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1.6k · Dec 2024
words
Vesper Dec 2024
words
          flow
                out
                     of my mouth
                                           like droplets
             falling
out                          
                   of
                                         the
          air


falling
f a l l i n g
                                   further
                apart

never
together
again
1.2k · Jan 23
Fat
Vesper Jan 23
Fat
Sitting
Crying
Wishing less
Wanting more
I can't hide myself anymore
The sweatshirts too small
My body too big

Wishing the hurtful words would stop
Not just from you but me
I feel as if I'm going to pop

Skipping meals
Drinking soda
Eating salad
Having dessert

I tell myself that they don't notice
But I think they do
402 · Nov 2024
the blues
Vesper Nov 2024
oh the blues
the blues
the blues
the blues

why do i
feel the blues
all that happened
was a little nick
why do i
feel the blues

the blues
the blues
the blues
they come
when you
are at your worst
but maybe
they aren't so bad


the blues
the blues
the blues
they help me through the worst
sometimes
the sad songs
make the void
smaller
the ineffable
blues
the blues

the blues

the blues.
358 · Nov 2024
crazy men
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they carry me away
up and over
around a bend
and then back again
the crazy men
they carry me away
and i finally feel free
this is a recurring dream
269 · Nov 2024
asylum
Vesper Nov 2024
scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please
my mind
265 · Nov 2024
crush
Vesper Nov 2024
she loves me
she loves me not
i feel giddy
i feel love
is it real this time?
i wonder
will i be lied to?
will i be insulted?
punched?
kicked?
cut?
yelled at?
called out?
made fun of?
laughed at?
will you never feel the same way i do?
because when i cried
you didnt
and when i got knocked down
you didnt
and when i died
you didnt
and i wonder
if i should love you at all
third times the charm
251 · Jan 20
1's and 2's
Vesper Jan 20
One is two
Three is four
And out the door I go
Before the low
I'll play a show
For you to laugh some more
little poem i came up with in my head (:
232 · Nov 2024
love
Vesper Nov 2024
love
is a silly little thing
it brings people together
it pushes them part
and i think
i dont need love
it is a silly little thing
but why do i crave it
yes i crave it so
i wish upon a star
to look apon my lover
in upon the char
i feel that i might hover
with the love
from a lover

oh love
why do you come to me
in my saddest moments
two breakups
two bursts of love
spiraling me
into the void
but not the void i write
but it is one that bites
it is the void of craving love

oh love
oh cupid
you shot my friends
and their love
is inexplicable
and i love
love
and if i forever
am left without a lover
i might just cut
my wrists
once again
my friend just got a girlfriend, and he told me not to tell anyone. i am so very happy for him, but i cant help feeling this way. poetry it is am i right
212 · Jan 6
liar
Vesper Jan 6
liar
you said you loved me
liar
you said you would be there
liar
you said you would cheer me up
liar
you said you hated me
liar
you'll never leave me
liar
i'll teach you a lesson
liar
i hope you feel the pain i felt when the worlds collided and i was in between them
211 · Dec 2024
Panic Attack
Vesper Dec 2024
Nightfall waits to strike.
Waits to kick you when you're down.
It comes like a army, screams and yells and pain.
Thrashing.
Never stopping to breathe.

Panic Attack.
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209 · Dec 2024
Goodbye. (for now)
Vesper Dec 2024
Hey guys! This is the last time that I will be on this website until at least February 2025. There is so much going on in my life, and i need to take a break from all my hobbies at the moment. I love you all!
<33

#PEACEOUT
205 · Dec 2024
grandpa
Vesper Dec 2024
i was five years-
mabye 8-
i dont know
but i lost him
and i
        lost
              myself
                         too
ah mon grandpere
tu es tres important
je
          deteste
                              toi

why did you leave
i needed you
dad needed you
but most of all
you needed you
181 · Nov 2024
'friends'
Vesper Nov 2024
what a wonderful friendship!
i thought to myself
i was only more than a babe when i met him
he was kind
he was funny
he was fun to play with
and he was my first
'friend'
as we grew older
i turned five
we started to talk
i remember our first conversation
we talked about dinosaurs
and i thought
what a wonderful
'friend'
and then i made new
'friends'
but they didnt last long
it wasnt long before
they found someone new
and left me to play
in the morning dew
wow
those are some wonderful
'friends'
and then we turned ten
he was still with me
through it all
through my hardships
through my pain
through my sadness
wow
what a wonderful
'friend'
and here we are today
i can see him as i am writing this poem
his first girlfriend
i cannot express how happy i am
for him
and he
is a true
friend.
there is one person i utterly and completely trust in this world. we met at 3 months in some 'baby class' or whatever
now i have known him for almost 13 years, and he has never let me down. i love you, gare bear.
179 · Nov 2024
writers block
Vesper Nov 2024
hit me with a brick
throw me at a wall
where does this come from
i don't know at all
172 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 1978
Vesper Dec 2024
khan was killed!
we must rejoice
but the communists
fully took over
but then what?
they change to islam?

the islamic properties are key
they practice islam
islam is life

but there is still fighting
fighting over friendship
when will this war end?

afghanistan
school project again
164 · Dec 2024
Brothers and Sisters
Vesper Dec 2024
Brothers, we are the foundation of society. Sisters you are the foundation of society. Why can't we work together? Why are you always fighting? O' Brothers and Sisters,
Love.
162 · Nov 2024
spiders
Vesper Nov 2024
here i sit
in my bed
the spiders creeping up my wall
i can hear them
they might bite me
but i do nothing at all
3am poems!
155 · Nov 2024
only child
Vesper Nov 2024
i wish i was an only child
but sometimes i dont
my sister
she shares
she loves
she laughs
but all i respond with is a hit
a yell
a scream
all i am is mean
and sometimes i wish
she was an only child
love your siblings
155 · Nov 2024
up the ladder
Vesper Nov 2024
up the ladder you go
before it starts to snow
get up off your low
you will finally be beaux
trust me its not faux
i swear that you will glow
so up the ladder you go
idontknowman
Vesper Jan 25
I have no words
For the fallen

I have no feelings
For the broken

For the fallen made others fall

And the broken made others broke

So when their crescent shine
Comes to a stop
The past fallen and broken on top
I was singing as i wrote this lol
152 · Jan 16
Flowing
Vesper Jan 16
I don't know
    What's the flow
            It seems to take me further

                   Sometimes the flow is slow
            And other times
                                                                    Fast


                     It takes me to many places
                      That I cannot describe
              Full of color
                                                                  Love

                         I wish the flow would never end
                                 But it does
149 · Feb 6
Feelings Changing
Vesper Feb 6
I don't think
That I just like girls anymore
But I don't know what I know
I think people will find out
I think people will know
I'm very confused
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
147 · Nov 2024
lights out
Vesper Nov 2024
lights out
trees down
school out
our dependencies
we rely so much
it really is the truth
power outage here in seattle 😒
143 · Jan 10
crocodile tears
Vesper Jan 10
you cry so often
and for what do you cry for
you haven't experienced hardship
you haven't experienced pain
just not like i have
so stop crying those crocodile tears
and stop faking the friends
stop pretending like you are someone you aren't
and maybe you won't cry no more
136 · Nov 2024
fire
Vesper Nov 2024
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
you strive
to do good
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
Vesper Jan 18
Will there ever be a day?
Where I do not live in fear?
Of your constant watch?

Will there ever be a day?
Where I find real love?
For more than a minute?

Will there ever be a day?
Where the shadows stop lurking?
Where the voices stop talking?

Will there ever be a day?
Where I figure this out?
Where I can fall down and rest?

Will there ever be a day?
Where I am truly alone?

Sometimes it feels
Like the days have passed
Slower and Slower
Faster and Faster
It feels like the days I aught for
Are already gone
Just a memory
Floating in the wind

So I keep wondering...
Will there ever be a day?
131 · Feb 3
happy snow
Vesper Feb 3
looking out my window at night
watching the snowflakes fall like frozen tears
wiped away from a crying face

i walked outside to catch snowflakes in my mouth
happy for the first time in while
smiling- a real one this time
not just a fake upturned mouth

rushing inside to tell my sister
seeing my mom smiling
seeing my dad sleeping
i love being happy
i wish
i was happy every day
123 · Nov 2024
world that is not ours
Vesper Nov 2024
this is a world that is not ours
mother earth
she gave us life
but even in our early stages
greed overtook us
she ate the apple
she gained the knowledge
but the damage was done

if eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
but
i eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
in this world that is not ours

all we do is take
we never give back
just remember
this is a world that is not ours

in the couple years we have left
before we crumble
to the ground
we need to give
we can still undo
some
of the damage that has been done
in this world that is not ours
please dont litter
118 · Nov 2024
1
Vesper Nov 2024
1
one
is a number
just above zero
sometimes
used to refer
to me
my looks
my personality
but when i was one
i didnt care
about the little things
i guess
i am just truly a one
numberss
112 · Feb 3
fucked up
Vesper Feb 3
****** up mind
****** up life
****** up world
it seems like everything is terrible nowadays
111 · Nov 2024
depression
Vesper Nov 2024
depression
is the man lying next to me in bed
he might not be real
but he is there
his cold fingers
creeping up my spine
ready to attack
at any moment

depression
is not liking the things you used to like
like the movies
videogames
or friends
i dont know why
why wont it end
will i end the depression
or will the depression end me

depression
is the lost love
for someone
that you like
but never have the feeling to ask them
when she dated another boy
it only made me sink deeper

depression
is the friends and family
who let you go
in your deepest moments
when i needed them the most

depression
is the knife
on my desk
covered in blood
waiting to strike
me again

depression
is the void
pulling you closer
when you dont know it
like a black hole
trying to swallow me up

depression
is you
its me
its in all of us
but i cant stop it
should i try
or die
that is the question

depression
is a world where i cannot be myself
i feel
like my body
is not good enough
my clothes
my shoes
my hair
my weight
it will never be enough

depression
is windowless room
no light
i cant get out
i cant get out
let me out
let me out

let me be myself
without the void
without the man
without all the little things
let my live my life

leave
me
alone
i am going through a depressive state right now.
106 · Nov 2024
crayons
Vesper Nov 2024
many colors
many drawings
i made when i was three
but they would break
just like my heart
why would you do this
to me

i rip up the drawings
on my wall
screaming
at the world
but those crayons
the many colors
will always be there
for me

i cry
i scream
i starve
i cut
but those crayons
stand untouched
waiting
and waiting
and waiting
for me
to play with them again
102 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan Culture 2
Vesper Dec 2024
afghan traditions
not hard to find
their hospitality is like no other
the food, crisp and light
or fluffy and melting
you know it will be good

assalamu alaikum!
wa alaikum assalaam
you say
it is a greeting of sorts
a way to say hello!

islam
is their religion
belief in the oneness of god
beleif in all

afghanistan
101 · Jan 8
biana
Vesper Jan 8
biana the *****
you broke my heart
even super glue wont help it this time
because now every day
every wish
11:11
is praying on your downfall
i know i shouldnt
but the buckets of tears i cried
say otherwise
if you felt this pain i felt
would you still look at me that same way?
99 · Jan 21
Bad Poetry
Vesper Jan 21
I can't write poetry.
I want to write powerful things-
-But I cant.
I want people to see my poems-
-But they don't
I want to be okay without the affirmation of other people-
-But I'm not
And I can't understand
Why the last lines never come to me
Why I can't think of a powerful ending
I just can't
Write
Poetry
ik this aint gettin nothing either- 🥲
99 · Nov 2024
she
Vesper Nov 2024
she
she likes me too!!
she likes me too!
she likes me too
she likes me too...
GUYS HELLP THERES A GIRL I REALLY LIKE AND SHE LIKES ME BACK AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO ASK HER OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT AHHHHHHHHHHHHH also brooklyn if you are reading this its a different girl (;
97 · Dec 2024
Karate
Vesper Dec 2024
So scared all my life

Anger turned into an art

Don't have to fly kick

To fly again
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96 · Jan 20
Depression
Vesper Jan 20
Depression, a multifaceted enigma, seeps into the crevices of existence, casting a shadow that lingers and weaves its intricate patterns within the mind. It's not merely a fleeting sadness but a persistent echo, resonating in the silent chambers of the heart, altering the very fabric of daily life. This condition, a complex interplay of genetics, environment, and experience, manifests uniquely in each soul, a tapestry woven with threads of emptiness, hopelessness, and disinterest in once-cherished pursuits.

The emotional toll of depression is profound, a heavy cloak that envelops the spirit, transforming joy into a distant memory. The world, once vibrant, now appears through a grayscale lens, where every breath feels burdensome, every step unsteady. Faces of loved ones blur, and the comfort of sleep is replaced by a haunting dread. The mind becomes a labyrinth, a maze of twisted paths leading to rooms where sorrow bathes, and hope flickers faintly like a distant star.

In the depths of this silent struggle, the body bears witness to the mind's turmoil. Chronic pain, digestive woes, and somatic echoes of the unseen battle further complicate the journey. Depression's presence is a whisper, a constant companion that isolates and alienates, feeding on societal stigma and misconceptions. The silent scream of the soul remains unheard, as the weight of judgment and misunderstanding stifles cries for help.

The causes of this somber state are as varied as the individuals it touches. Biological factors, intricate dances of neurochemicals, and hereditary shadows intertwine with psychological scars and environmental trials. Early traumas, chronic stress, and the harsh whispers of self-doubt blend into a symphony of despair. Yet, within this desolation lies a resilience, a glimmer of light that refuses to be extinguished.

The path to healing is a mosaic of therapies and treatments, a delicate balance of cognitive restructuring and chemical support. Medication, a balm for neurochemical storms, accompanies the guiding hand of therapy. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), a beacon in the darkness, helps to unweave negative thought patterns, offering new perspectives and hope. Lifestyle changes, like threads of gold, weave through the tapestry, adding strength to the fabric of daily life.

Social support, a lifeline, anchors the soul amidst the tempest. Friends, family, and support groups offer solace, understanding, and a sense of belonging. The journey is long and winding, marked by relapses and remissions, but hope remains a steadfast companion. Public health initiatives, advocacy, and open conversations about mental health shine a light on the path ahead, challenging stigma and promoting understanding.

Living with depression is an ongoing journey, a testament to the resilience of the human spirit. It requires patience, compassion, and continual self-awareness. Each step, though tremulous, is a testament to strength and courage. Advocacy and education play crucial roles in fostering a culture of empathy, breaking down barriers, and ensuring that no one faces this journey alone.

In the vast expanse of the human experience, depression is a deeply complex and multifaceted condition. Its shadows touch every aspect of life, but within the darkness, the dawn awaits. With comprehensive care, support, and awareness, individuals can navigate the labyrinth of depression and emerge into the light, finding hope and healing in the embrace of understanding and compassion.
Living with depression *****. Especially in your younger life. Earlier this year, I was diagnosed with depression. This has affected my life in so many ways, but I am pushing through it, and almost done with my process! Wish me luck! (this has been in progress for a while, and yes i did use some ai to help me find nice words, but just wanted to put it out there. (why does the ai thing say 77.4 ai ***))
92 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan Culture
Vesper Dec 2024
rich of culture
vast and far
deep and wide
there is no end
to the beauty of you
dresses and food and colors here
stories and fires and dancing there
so much of it
it never ends
this beautiful place

afghanistan
90 · Dec 2024
Failure
Vesper Dec 2024
'God, you're such a failure.'
As if you could do better?

'Can he do anything right?'
One word. Boxing.

'You ruin the entire team!'
Ok, ill just leave you with one less player.'

Failure gives you a chance to fly again.
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86 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 1953
Vesper Dec 2024
they became soviet
just because of him
the bad men
the crazy men
they ruin it all

khan
cousin of the king
becomes the prime
and looks to the soviets
the communists
for help

but not all bad
he allowed the women
to do what they like
care how they look

afghanistan
school project!!
78 · Nov 2024
lazy ladies
Vesper Nov 2024
oh them lazy ladies
walkin down the the lane
fill me up with *****
to just drink down the pain
I ******* LOVE POETRY
76 · Nov 2024
word search
Vesper Nov 2024
speak to me
like you speak to her
ill search for the perfect word
perfect response
and here!
it is...
but where did you go?
looking in the morning snow
you ran off
just like the others
ready or not
here i come
or maybe
a different word
to make you happy
74 · Jan 23
Bigger and Bigger
Vesper Jan 23
I cannot stop myself from giving in
To chocolates, to candies
And I just get bigger and bigger
"One more piece"
I tell myself
71 · Nov 2024
knife
Vesper Nov 2024
there is knife
on the table
next to me
i'm home alone

988 wont help
neither will my parents
or my friends
or even my dog
they cant help

i'm crying
i need help
but i cant reach for my phone
or the knife
is this good?
or bad

to all my friends
who would never miss me
*******
but to you
my friend
i hope that you
can live a happy life
without me
without knives

so take this poem
as a gift
to keep going
to keep going strong
cause even if i am gone
you arent

the knife is in my hand
glancing at my wrist
i cant do it
but i have too
so goodbye
cruel world
i must go

but whats this?
a light?
i am still in fear
the knife trembling
blood- no
tears
dripping off the blade

and i collapse
and die inside
because nobody cares
but i cant force myself to leave
just like those toxic friends
relationships
people
thats just what life is

but you have to keep going
going and going and going
until you find a true purpose
because harming
or killing
yourself
just stops you from recognizing the problem
just avoiding it

so to anyone who wants-
who needs
to hurt, or **** themselves
just face the problem head on
even if you cant do it
even if you have tried before
it's still worth it
this has been in my drafts for a little over 2 weeks now when my last depression scare happened. i hope this poem feels for anyone who is going through depression or suicidal thoughts. <3<3<3
70 · Jan 6
More & More
Vesper Jan 6
You give me so much
You make me happy
But I get mad
So often
So ******* often
It feels cold
When you cry
Because all i want is More & More
Again & Again
Will I ever be happy with what I have?
69 · Dec 2024
drip
Vesper Dec 2024
drip
drip
the iv tube drips life into his veins
it's the only thing keeping him alive
'alive'
he's alseep
but he'll wake up, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the blood drips down the short blade
trying to take his own life
'life'
he'll get over it
he'll be ok, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the teachers vicious smile
kills him from the inside
he hates himself
and the teacher too
die
drip
drip
69 · Nov 2024
coins
Vesper Nov 2024
shiny money
shiny brain
you get some
you lose some
its all just coins

money
is a funny thing
because when you have it
you love it
and then it's just a figment of your brain
its all just coins

but when you dont have it
you yearn for it
you want it
you need it
its all just coins

so i sit
with no money
i dont need any money- coins
but i cry
and cry
because i have no coins at all
68 · Nov 2024
back again
Vesper Nov 2024
back again
so soon
you ran away
you came back
did he not give you the gifts?
did he not give you the love?
but still
my arms are open
come inside
again
68 · Nov 2024
elixir
Vesper Nov 2024
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
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