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76.5k · May 2018
If I Die in a School Shooting
Ozzie May 2018
If I die in a school shooting
I'll never go home again.
My room will sit unused,
A capsule frozen in time,
A snapshot of how I was.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my dog again.
She will sit at the front door
Waiting for me and wondering,
Why I never came home.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never graduate from high school.
My yearbooks will sit stacked
Stopped short of their goal,
Missing years that should have been.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my mom again.
She will sit distraught,
Planning a funeral
For a child taken from her.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my friends again.
They'll sit together, missing me.
One empty seat among them,
A constant reminder of their loss.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my little sister again.
She will sit through high school
Knowing I can't guide her through,
That she has to figure it out alone.

If I die in a school shooting
My school will be stained.
Pools of students lives will sit,
Blood tattoos on the brick structures,
Marks of death ground into it.

If I die in a school shooting
Everyone will wear black.
They'll send their thoughts and prayers
To a town marred by death,
Forever to be the home of a shooting.

If I die in a school shooting
Will the world change?
Or will I become one of hundreds  
Of kids who have to die?
What will it take?

If things continue this way
Children will have to live in fear.
They'll look over their shoulders
Always worried and wondering,
If they'll die in a school shooting.
The state of Florida is now home to the two most deadly mass shootings in American history. Pulse Nightclub was attacked in my city, I have friends who attend Marjory Stoneman Douglas in Parkland. My little sister often fears going to school. I'm afraid to graduate and leave her. I want to be able to protect her if something happens. I hate that we have a reason to be afraid... That it's reasonable to have these fears. I hate it so f*cking much.
7.6k · Sep 2014
Wonderland
Ozzie Sep 2014
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do I keep coming back?
Is it the giant mountains
Or the flowing streams?
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do I return?
Is it the people there
Or my love for Wonderfood?
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why do they hate me?
I walk, they scream
I talk, they beat
Wonderland, Wonderland
Why can't I be perfect?
With pretty hair
And big doe eyes
Wonderland, Wonderland
When did you become a twisted place?
Was it the screams
Or the nights of crying?
Wonderland, Wonderland
I don't know you any more.
With your ferocious monsters
And sniveling thieves
Wonderland, Wonderland
This is the end for me
I'll jump the bridge
Or pop the pills
Underland, Underland
I hope you welcome me
It was a quick ride here
I hope they know what they did
Twists on Disney classics are my favorite. Enjoy!
5.5k · Oct 2014
Voice Mail
Ozzie Oct 2014
Hey it's me. Uh I was just calling to say I'm sorry
I know it's late and I know I'm an idiot for ever letting you go, but um,
Without you my life has a hole that can't be filled with anything else
The moon smiles at me as the stars dim out
They could never shine as bright as your eyes, but without you they have no reason to glow
At night the darkness is a cloak, it wraps me up trying to offer comfort
But only with you beside me could I ever be warm again
I've become a shell of the boy you once knew
I no longer have a reason to smile, My eyes have lost their glow, My laugh is dry from under use
I know I was never the prince you wanted or the good guy you needed, but things are different now
I'll hold your hand when you get scared, Hold you whether you need it or not, Be your shoulder to cry on
I guess what I want to say is,
*Baby I love you
For Ms.Rosie Pleasure, my reason to fight
5.2k · Dec 2014
Picture Frames
Ozzie Dec 2014
Blurred images
Hazy edged pictures
Images with burn holes 
Things to see behind
Clouds of lingering sleep
This is the first time in awhile
I've actually felt okay
The world is still moving to fast 
And me too slow
But my mind has a window
So I can see and hear 
Though my throat still 
Struggles for sounds
My hands form letters
That form words
That form phrases
My thoughts on pages 
My feelings on paper 
My soul wrapped into words
That will never be spoken 

These are my own words written by someone else, hope you guys enjoy my first poem in a while, things are actually improving. If im lucky i'll survive -Andy
4.4k · Nov 2014
White walls
Ozzie Nov 2014
White walls
White beds
White floors

White sheets
White tiles
White gowns

White faces
White eyes
White lights
4.1k · Sep 2014
Judged
Ozzie Sep 2014
You see
My skin
My face
My size
My hair
My legs
You judge by
My color
My cleft lip
My larger than life style
My single leg
You single me out
You spread rumors
That I steal
That I'm ugly
That I eat 6 meals a day
That I'm pathetic
You judge me by my appearance
MLK had a dream
A dream that his four children
Would not be judged by the color of their skin
But the content of their character
That dream hasn't been lived
I am labeled
I am judged
He gets arrested
She kills herself
She's anorexic
He.
He writes this poem
He brings a voice to this world
He says you don't want to be judged
As much as you judge
You don't want to face the end of that stick
It is laced with poisons
He is still here
Talk to me if you need it
Ozzie Aug 2019
I pledge allegiance
To the discourse
Of the divided states of mind
And to the guns
For which they hold
One crowd
Under fire
Inescapable
With funerals and bullets
For all
In light of the most recent mass shootings I thought it was time to share this. Summer is coming to a close. Mass shootings are back in session.
3.8k · Sep 2014
Mirror Mirror
Ozzie Sep 2014
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?
You're too fat
You're too tall
You're not the fairest of them all
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?
You're a geek
You're too dark
You're not the fairest of them all
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Why can't I be pretty like them all?
You're worthless
Not good enough
You can't be pretty like them all
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Why can't I be clean like them all?
You're a cutter
A stupid b*tch
You can't be clean like them all
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Is there a reason to stay at all?
You're family hates you
You have no friends
There is no reason to stay at all
Mirror Mirror on the wall
I'm a gonner watch me fall
You deserve it
You're life is gone
You're a gonner hope you fall
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Have you seen my girl at all?
I watched her crumble
I watched her fall
Your girl is gone
All because of the mirror on the wall
Sorry it's been awhile. Want me to see your work? Reposted something of mine? Use #magicath I can't believe I had to poems trending. Thankyou all for liking and commenting. Time and Speak are just the beginning. Like and comment!
3.3k · Oct 2018
The Warrior King
Ozzie Oct 2018
He was the warrior king.
He was known for being strong.
He was Mogar.

Shallow breaths passed through his lips.
Hot tears rolled down his cheeks.

Arms wrapped tightly around him.
Knees pulled close to his chest.

He tried to hold himself together.

How did he get here?

Unable to laugh or smile.
Unmotivated and unfocused.
Unable to sleep or eat.

An empty shell.

Devoid of all emotion but one:

Shame

He was ashamed.
Ashamed he couldn't push through.
Ashamed he wasn’t strong enough.
Ashamed that he was broken

He was the warrior king.
10-17-18
3.1k · Nov 2014
Stars
Ozzie Nov 2014
Stars blink
Once
Twice
Three times
They seen to say
You'll see another day
3.0k · Nov 2014
Dear Girls of the World,
Ozzie Nov 2014
Hey you're more than pretty. You're gorgeous. You're eyes sparkle brighter than any star. Your smile beats the moon. Your hair is so much fun to play with. Remember not to starve, purge, cut, tear, stab, poke, burn, scratch. There's no need too. I don't need to see your face to know your beautiful. I don't care what the mirror says. You deserve to know the ugly truth. You will always be beautiful and there's nothing you can say or do to change that.
For every girl, guy, and everyone in between. You deserve to feel beautiful. 'I kissed the scars on her skin and I still think your beautiful. I don't think I could ever lose my best friend.
2.5k · Dec 2014
Behind Tinted Windows
Ozzie Dec 2014
Behind tinted windows we all have battles that rage
Its only what's on the surface we
can see

There's the girl you called a **** for being pregnant
There's the boy you made fun of for crying
There's the girl you shoved in the halls
The boy you called lame
The boy you beat up for kissing another boy

Behind tinted windows we all have battle that rage
Its only what's on the surface we can see

She was *****
His mother is dying
She's already being abused at home
He has to work nights to support his family
That's his only reason to live

Behind tinted windows we all have battles that rage
Its only what's on the surface we can see

Her sweatpants and hoody provoked him
Cancer is a *****
Her father is a drunk
His father is in a wheelchair and can't work
His family told him they'd rather him dead than gay

Behind tinted windows we all have battles that rage
It's only what's deep inside we can't see
2.3k · Apr 2019
Midnight Thoughts
Ozzie Apr 2019
Things are always okay
Until midnight rolls around

At midnight my demons emerge
At midnight my thoughts race
At midnight I remember

I remember I'm useless
I remember I'm unloved
I remember I'm unwanted

Things always okay
Until midnight rolls around

At midnight I can't sleep
At midnight I can't breathe
At midnight I can't feel

My eyes are filled with tear
My skin is covered in cuts
My bathtub is stained in blood

Things are never okay
Until midnight rolls around
4-9-19
1.7k · Sep 2014
Cinderella
Ozzie Sep 2014
Cinderella, Cinderella
Where have you been?
Wash the windows, sweep the floors
Do all the chores
Cinderella Cinderella
Where have you been?
Those clothes are mine not for you
Change before I claw you
Cinderella, Cinderella
Where have you been?
Pumpkins aren't carriages, mice can't be horses
***** aren't for maids
Cinderella, Cinderella
Why can't you stay?
One dance isn't enough
You must please stay
Cinderella, Cinderella
What were you thinking?
The prince doesn't love you
Fairy tales are for children
Cinderella, Cinderella
When will you learn?
Happily ever after is only in books
Enjoy!
1.7k · Dec 2014
Terrible Things
Ozzie Dec 2014
By the time I was your age
I'd give anything
to fall in love truly was all i could think
that's when i met your mother
the girl of my dreams
the most beautiful woman that I'd ever seen

She said, "boy can i tell you a wonderful thing?"
I cant help but notice you staring at me
I know i shouldn't say this
But, i really believe i can tell by your eyes
That you're in love with me

Now, son I'm only telling you this
Because life can do terrible things

Now most of the time we'd have too much to drink
We'd laugh at the stars and we'd share everything
Too young to notice and too dumb to care
But, love was a story that couldnt compare

I said, "girl can i tell you a wonderful thing?"
I made you a present with paper and string
Open with care now im asking you please
You know that i love you, will you marry me

Now son, im only telling you this
Because life can do terrible things

Youll learn one day ill hope and ill pray
That god shows you differently

She said boy can i tell you a terrible thing
Seems that im sick and ive only got weeks
Please dont be sad now, i really believe
You were the greatest thing that ever happened to me

Slow, so slow
I fell to the ground on my knees

Don't fall in love
It's just too much to lose
if given the choice
Then I'm begging you to choose
To walk away, walk away
Dont let her get you
I cant bare to see the same
Happen to you

Now, son im only telling you this
Cause, life can do terrible things
- MAYDAY PARADE
Ozzie Sep 2014
One little house
One little door
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Large fangs
Purple and black skin
Two beady eyes
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Tall and bony
Skeletal structure
Green scales
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Large and muscular
Yellow in color
Skin sagging
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Small and fat
Orange in color
Large yellow eyes
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Large and fat
Eyelids heavy
Silver in color
One little staircase
Down, down, down
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Eyes large and wanting
Skin red and boiling
Ram's horns upon its head
One little staircase
One little door
One little peephole
One demon within
Fangs of black
Wings like leather
Green fire breath
Piercing eyes at the door
Steps like thunder rolled
A girl laid to sleep
Under a spell not even a Prince could break
Snow Whites descent into hell as she meets the 7 deadly sins
1.3k · Sep 2014
End me (The End)
Ozzie Sep 2014
Take a knife
Stab me
Take a rope
Hang me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
Take some pills
Dose me
Take a bat
Beat me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
Throw me
Off the bridge
Take a towel
Suffocate me
I won't stop you
I'll even help you
End this life
Make it a ******
Or an accident
To save the ones
Around me
This is the end
So long and goodnight
1.3k · Sep 2014
Poetry
Ozzie Sep 2014
Poetry
No other word is needed
Poetry is life
Poetry is love
Poetry is peace
Poetry is family
Poetry
No other word is needed
Poetry is death
Poetry is hate
Poetry is war
Poetry is pain
Poetry
No other word is needed
Poetry
1.2k · Sep 2014
Her
Ozzie Sep 2014
Her
The stars are shining bright
Come sit with me tonight
Your hair is a perfect mess
I would never think more or less
Of you than perfection
Listen to the crickets sing
The melody of harmony

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

We share the sky
As we dance all night
The world is alive
Buzzing with sound
Natures music is my remorse
We won't stop until the sky turns pale
Time and space aren't enough to stop me

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

The stars are shining bright
Come sit with me tonight
Your hair is a perfect mess
I would never think more or less
Of you than perfection
Listen to the crickets sing
The melody of harmony

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you

We share the sky
As we dance all night
The world is alive
Buzzing with sound
Natures music is my remorse
We won't stop until the sky turns pale
Time and space aren't enough to stop me

The world can move on without us
I just want to live here and now

8,000 miles isn't enough
To keep me away
8,000 miles isn't enough
For me to stop loving you
For Rosie
1.1k · Mar 2018
Stages of dying
Ozzie Mar 2018
One
Two
Three
Four

One means hope
Thinned hair
Nausea

One
Two
Three
Four

Two frays your nerves
Bald heads
Tired limbs

One
Two
Three
Four

Three brings pain
Chemo filled veins
Faltering hearts

One
Two
Three
Four

Four is the end
Fills you up
Destroys you

One
Two
Three
Four
1.1k · Nov 2014
Sunrise
Ozzie Nov 2014
The sun rises for me
It sets for you
I've started another empty day without you
You ended a great one without me
I'm struggling through it
You sleep soundly
I can feel the pain
You sink into dreams
I'm lost without you
You couldn't be more found without me
Another day in paradise. Sending prayers to all those who need it.
993 · Oct 2019
I’m Tired of This
Ozzie Oct 2019
I’m tired of people dying
Of all the loss in this world

She was lost years ago
To the cancer in her body
Her ashes spread in the sea
Resting where she loved

I’m tired of people dying
Of all the loss in this world

She was lost way too young
The water too deep for her
Stuffed animals on the alter
Two years wasn’t enough

I’m tired of people dying
Of all the loss in this world

He was lost last week
When he fell too far
Only eighteen years
Sister said “see you soon”

I’m tired of people dying
Of all the loss in this world

She was lost long ago
Her heart beat blocked
A daughter, a sister, a niece
Just SMiLe, you’ll be okay

I’m tired of people dying
On October 11th, 2019 a boy I graduated with passed away. At his funeral his twin sister said “This isn’t goodbye. This is see you soon. I love you. I’ll see you soon.”
931 · Nov 2014
1
Ozzie Nov 2014
1
The stars lean down to kiss you and I lie awake and miss you. Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere. The silence isn't so bad until I look at my hands and feel sad. 'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
For rose wherever you may be
903 · Oct 2014
He....... She......
Ozzie Oct 2014
He acts like a player
                                      She's a cheerleader
                                                     ­                     He hits up all the girls
She's the one everyone wants
                                                       He goes home at night
                                                                ­                                  She avoids home
He likes his best friend
                                           She skips a meal
                                                            ­                He just wants to stop hiding
She just wants to be thin
                                               He comes out as gay
                                                             ­                          She no longer eats
He's beat up by his 'friends'
                                                    She­ collapses during class
                                                           ­                                           He's in the ER
She's in the OR
                               His skull caved in
                                                                ­  Her heart is starved
                                                                ­                                          
He wakes up with amnesia
                                                     She remembers it all
                                                                ­                
He dies to brain damage
                                                She starves to death

This all started with one comment. A whisper in the halls. Something about her size.

He just wanted to be himself, but they didn't want him there.
This is based off real people. Not to this extreme but it can happen, watch what you sa.
879 · Sep 2014
Untitled
Ozzie Sep 2014
I've done some nasty things
I've lost all my good
I search my soul for you

Can you forgive me?
My broken heart racing
I want us back
Please give the pleasure of loving you
Please
790 · Sep 2014
Broken Promises
Ozzie Sep 2014
You looked me in the eye and promised
You promised me that one day we'd be okay
You promised you'd be by my side the entire time
Look at me now
You promised that you loved me
You promised things couldn't get any worse
You promised that I had a future
Look at me now
Your promises have shattered me
Your promises cut deeper than any blade
Your promises killed my appetite
Look at me now
Your promises pushed me 1 step
Your promises pushed me 2 steps
Your promises pushed me....
Look at me now
You stare at the box
You stare at the ground
You stare at the stone that marks it me
You see me now
*sigh*
785 · Dec 2014
Untitled
Ozzie Dec 2014
I want to live, not just survive

-Angel With a Shotgun, The Cab
777 · Dec 2014
Your eyes
Ozzie Dec 2014
Your eyes they flutter
Like butterfly wings
When closed they blend
To the same tan as their background
But,
When opened
They shine a brilliant blue
And throw me off
733 · Sep 2014
If You Loved Me
Ozzie Sep 2014
The big C (cancer) ruined my life
You came and revived me
You swept me off my feet
Now I sit here and wonder
What have I done wrong?
Was it worth the fight?
I've pondered giving up
Leaving to never return
But I feel deep in my heart
That you still love me so
I don't want to believe it
I want to leave the earth
But I can’t ignore this feeling
If you loved me would you let me go?
This is true.....
Ozzie Jul 2014
You look at me and see my tattoos
You look at me and see my piercings
You look at me and see my colored hair
You think I'm a useless punk
You look at me and see my long hair
You look at me and see my short, shorts
You look at me and see my white skin
You think I'm a stereotypical b*tch
You look at me and see my shaggy hair
You look at me and see I dress similar to guys
You look at me and see me hug my friend
You think I'm a lesbian
You look at me and see me dance
You look at me and see my small frame
You look at me and see a girly face
You think I'm a trans
You look at me and see my flaws
You look at me and judge
You look at me and make a comment
A rumor spreads
I get arrested for a false accusation
I lose my good reputation
I get food thrown at me
I get laughed at when I go down the halls
What happened because of you
I became a felon
I end up a drop out
I commit suicide
I get abandoned by my parents
You put it all off track
Your words killed my chances
You ruined my life
This was written to say: Even if you don't beat them up or yell names in their faces its still bullying to talk bad about someone behind their back. What you say isn't always true and don't believe everything people tell you. This is to show how you can effect people's lives. Don't say that it's over dramatic. Those are true stories.
697 · Sep 2014
I belong to you
Ozzie Sep 2014
My heart is bound in chains
And you hold the key
My mind is filled with you
Yet empty of love
Sorrow fills myself
I crumble
I cry
You still have all of my heart
You still have all of me
My fate lies with you
My destiny walks with your's
My body is loud and open
Yet my soul is locked away
Pain fills me
I crumble
I cry
You still have all of my heart
You still have all of me
:'( To let it out. Enjoy....
689 · Nov 2014
[ ][ ] {}{ } { }
Ozzie Nov 2014
Like the end feel the smoke
White to yellow runs out
Light another, a whole pack
Feel the smoke
688 · Sep 2014
Sleeping Beauty
Ozzie Sep 2014
A young girl
A twist of fate
Tall towers
Spinning wheels
***** your finger
Seal the curse
Wall of thorns
Villain with horns
Sleeping Beauty
Why won't you wake?
I've broken the curse
I've sealed your fate
Sleeping Beauty
She is doomed
The curse never really had a cure
It's okay not great
686 · May 2018
Being Seventeen 5/3/18
Ozzie May 2018
My birthday approaches like a train
I am stuck on the tracks of time

Nothing comes with being seventeen

College applications pile like snow
An avalanche waiting to bury me

Nothing comes with being seventeen

Adulthood looms like dark clouds
Ready to pick me up into the storm

Nothing comes with being seventeen
I'm not ready
682 · May 2019
Just Remember 5-14-19
Ozzie May 2019
“We don’t remember days, we remember moments.”

I remember four boys
willing to take in a lost kid.
I remember meeting him
in the middle of a winter night.
I remember meeting him
when we got lost among the rocks.
I remember meeting him
in an island bakery.
I remember meeting him
when I tripped into his life.

I remember that first gathering,
how awkward and nervous I was.
I remember not wanting to speak
for fear of ruining everything.
I remember mad libs in the dark,
how I never knew my turn.
I remember telling them my age,
for I am but a child in this world.
I remember talks under the stars,
how we were never tired yet.

I remember hearing his voice
and being surprised by him.
I remember adventures in the trees,
learning what it means to be mortal.
I remember learning his language
and completely butchering it.
I remember keeping him up,
how he claimed to never be tired.
I remember the sound of his voice
and the color of his eyes.

I remember his unique accent
and how mesmerized I was.
I remember the forbidden mine
that echoed with our laughter.
I remember the stories he told
and the memories he shared.
I remember hearing his dream,
how he wants to change the world.
I remember the way he spoke
and the hope he gave me.

I remember being nervous around him
and not wanting to mess up.
I remember when he called me friend,
how happy and proud I felt.
I remember his bad jokes
and the chaos he caused.
I remember his description of me,
how beautifully he thought of me.
I remember the strength in his words
and the safety I felt in them.

I remember how he stumbled
and how embarrassed he was.
I remember complimenting him,
how flushed his cheeks got.
I remember his infectious laugh
and the brilliant smile that joined it.
I remember how he treated everyone,
how he made all of them feel loved.
I remember seeing the universe in his eyes
and finally feeling free.

I remember hearing his voice
and how it shook with fear.
I remember his unique accent
and how choked up it was.
I remember him being nervous
and not wanting to slip up.
I remember how he stumbled
and how terrified he was.

I remember my skin
and all the blood it let.
I remember the pain,
how I went numb.
I remember the tears
and how they stung.
I remember my breaths
and my struggling lungs.
I remember it wasn’t enough,
that there had to be more.

I remembered my boys.

I remembered their fear filled eyes.
I remembered their tear-stained cheeks.
I remembered their hitching breaths.
I remembered their shaking voices.
I remembered their worrying hands.

I remembered.

I remembered
I needed them.

I remembered
They needed me.

I remembered my family.

I remembered
I couldn’t leave them.

I remembered to live.
For my sweet boys
668 · Sep 2014
Doodles
Ozzie Sep 2014
Doodles, doodles
Cover my page
Unicorns with wings
Trolls riding lizards
My pencil flies
Its swoops
It leaps
Doodles, doodles
Fill my notebook
Notes forgotten long ago
A kingdom was build
Filled with monsters and magic
Where strange creatures lurk
My pencil twirls
It loops and scoops
Doodles, doodles
Everywhere they are
They've covered every page
Covers front and back
Few venture to the desk
They slide to the side
Casting spells that make a test easier
They are soon relinquished
By teacher's glares and detention threats
My pencil dances with ease
It pirouettes, it twirls, it sticks the landing
Doodles, doodles
They're no longer doodles
But life, inventions, and lands beyond seas
They rumbles around and soar in the sky
They fill my sketchbooks
They fill my brain
They run and they play
They talk and they laugh
They're no longer doodles
But the beginning of an artist
626 · Dec 2017
Home
Ozzie Dec 2017
I was born in a house
All I ever needed was a home

I just want to go home
To a place where I won't hurt
A place I feel safe
A place I want to be

How do you go home
when all you have is a house?
625 · Oct 2020
Faceless
Ozzie Oct 2020
Anxiety
Insecurity
Self hatred
Fueled by staying inside
By never seeing people
By wearing a mask

Full face
Half face
No face
Hide behind the cloth
The screen
The walls

Privacy
Intimacy
Fear
Leave me anonymous
Unseen
Invisible
I've developed extreme anxiety around publicly showing my face. It's gotten to the point I can't drive without a mask or go get my mail. All the mirrors in my house are covered. Seeing myself ruins my day.
622 · Sep 2014
The Result
Ozzie Sep 2014
Laughing faces
Throwing fists
Crying girls
Bathroom floors
Shattered mirrors
Blood stained clothes
Bags of pills
Hollow eyes
Dizzy head
Both girls lay there dead
Stop bullying
613 · Jul 2018
Questions
Ozzie Jul 2018
Questions carry in the wind
asking for a simple explanation
for what's holding me down.
I don't have one.

How do I tell them
that I've lost all motivation,
that I don't feel anything anymore,
that I'm just numb,
that scars line my arms,
that I'm desperate to feel anything
even if it's pain?

How do I explain
that in a room full of people
I still feel alone,
that a friendly face
no longer feels friendly,
that I'm alone on a boat
drifting through an endless sea?

How do I say to them
that everything has lost meaning,
that there isn't a shred of joy in me,
that everything I do feels mundane,
that I'm on autopilot,
that I'm just going through the motions?

How do I face my little sister
and say to her
that I want to leave her behind,
that she'll be on her own,
that she won't be able to come to me,
that she'll no longer have me
to comfort her,
that I won't be there?

How do I look my mother in the eye
and tell her that the child she brought
into this world is desperate for a
way out of it?

Questions carry on the wind
asking for a simple explanation
for what's holding me down.
7/17/18
608 · Jun 2018
Sleepless Night (6/16/18)
Ozzie Jun 2018
It's never dark enough.
Light slips through the window
From the street lights and the stars.

It's never quiet enough.
Sound pushes through the walls
From the roads and the houses.

It's never warm enough.
Cold seeps through the blankets
From the wind and the fear.

It's never lonely enough.
Voices whisper through the dark
From the shadows and the corners.

It's never enough.
I'm awake through the night
From sundown to sunrise.
I can't sleep
598 · Aug 2014
Speak
Ozzie Aug 2014
The things that I see
The things that I hear
He's cowering in the corner
She's crying behind the bathroom door
It's not right what they do
They yell and call names
They beat and humiliate
They feed off the weak and broken
Find your voice
Say what you wish
Don't let them hold you back
Speak what you believe
The things that I see
The things that I hear
He's holding a gun
She's screaming for help
It's not right what they do
They cut and they bleed
They pop and they fall
They fall apart before your eyes
Find your voice
Say what you wish
Don't let them hold you back
Speak what you believe
The things that I see
The things that I hear
He's lying there dead
Her screams have silenced
It's not right what they did
They cried and they cursed
They broke and they wrote
They fell into the praying hands of others
Find your voice
Say what you wish
Don't let them hold you back
Speak what you believe
The things that I see
The things that I hear
His life thrown away
Her prayers gone unanswered
It's not right what happened
They fought and lost
They begged and got ignored
They were lost to ignorance and rage
Say what you wish
Find your voice
It might save them
Stop bullying. It ends in tragedy. He took his own life. She was beaten by people who used to pick on her. Find your voice and speak
590 · Aug 2014
Time
Ozzie Aug 2014
What happens in the future is uncertain
But worrying about the void that is what hasn't happened yet is pointless
It’s like looking back at memories, good and bad
That part of time has already crumbled away
Nothing else can happen in it
All that you need to do is live in the sculpted beauty of today
Soon it will just be dust in the wind
Not really a poem, but I like it. Sorry it's been awhile. Enjoy.
555 · Jun 2018
Another World
Ozzie Jun 2018
I live in my head
In another world
                               A world full of magic
                               Full of mystery
                               Full of adventure
                                                               A world with kings
                                                               Good and bad
                                                               Courageous and cowardly
I live in my head
In another world
                              A world with friends
                              A tight knit group
                              A family to lean on
                                                                 A world of happiness
                                                                 With laughter
                                                                 With inside jokes
I live in my head
In another world
                              A world of love
                              With comradery
                              With protection
                                                           A world I never want to leave
                                                           It's everything I ever wanted
                                                           It's everything I ever needed
I live in another world
That has become my home
I day dream too much
6/16/18
551 · Mar 2018
Drowning
Ozzie Mar 2018
Their words pushed me into the water
They became waves stealing my breath
They turned to brinks around my wrists
     Pulling me
     Down
     Down
     Down
“It’s easy to swim” they said
They moved easily through the water
“You just need to try a little harder”
     I sank
     Down
     Down
     Down
My lips parted allowing the air to escape
Cold water rushed into my lungs
I gasped searching for any amount of relief
     I fell
     Down
     Down
     Down
I felt the ocean floor against my feet
Fine sand floated around me in a haze
The darkness enveloped me in a cold embrace
     I accepted the end
     I drowned
     Drowned
     Drowned...
A poem about depression
536 · Dec 2017
Disappointment
Ozzie Dec 2017
Disappointment

I see it in my mother’s eyes
I hear it in her voice
I feel it in the air
The tension is painful
It’s sharp like needles against my skin

Her words hit me like broken glass
“Can’t” “Don’t” “Wouldn’t”

“Why”
     It stings
“Why”
     It seeps into my skin
“Why”
     It creeps through my veins

How does a mother’s disappointment explain why?

Why?
     My brain was asleep
Why?
     I was on autopilot
Why?
     My head was full of fog
Why?
     I wasn’t in control

Disappointment.

I am everyone’s greatest.
Written: 12-12-17
I'm just having a rough time
Ozzie Sep 2014
His shattered and broken
He needs me now
I want to kiss him
Make him feel okay
But he can't see my passion
Only feel it
533 · Aug 2019
Left Alone
Ozzie Aug 2019
Leave me alone
I screamed it into the night

Leave me alone
I cried it into my pillows

Leave me alone
I begged it into the dark

Leave me alone

So they did

They left me alone
532 · Sep 2014
My story
Ozzie Sep 2014
My story doesn't start with,
Once Upon A Time
It starts with my kingdom
The king, the queen, and their only son
They were happy together in the castle they had
But every story starts with a tragedy
The king and queen clashed quite often
His bottles and mistress followed him home
Then he was gone, he opened the door and left
They didn't see him again after that
The queen fell into smoke and bitter liquids
Their son was forced to take charge
Things moved on slowly but the kingdom crumbled
Years past and plants took over the walls
The prince decided he'd had enough
He rebuilt his family
He build walls around his heart
Then he fell sick
He moved far from home
He held the weight of the pain on his shoulders
He cloaked himself in silence
An angel came and picked up the pieces
She brought him light
But he crumbled within slowly
His heart burning with the rhythm of a drum
It's true what they say
Happily ever afters really are only in books
That boy is me and the queen is my mother
The rancid hearted king was my father
So long and goodnight
529 · Oct 2020
Agoraphobic
Ozzie Oct 2020
I can’t do anything right
I can’t do anything outside
I can’t leave
The voices in my head are screaming
Cover your face, don’t let them see
Cover your face, hide what you are
Mask up, keep it on
Paranoid about my privacy

Days on weeks
On months
On years
Hiding away from the world
They’re always asking
They’re always wondering
They want to know
They speculate

Anxiety attacks
Hands shake
Breath halters
Heart thumps

Don’t let them see
Don’t let them know

Hide away hide away hide away

Don’t show them what you really are
I ******* hate myself
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