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Jan 2020 · 278
Tell me you love me
Tiana Jan 2020
Tell me you love me
I need someone
on days like this I do.
Hug me tight
and cuddle with me all night.
I need to feel something tonight.
I lost all my emotions
trying to fix myself
that I dont know how to feel anymore.
hold me tight,
help me feel something tonight.
My heart is dead
make it beat once again.
Jan 2020 · 1.6k
Overthinker
Tiana Jan 2020
I'm a overthinker.
I over think every possible way for everything.
Same goes for when I love someone.
I over think every possible way
in the worst scenarios
why I shouldn't be with them.
Because I'm scared of getting hurt.
But even after all that
I have chosen you
then imagine how much I love you
that no matter how much I over think
every situation seems stupid
knowing that in the end
I'll have you by my side
Jan 2020 · 233
Today while.....
Tiana Jan 2020
Today while you were kissing my lips in my dreams.
I realized one thing when I woke up.
I want u.
Only you.
No one else.
Even if it's to live with you only in my dreams is be happy.
But as long as I have you.
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Jan 2020 · 299
The only thing i want..
Tiana Jan 2020
The only thing I want right now is your lips against my lips.
For your fingertips to trace my skin.
To see my reflection in your eyes.
For you to smile
and for me to know I'm the reason why.
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Jan 2020 · 323
Irony
Tiana Jan 2020
I wanted to forget you.
So I stopped talking to you
But then you made it worse
By coming in my dreams everyday.
You touched me.
You missed me.
You hugged me.
Your presence lingers around me.
It's like you are in my blood.
I breathe you.
But ironic fact I still haven't touched you in reality even once.
Jan 2020 · 282
Dream....
Tiana Jan 2020
I love to fall asleep.
Why?
Because only then can I dream the most beautiful dreams.
I can dream of you.
You are beside of me
and holding me
and I am save from all the demons in my head.
You protect me
and my Heart is warm.
I wish I can dream forever
And Never wake up.
I love to dream.
Because you are there with me.
In reality you are miles way
and you don't love me like you do in my dream.
So I prefer to sleep forever like aurora
And maybe one day you'll kiss me in reality
and wake me up.
Jan 2020 · 320
Playing games
Tiana Jan 2020
They both were playing a game.
Just a game of their own.
He was playing hard to get.
While she kept breaking herself
trying to fit news pieces like a puzzle
so that maybe she'll figure out the way to his heart.
In the end They both lost.
He lost the girl
that would have done anything to keep him happy.
And she lost all the pieces of her heart
trying to create a puzzle that didn't exit .....
Jan 2020 · 3.0k
I love you
Tiana Jan 2020
I love you.
I love only you.
I want you.
Only you.
Why can't you see that?
Why can't you feel the way I do?
I love you so much that it's hard to let you go.
I can't let you go.
You are my world.
I want it to stay that way.
I want to be able to kiss and tell u how much I love you but I can't.
I'm just unlucky enough not to have you.
I love you more than I have ever loved anyone else.
It not easy to move on.
I don't want to.
I need you.
I choose you.
But you don't choose me.
No matter how much I'm begging myself  to move on,I can't.
Why can't you see that?
No one will ever love you the way I did. Never.
And I can't love anyone else like I loved you. They are simply not you.
I don't want a man. I want you.
But we don't always get what we want.
If God gave me one wish I would ask him to give you the ability to love me.
If you gave us a chance I will show you how beautiful our love story can be.
Everything I have I wanna spend it on you. My love, my life, my everything is for you.
I want you. Your hugs. Your kisses. Your lips. You. I want all of you. Every flaw and every imperfection I want it all. Every beauty every gem you posses within I want them all. The beauty and the nightmare let me share it with you. Let it be us. For I love you more that the moon loved the night. I don't care if you got a few broken pieces I'll fix them up with mine no matter the hurt it gives. Through good times and bad times I choose you, I want you.
Here I am loving you so much but there you are telling me to move on.
How can I?
You tell me it's not possible.
You just can't love me.
Move on!!!!
But I  can't!! I don't want too.
I still wish the impossible will happen.
Though it hurts like hell.
Breaks me in two.
Burns my heart.
Waiting is agony.
But I still wanna face it for you.
This love I feel it's too much.
It's so much. It's more than what I have ever felt. I don't know how to control it. It's controlling me.
You say move on,
How can I move on when you bring out the best in me. You make me feel safe. My whole sanity is with you. I love the way you look at me. You see me for me. That's what I want.
People say love yourself. Know your worth. you don't need him.
I do. I do love myself.
I know my worth. I know I'm all worthy of your love and you are all worthy of mine.
In your eyes I've seen the image of me. I've seen how you have seen me. And the way you've  seen me is what I am. The real me. This is what I deserve. I deserve to be loved for who I am because I am a woman who has made lots of mistakes but still worthy of love. And that's how you see me. Everyone else only seen me at my most beautiful times and all my achievements.  So they love me for that. But you are the only person who knows me inside out. The real full entire human being I am everything you know. And yet you see me so beautiful the way I deserve to be seen.
Then how can I not love you. How can I want someone else when you are all I crave for.
I tried my best to make you love me. A few scratches on my skin, a few pieces  of my heart fell but yet I'm fighting my way past all the voices that scream "move on!!"
It's not easy.
No one will ever understand this pain.
You are my best friend. My ******* hero. My angel. My life. My Anam cara ( Meaning: A person with whom you can share your deepest thoughts, feelings and dreams with your soul friend)
I can't just move and start over again it's not easy in this wicked world.
When I was wondering with a broken heart and trust you found me and fixed me. Like that you got glued to my heart. I can't take you away. Then all the pieces you fixed will fall off again.
I don't want to trust another and get hurt again. I've been through enough.

I am the dark sky and you are my moon. You light me up so bright and made me beautiful. I was just a dark cloudy sky but then you came and lit me with your beautiful glow. You filled my sky with stars as you brought out the best in me. No one will ever understand how important the moon is in the night sky.

But it's sad that the moon doesn't like the sky. Every morning when the sky woke up The moon was gone. The sky  had to let the hot sun shine and light her up. The sun was nice but not all the time. Not like the moon. It couldn't compare to the peace the moon brought. The sun loved the sky. It loved to make the sky bright but mornings aren't peaceful at the night. The sun didn't paint the sky with its stars or any gifts. But the moon did. The sun simply shined when the sky was happy and bright but the moon it shined when the sky was sad. No matter how many dark clouds covered the sky the moon could simply take it away. But some days when the moon was gone the sky cried. she  cried cause she was alone in her darkness. She cried for the moon because she knew the moon didn't love her back. He was probably shinning somewhere else. For no sun could make the sky shine on a rainy day. Then again the moon would show up and the rain would stop. The sky will shine. All dark clouds are gone. The sky knew she could never have the moon , he was there simply for a reason. But she couldn't help wishing for the impossible.  Wishing that the moon will forever be hers. She has heard little children say that everything is possible but having the moon wasn't one of them. But she couldn't leave the moon because the sky was incomplete without him. So with a broken heart she let him be. But at the same time she was happy because as long as she had the moon she was okay and nothing can make her dark.

You are my moon.
And I,
I'm the sky.
But just not yours.
Like the moon can never be the sky's.

I hope to die and wake up in another world where you are mine and I am yours.

Till that goodbye.
A simple rant to my cupcake
Jan 2020 · 349
Not a waste of time
Tiana Jan 2020
You know people say I'm wasting my time loving you.
I wasted all my love on you.
When you waste your time
you end up with nothing.
But the truth is I used my love as a lesson
to help you show me
how beautiful love was,
how beautiful I was
And how beautiful the world can be.
I used my love
to help you restore my faith and trust.
I saw that beauty existed
I used my love
to show you how beautiful you are in my eyes.
And this love made me feel like a **** queen
it revealed my kingdom I needed to build. 
And I won't regret a thing
Because nothing I felt was a waste of time.
It was a lesson learned.
And I'm glad I was privileged to learn it from you.

— The End —