You are concerned about commitment
Because we haven’t had more than one argument in the past year.
Maybe it’s because instead of talking about it, when it could develop into an argument, you shut me out. If you can’t let me in, how can we move forward? How can this really begin?

Am I too little, not enough to peak your interest or not enough to brighten your day or not enough to entertain?
Or am I too much, and too into you and too in love and too ready and too willing to please?

All I want is to make you happy
And all I want is to be enough to do that.

Father, I’m sorry, because I’m not perfect.
And I know that’s what you ask of me. I’m trying to be but I’m obviously doing it imperfectly.
But the perfection I’m seeking isn’t something I can gain immediately. The perfection that I’m reaching for is not a finish line but it’s a journey.
But... What about when I make the same mistake repeatedly? What does that speak of me? “The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak”
And I’ll ask that you forgive me. For the big and the small things adding up to my day, or my week, of imperfectly trying, and sometimes failing. And it’s been said that in failure, there doesn’t need to be any finality. You organized a way for me and my family to grow and improve and be clean for eternity.