He acts like a player
                                      She's a cheerleader
                                                     ­                     He hits up all the girls
She's the one everyone wants
                                                       He goes home at night
                                                                ­                                  She avoids home
He likes his best friend
                                           She skips a meal
                                                            ­                He just wants to stop hiding
She just wants to be thin
                                               He comes out as gay
                                                             ­                          She no longer eats
He's beat up by his 'friends'
                                                    She­ collapses during class
                                                           ­                                           He's in the ER
She's in the OR
                               His skull caved in
                                                                ­  Her heart is starved
                                                                ­                                          
He wakes up with amnesia
                                                     She remembers it all
                                                                ­                
He dies to brain damage
                                                She starves to death

This all started with one comment. A whisper in the halls. Something about her size.

He just wanted to be himself, but they didn't want him there.

Hey it's me. Uh I was just calling to say I'm sorry
I know it's late and I know I'm an idiot for ever letting you go, but um,
Without you my life has a hole that can't be filled with anything else
The moon smiles at me as the stars dim out
They could never shine as bright as your eyes, but without you they have no reason to glow
At night the darkness is a cloak, it wraps me up trying to offer comfort
But only with you beside me could I ever be warm again
I've become a shell of the boy you once knew
I no longer have a reason to smile, My eyes have lost their glow, My laugh is dry from under use
I know I was never the prince you wanted or the good guy you needed, but things are different now
I'll hold your hand when you get scared, Hold you whether you need it or not, Be your shoulder to cry on
I guess what I want to say is,
*Baby I love you

I've done some nasty things
I've lost all my good
I search my soul for you

Can you forgive me?
My broken heart racing
I want us back
Please give the pleasure of loving you

My story doesn't start with,
Once Upon A Time
It starts with my kingdom
The king, the queen, and their only son
They were happy together in the castle they had
But every story starts with a tragedy
The king and queen clashed quite often
His bottles and mistress followed him home
Then he was gone, he opened the door and left
They didn't see him again after that
The queen fell into smoke and bitter liquids
Their son was forced to take charge
Things moved on slowly but the kingdom crumbled
Years past and plants took over the walls
The prince decided he'd had enough
He rebuilt his family
He build walls around his heart
Then he fell sick
He moved far from home
He held the weight of the pain on his shoulders
He cloaked himself in silence
An angel came and picked up the pieces
She brought him light
But he crumbled within slowly
His heart burning with the rhythm of a drum
It's true what they say
Happily ever afters really are only in books
That boy is me and the queen is my mother
The rancid hearted king was my father
So long and goodnight

The story is over
This is how it ends
So long and goodnight

Build me up
Tear me down
Pull me apart
Take me away

I write this poem with handled care
Sitting in the darkness of my lair
I type and type ideas on the page
One about a heart trapped in a cage
One about a girl falling in love
One about the true symbolism of a dove
click clack, click clack
The sound fills my ears
The words I've written bringing me to tears
I sit and ponder what is good and what is bad
I write my poems wondering if it’s just a fad
I think of him and what he’d do
He’d probably scream and throw his shoe
He’d yell that he’s not good then laugh at it
He’d come over to me and sit
We’d talk and write about our dreams
But that could never become true as it seems
Writing, writing in my room
A story emerges from the gloom
Here I sit and here I stay
Until I write another day

You laugh
You point
You stare
You spread a rumor
You talk behind my back
You beat
You yell
You call out a name that sticks
You crush me
Through my eyes
I'm embarrassed
I'm nervous
I'm sad
I'm depressed
I'm beaten
I'm torn
I'm bloodied
I'm defeated
Through my eyes
My life is ruined
My life is worthless
My life is over
I stood there and you pushed
1, 2, 3 steps back
I stood there and you shoved me
1, 2, 3 steps closer
You stood there and tapped me
1 step back
I've fallen
Down, down, down
Through my eyes it was worth it
Fight through the pain to feet the release

His shattered and broken
He needs me now
I want to kiss him
Make him feel okay
But he can't see my passion
Only feel it

You looked me in the eye and promised
You promised me that one day we'd be okay
You promised you'd be by my side the entire time
Look at me now
You promised that you loved me
You promised things couldn't get any worse
You promised that I had a future
Look at me now
Your promises have shattered me
Your promises cut deeper than any blade
Your promises killed my appetite
Look at me now
Your promises pushed me 1 step
Your promises pushed me 2 steps
Your promises pushed me....
Look at me now
You stare at the box
You stare at the ground
You stare at the stone that marks it me
You see me now

I wish peace on you all
So long and goodnight

Take a knife
Stab me
Take a rope
Hang me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
Take some pills
Dose me
Take a bat
Beat me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
Throw me
Off the bridge
Take a towel
Suffocate me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
End this life
Make it a ******
Or an accident
To save the ones
Around me
This is the end
So long and goodnight

Beauty oh beauty
Where have you been?
There's a beast in the tower
You must come look
Beauty oh beauty
Isn't it a ghastly thing
Fangs like a lion
Fur like a dog
Beauty oh beauty
Where are you going?
That thing dangerous
Stay away quick
Beauty oh beauty
What are you thinking?
I’m a beast, I’m a monster
You should stay away
Beast oh beast
Do my eyes deceive me?
You’re not a beast
You’re beauty lies within

Your toes lean over
Your hands clutch the rail
Behind you the traffic continues
You look down at the sea below
You think it's right
You think you can
You remember the pain
You remember the faces
You remember what they said
You let go
You remember the one
The one you had loved
They lean over and scream your name
Then you regret
You regret letting go
You dream of what could have been
And you fall
But it's too late now
You decided
That was thing you did

The big C (cancer) ruined my life
You came and revived me
You swept me off my feet
Now I sit here and wonder
What have I done wrong?
Was it worth the fight?
I've pondered giving up
Leaving to never return
But I feel deep in my heart
That you still love me so
I don't want to believe it
I want to leave the earth
But I can’t ignore this feeling
If you loved me would you let me go?

My heart is bound in chains
And you hold the key
My mind is filled with you
Yet empty of love
Sorrow fills myself
I crumble
I cry
You still have all of my heart
You still have all of me
My fate lies with you
My destiny walks with your's
My body is loud and open
Yet my soul is locked away
Pain fills me
I crumble
I cry
You still have all of my heart
You still have all of me

My heart is full
My heart is true
My heart is all just for you

A young girl
A twist of fate
Tall towers
Spinning wheels
***** your finger
Seal the curse
Wall of thorns
Villain with horns
Sleeping Beauty
Why won't you wake?
I've broken the curse
I've sealed your fate
Sleeping Beauty
She is doomed
The curse never really had a cure

A small girl sees a doll
Her name is Lucy
It's holding up 3 fingers
Her mother buys it
The girl goes home
She plays with this new doll
She names her Mindy
The girl is called to dinner
She falls asleep soon after
Carried off to bed
The doll is forgotten on the step
The girl hears a noise in the night
"Lucy I'm on the first step"
In a glassy voice
They a thump and a drag
"Lucy I'm on the second step"
Thump, drag
"Lucy I'm on the third step"
Thump, drag
"Lucy I'm on the fourth step"
Thump, drag
"Lucy I'm on the fifth step."
Thump, drag
On until step eighteen
"Lucy I'm at the landing"
Thump, drag, thump, drag
Foot steps towards the door
Thump, drag, thump drag
A soft knock on the door
"Lucy I'm here"
The door creaks open
The footsteps approach
The girl is paralyzed with fear
The comforter at the end of the bed pulls
The doll appears
She crawls across the bed
"Hello Lucy"
She holds up four fingers in a wave
The dolls holds a knife
"Goodnight Lucy"

You light my world
You hold me close
I kiss you gently
You hug me tightly
We are a match made in heaven
Nothing can stop us
Not time, Not space
Not 10,000 light years
I will love you no matter what
That is a promise I can keep

Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do I keep coming back?
Is it the giant mountains
Or the flowing streams?
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do I return?
Is it the people there
Or my love for Wonderfood?
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do they hate me?
I walk, they scream
I talk, they beat
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why can't I be perfect?
With pretty hair
And big doe eyes
Wonderland, Wonderland
When did you become a twisted place?
Was it the screams
Or the nights of crying?
Wonderland, Wonderland
I don't know you any more.
With your ferocious monsters
And sniveling thieves
Wonderland, Wonderland
This is the end for me
I'll jump the bridge
Or pop the pills
Underland, Underland
I hope you welcome me
It was a quick ride here
I hope they know what they did

The stars are shining bright
Come sit with me tonight
Your hair is a perfect mess
I would never think more or less
Of you than perfection
Listen to the crickets sing
The melody of harmony

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

We share the sky
As we dance all night
The world is alive
Buzzing with sound
Natures music is my remorse
We won't stop until the sky turns pale
Time and space aren't enough to stop me

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

The stars are shining bright
Come sit with me tonight
Your hair is a perfect mess
I would never think more or less
Of you than perfection
Listen to the crickets sing
The melody of harmony

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

We share the sky
As we dance all night
The world is alive
Buzzing with sound
Natures music is my remorse
We won't stop until the sky turns pale
Time and space aren't enough to stop me

The world can move on without us
I just want to live here and now

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

Cinderella, Cinderella
Where have you been?
Wash the windows, sweep the floors
Do all the chores
Cinderella Cinderella
Where have you been?
Those clothes are mine not for you
Change before I claw you
Cinderella, Cinderella
Where have you been?
Pumpkins aren't carriages, mice can't be horses
***** aren't for maids
Cinderella, Cinderella
Why can't you stay?
One dance isn't enough
You must please stay
Cinderella, Cinderella
What were you thinking?
The prince doesn't love you
Fairy tales are for children
Cinderella, Cinderella
When will you learn?
Happily ever after is only in books

His hair is caramel with a twist
Light and dark
Golden and perfect
It just falls short of his eyes
He smiles widely
His teeth straight and white
His eyes they linger on hazel
When he's serious they dip to brown
He always seems to make me smile
He doesn't know it yet
But I love him
I really do
He may not know me well
But he's too perfect not to just stand and stare

Alone
                                                    me, myself and I
                        the dark is a blanket
                                                         ­                                my thoughts are knives
    they cut me deep
                                                            ­Alone
                                                                ­               suffocating air  
                                  Thick and painful
               I thought you loved me  
                                                            ­             I thought wrong

Light the end
Watch the flame
Feel it within
White dissipates to yellow
One by one
Pack by pack
Soars your spirit
Sets you free
Drops you low
Poisoned lungs
Coughing fits
Struggle for air
Holes for air
Oxygen for breath
Skin gone rough
'It's a metaphor'
Never said what it really could do
Finish it

Your eyes they gleam like crystals
They reflect the moonlight
Their soft grey is almost like shattered glass
They sparkle like gems in a hidden cave
They are an escape
A way to get lost in you
Your eyes are a passageway to heaven

You're my second half
My one and only
Your hand fits perfectly into mine
We shine together like stars in the sky
You're my love in this love like woe