Baring myself to you was no small feat
A childbearing body for a man to judge
The sun through the curtains highlighting my flaws
Clothes hit the floor, and I laid with you
Pulled the covers up to shield your view
You pulled them back down and gazed in my eyes
Placed your hand on my insecurity and kissed me
My mind has gone fuzzy, I can't believe we are here
You leaned back to prepare us, and gave me a view
Lord, help me I can't go falling for you
Gliding your thumb over my bud and through my lips
You pulled me up to meet you, your hands on my hips
I can't pretend I wasn't hoping we'd end up like this
I pulled you down to me, my face in your neck
Your scent is driving me crazy; I'm all kinds of wet
But you didn't get to feel it, we had our safety on
Feeling like a ***** I'm pulling you to me
You flipped me over and pressed at the center of me
I can't stop my mind from racing, I want you to enjoy this
Your hand has wrapped around me, and pulled me to your chest
I'm shocked by your strength, I'm no tiny thing
This protection is ruining it, I want to feel everything
Feeling bold down on my knees, kissing and licking
Your head fit in my throat like a crown designed for a king
I hear "That mouth is gold" high praise from a man who wears it
Our eyes keep meeting,  I'm starting to get nervous
You've got me feeling new to this and a little girlish
I've decided I have to feel you, every part of you
Call me insatiable, I've started to beg you
Just for a stroke or two so you can feel it, know what you do to me
Reaching between us I'm guiding you into me
You give me what I need, but you want something too
You pull me on top and urge me to ride you.
I want this, I want you, this feels so right
But you're looking in my eyes like you've seen my truth, my light
I'm feeling overwhelmed, do you even want me
I'm in my head instead of in this bed with you
I brought us here and now I'm leaving it up to you
You pulled me under you and raised my legs
What a great way to get me out of my head
When we finished, I peppered your face with kisses
I guess I should have known what this is
You pulled away from me and started to get dressed
A million thoughts I hadn't been able to sort through yet
You asked me who I'd thought of when I couldn't ride you
My mind was mush with you staring in my eyes and your **** raw inside too
So here is what I thought that day when we were joined as one
Your commands to give you me were so easily done
I would have squirted on every surface had you told me to ***
I would have milked you with every hole on my body
And I don't say this just to sound naughty
I would ride you like you belonged to me if I had the opportunity
I would worship your body if you were to give it to me
I would hold your stare the entire time
I would give you all of me as if you were mine
I would gladly throw it back for you if you would ask again
Until then baby, I'll just be your little friend

Crazy to think we are here now,
Rarely acknowledging each other.
After the way we connected,
I should have known better.
Giving you my body,
Didn't make you value me.
Who would have thought
Healing from you, would make me love me.
I still don't regret you,
The time we spent was everything.
Evenings spent texting, days on the phone,
Have my thoughts running rampant.
Ever since you ended us,
All my feelings are crushed. But I'll always want to know,
Did you want to end us? Or did history make you do so?

Friends to lovers.
Lovers to nothing.

I remember the days you craved hearing my voice on your line.
Obsessed doesn't seem strong enough.
I would answer every time.
Completely gone over you.

But my voice was not enough,
Wasn't long before you needed my time.
My lips, my body, my touch.
I would give it every time.

I'm empty now, I gave it all to you.
Funny, now you don't want it.
Give it back, I need it for someone new.
She deserves this energy, that care.

She needs it, I see it in her stare.

You touched me
You filled me 
You stretched me



You go so deep when you read me

Even deeper when you hurt me

Deeper still when you want me



My body reminisces on the warmth of you

My hands memorized the feel of you

My mind is so full of you

We are not friends
The light in me draws you in
We connect on higher levels
Dig deep into the roots of meaning
You want, crave my attention
Not me.
I am entertainment, fun.
You think I’m pretty, dumb.
We fall into comfortable familiarity
Pretend happiness, boredom
Never personal
I love your eyes on me
I feel seen, however brief
It’s not real, none of it.
We are not friends.