I'm the irreverent boyscout you can't trust that's no help
Cowardice and gluttonous
But hell can I start a fire.
I don't listen, I'm not nice
purity I don't recognize.
I do my own thing,
I never courtesy.
Oh **** can I scream at wrongs.
I'm the grungy kind of disloyal,
You know the sin of the unclean.
My face is never cheerful
And I'm rude to everything.

Swirl round, float, flutter,
Then find the light.
My own force searching
Knocks me back away.
Filled only with more questions,
I pace and stare.
Again I dive forward
Into the mystery,
And fall back once more befuddled.
"Is this all there is?
Will I ever know
For what i search?"
Still glowing me down,
My question floats above me.
Finally with all I am I strike.
As I understand it consumes me,
And I am no more.
Light bulb!
How am I to say
I am any different?
As I look at the sun
I wonder how it's there,
I'm reminded that
what gives me life
burns through my air.
The color of life is
only shown by light,
Proving to men
minds are meant to bend.
Shift, alter, change, arrange
Swirl round, float, flutter
we are all the same.

In all my life I've learned two things
1. All's fair in love and war
2. GOD's love knows no bounds.

What is independence?
Is it just thinking for yourself?
Can you describe desire,
Or is that just as well.
I'm so afraid of what I want
And it's afraid with me.
Solemn vows are shattered.
Amend the life that be.
Broken things are beautiful.
Dreams are all a code.
Sometimes what you needed,
Contradicts the other wants.
Four eyes locked in place,
Bruised skin, lost lace.
No awkward silence,
The happy feeling;
We'll speak until it leaves us.

I miss it now,
just thinking,
That independence means alone.

It lay on its side
Hollow, dead, and decaying
But still full of life

As the rabbit runs
Through its forgotten torso
It has become new

As the termite eats
This lifeless matter gives life
from its death a world

We must not view death
With such hollow perception
But embrace new life.

I don't know what to do with myself
I'm a sandpaper sphincter
Yeah, I come across too strong

I'm looking for someone to help me
Because I can do nothing on my own
There's an endless flailing going on...
Like trying to grasp hold of something

Is there anything that's real?

Is there anything real?

Is anything real if you aren't looking at it?

"You know, out of all the friends I've known you've really been the greatest to me so far. You listen, you care, and I feel really comfortable around you. I can honestly say I love you, but with the situation it won't work out."

Why can't I be real on my own?
Perception is all of life;
My perception, Jaded and Alone

I met a man one day
So very long ago
I could see his spirit
And he could see
Right through my soul
I didn't know
That he saw me, that day
And not the way I looked at all...

So I took upon myself to make a friend
And in the end,
I lost them all.
Life is funny, ain't it honey
And you've just got to love it all.

He said
'Let's learn to send our thoughts through time'
I asked him how,
And am still waiting for reply
Though I think it's something tried and true through time.

My friend he didn't know what love was
I can't say I did,
But I've never claimed to know a thing
Just let it ring
Come back to bed
Help sort the tangles from my head
She said....

'Take upon yourself to make some friends'
So I tried but I failed this time
And made some enemies instead

What did I ever do to you?
All I wanted was a moment
Just a second of pure gratitude
For all the things I could do
If you wanted me to...

Tear filled eyes
Stared back at me
I couldn’t have used
Less empathy
My now foe/friend
At his wits end
Smiles crookedly and says...

"Let's learn to send our thoughts through time"
I asked him how
He laughed as a reply
Now I believe it's something found
In Rhythm and Rhyme

See that demon
She's a hydra
Her faces they multiply

Piercing light
Made of truth
Cuts down her wicked lies

I was caught once
In that succubus' grip
Tell you then life was sad

Happily, I'm freed now
And I know that I will never go back
Yes I know I'll never go back

It was hard times
living that lifestyle
Witness crimes your best friends make
I was lost and lonely
Dosing off my last mistake

You'd find me beaten
And I'd be crying
Over the little bit of milk I spilt

What you don't know
What I won't say
It's something that I would never admit

See that demon
She's a hydra
And I'm in round 3 with her
She's winning, and I'm quitting
But the girl don't know all my tricks
Because I'm fooling
Make a feint move
Then swing those words with all my might

listen (Honey listen to me)
Very closely (This isn't working out)
I'll tell you all that I have learned(we aren't the same people we were)
when they call you (and I've got to go)
To come home (I'll never forget...)
It's valuable if it's what you yearn.(Goodbye)

Momma done asked me
If I's get a job
said 'Love I dunno,
I ain't thought tha far'

She say I'm a sad man
Told her she dam right
She never listen bout the
Demon's comin' at night

She threw her temper on me
I dunno what t'do
Momma word flowing through me
"Child learn to be true"

Oh my lawd
I'm a **** fool
Devil a waiting for me
'nd I dunno what'a do

There ain't nothing I mean
Just working through
My dry cold scheme
Oh Momma please help me
Find something real

My Brother aksed me a question
He wan'know I'm'gon'do
I'say, "I don't know bro,
Guess I'll'earn to be true..."

He say, "Now th'ain't good enough,
You got bills you know do!"

"WHAT'S THAT MATTER TO ME?
Every time I base up
I see my face meet a knee."

OH BROTHER WON'T YOU HELP ME?

"I wish I could bro,
But I know what ya mean."

OH MY LAWD
I'm a ****** fool
Hell's waiting for me
GOD what do I do?

Oh Momma please help me
Find reality.

You know I got a rain cloud
I bought a new umbrella

I saw that ankle chain there
This bolt cutter should help you

End of every day the sun sets
When light bounces through rain,
I feel blessed

You don't understand
Really there's one plan
Rebellion's not in nature
You must grind life for paper

Time is just a killer robot from the future planes of never ever land where the whole world went insane and it is fiction

I don't think you heard me right,
or maybe you don't get this

Time is just our murderer,
He comes from the far future.
Breaks through bounds of life;
Into your head to get you.
Steal away your happy day
Think about what's coming late,
Don't forget there's just today
Tomorrow isn't really granted.

You only get to feel it once
You live a zillion lives
You never get to understand
you'll give that up in time.

Time is just a killer robot from the future planes of never ever land where the whole world went insane and it is fiction

What isn't fiction
Holograms were mentioned
A false reality
Virtual destiny
Aren't we afraid

What's been made of this
Who created it?
Is there a save button?
Do I control anything?

Am I just a character in some thing;
Or am I a player in this game?

I guess I sit in Chaos because I don't like change.

If nothing stays the same, then nothing can ever change

I don't like
I don't like change
I prefer growth

You walk through
And the the things that you do
Are actions defining you
It's the way you act
When you don't act like yourself
For which they'll always judge
So true,
Says the feeling from my chest
We are two
Body and sol
Held by head, heart, and sole
Our race isn't old

There is no race at all

We
      Go
           Fast
And
       We
             Crash
Into walls
Or
Into nothing at all.

Wrecking into nothing the driver almost seemed unstoppable,
But then we'd never really know what would happen if he wasn't Almost.
If he wasn't ALMOST fiction that is,
That man hit a wall alright, biggest wall man's ever seen.
Earth.
That's the one that really did him in.
You can't die if you don't live.

We go fast
   There is no race
Until we crash
    Why this pace
Into walls or nothing
    It seems a little reckless to me.