
Crying my nights away, my tears became the rain
Smiling on the outside but falling apart on the inside
Laughing like I’m okay but the obvious I couldn’t hide
I hated the thought of you but always ran back to it
Holding on to what was no more making myself look stupid
How could one person make me feel this empty again?
Gave her everything in me & still it was a battle I couldn’t win
Wanted to fix things but you made it obvious that it was too late
Thoughts of you every day, heavy tears on display
Tearing myself apart & desperately trying to end my days
I needed you to show me something but didn’t
So I chose to drink to **** your memories & say good riddance
Haven’t been that depressed since 2009 & feared this deja vu
Felt so attached to someone whose love seemed so true
Wanted to be more than your King & more than your dream come true
More than a fantasy & more than someone who means the world to you
Taking away the love of my life caused me to lose control
Falling off track & allowing the poison to please my soul
So much hate towards you trying to destroy any memory of you
Just allowing the hell within to **** the very thought of you

Aug 2017 Xyns

Always

Aug 2017 Xyns

Darius

Always

I fell into you
and you fell out of me
But somehow,
We always make it back to each other
Like we're each other's missing piece
We always do

#love

Aug 2017 Xyns

Am I asking for too much?

Aug 2017 Xyns

Darius

Am I asking for too much?

As much as I want a chance
As much as I want things to be different
As much as I know that they can't
I just want to say that I love you
As much as I want to
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you so much, can't you tell?

#love

Aug 2017 Xyns

The guilty crown of an inactive protagonist

Aug 2017 Xyns

Darius

The guilty crown of an inactive protagonist

I am emotionally drained
Comfortably numb
I sit on this throne with a crown made of thorns
Lose my name, lose my touch
Isolation is the gift for saying too much
But not acting enough
A jester donned in king's ornament
Isn't this fun?

#crown #guilty #numb

Jul 2017 Xyns

I'd be lying if I said I was over you

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

I'd be lying if I said I was over you

I have this dream
Where it's just you and me
We'd stay in bed all day
Because most nights we barely sleep
No words
No people
Just peace

#love #peace #dream

Jul 2017 Xyns

There's a difference between being scared and not being ready

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

There's a difference between being scared and not being ready

I know you've been hurt in the past
I have been too
You carry your heart like it's made of glass
I don't blame you
I can't make any promises
I can't say there'll be any regrets
But I know I could love you so much if you'd let
Let me love you until you can learn to love again
Let me love you in waves
Waves that calmly wash over the shore you call pain
Let me love you so much you never give love a bad name
Let me love you until you can see what I see in everything you do
Because every time you look at me
I only see stars in you

#love

Jul 2017 Xyns

There's different ways to say I love you

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

There's different ways to say I love you

I never truly understood the concept of missing a person while sitting right next to them until now. Life may change over time, but the memories don't.
Not when you look at me like that.

#memories #time #change

Jul 2017 Xyns

Day by day, that room still plays on repeat

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

Day by day, that room still plays on repeat

I thought of you less today
But not a day goes by
That I don't wonder if you're doing okay

#love #time #days #sincerity

Jul 2017 Xyns

Hey, can we be a couple?

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

Hey, can we be a couple?

"Hey, so could we maybe be a couple?"
"Maybe? That sounds a bit indecisive."
" Well, I know I love you"
"And I love you. "
"You do? "
" More or less."
"So then we're a couple?"
"I don't know."

"I don't think much would change between us, so.."
"So, we don't have to be a couple then."
"Yeah, maybe we're better off friends."
"Yeah, maybe."

"What if we do become a couple one day?"
"We'll probably be a couple forever or find someone better."
"Yeah..that is how that goes."

"Do you really want to be together that much?"
"I don't know."

#couple #love #indecisive #wondering #friends #knowing #conversation

Jul 2017 Xyns

The Concept of Listening

Jul 2017 Xyns

Darius

The Concept of Listening

Listen
You don't need words to see what's missing
Open your eyes but actually see with your mind
Take it all in
You already know the answer but choose to stay blind

#listen #blind #selfdestructive #attention