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SiouxF Jan 2021
Is it too much to ask
To be heard
To be listened to
To be seen
To be remembered?
SiouxF Aug 2021
Is that me?
Is that really me?
That girl in the photo?
The one standing in her power,
Wrapped in chiffon and little else,
Looking confidently towards the future,
With her hands on her hips
And a glint in her eye,
Assertive,
Sassy,
****.
Yes.
That’s
Me!
SiouxF Mar 2021
It doesn’t matter a toss
If people like you or not,
For there will be people who like you,
Maybe even love you,
And people who hate you
Through no fault of your own,
That is their path to follow.
So be who you want to be,
Do what you want to do,
Live and love with wild abandon,
Be free of the ties that bound you
And restricted you
And kept you playing small,
For you have need of them no more.
You are you,
A beautiful, compassionate, kind human being that has so much to give,
In spite of living a life of deprivation til now,
For what you give out, you receive,
And you deserve to shine,
Shine bright,
Faults and all,
For what defines you
Is the good you do unto others
SiouxF Jan 2021
It’s all meaningless.
It’s all made up.
It’s not reality.
Whichever thoughts and feelings you choose,
Positive
Negative
Fear
Love
None of it is real,
Because you can change it in an instant,
But we make it so,
So choose wisely
For your path will be
More or less smooth, and
Yours and others’ journeys
Easier or more painful to bear
Depending on which you select,
So why not enjoy the ride
SiouxF Oct 2020
It’s my life
I choose how I live it
According to my values
And my gut
My Life
My choice
My consequences
It’s up to me now
And not you
Any more
That’s my freedom
SiouxF Aug 2020
Like
A
Jigsaw
Puzzle
Never
Fully
Making
Sense
Or
Allowed
To
Shine
Until
The
Final
Piece
Has
Been
Laid
In
It’s
Rightful
Place,
Releasing
The
Beautiful
Amazing
Vision
Appreciated
And
Adored
In
All
It’s
Fullness
And
Glory
Joy
SiouxF Mar 2021
Joy
Seek joy in all things,
The absurd,
The whimsical,
The sublime,
The pain,
The happiness,
The ups,
The downs,
The lessons,
The rewards,
For joy is in everything,
But found only
By those who seek
SiouxF Jan 2021
Oh to be wrapped in your arms,
feeling
your heartbeat
your warmth
your love
right now,
wrapped
in our comforting
sacred
bubble,
just you,
just me,
just breathing,
just being,
just loving,
Just us
for all of
eternity
SiouxF Sep 2020
Just do it
Just because it feels good
Just because you want to
Just because your soul desires it
Just because
SiouxF Sep 2020
Phone call
Out of the blue
Sister in law abroad
Screaming down phone
Reassuring her it’s all going to be ok.
Brother rushed to hospital
Cardiac arrest
In the sea
While training for channel swim
Dragged ashore on board
Laying on pebbles
Heart stopped
Fortunately
Doctor and two nurses
Nearby
Pumping heart
Back to life
While curious onlookers watched
Nonchalantly
While eating their sandwiches
Amongst the steely determination
To bring life back
Thrashing arms
Made it too unsafe
For rescue by helicopter
So by road instead

Hospital emergency
Heart stopped
Again
Brought back to life
Again
Induced coma
To recover
High alert
Family worried sick

But for me
Calmness
Awareness
A knowing
He’s not ready to go
Nurses confused by my
Lightness
Asking if I’m really ok.
Yes I’m ok
Because I know
It’s all going to be ok
My brother is not yet ready to give up

And sure enough
Defying all doctor’s expectations
Awakening early
From induced coma
Physically weak
Mentally strong as an ox
With no lasting damage
It’s a miracle they shout
When quite simply
He just wasn’t ready
It wasn’t his time
SiouxF Aug 2020
I can see now
How you were not intimidated by the lashing out
From her own hidden agenda
Fighting others people’s fights
Instead of her own,
Born of fear
Of her dementor,
Fears
That we all buy into
So easily, too easily.

And then there was I,
So naturally and easily,
Yet surprisingly,
Helping her shape and bend her lightening rod
With love, acceptance and understanding
To set her on her way
On a new direction
To sail the seas to who know where
But one of her choosing
And also knowing the door’s still unlocked
If and when the time is right
SiouxF Jan 2021
Lay down your weapons
Remove your suit of armour
And sit down next to me my child,
There’s no more need for
Barbed wire or steel,
For all you need is
Faith, Love and Truth.
These three cornerstones are more effective
At striking your opponents,
With love, truth, and
Absolute certainty
Of your righteousness
SiouxF Nov 2020
There’s two ways to live,
Love
Or
Fear.
One is expansive.
The other restricting.
One is joyous.
The other painful.
One is unknown.
The other known.
But the uncomfortable comfort zone is no place to be.
Instead
Take a leap of faith
For it is only then you will learn to fly,
Like the baby bird leaving the safety of its nest for the first time,
It’s what it was destined to do.
So although it feels strange and scary,
It’s the only way to love, joy and freedom.
So trust,
Throw yourself off the cliff
With wild abandon
And wait for the wonderful experiences,
The dizzying heights,
The low valleys and dales,
Knowing God has your back
And you are fearless and undefeatable with God in your heart
SiouxF Aug 2020
We experienced what we went through,
All the pain, suffering and confusion,
Because it was my way of understanding,
Of learning to feel safe,
And discovering
That. I. Could. Trust. You.
SiouxF Aug 2023
Let go of
The pain
The torment
The anguish
The worry
The times long since past.
Let a new exciting
Chapter unfold
In its own
Unique way,
Embrace change,
Welcome the unknown,
And hope
SiouxF Sep 16
Let it go,
The anger, the spite, the need for vengeance,
Towards yourself as well as others.
Let this moment become the past,
Be who you desire others to be.
Move on with your head held high,
For you did your best with the broken tools you inherited.
Face the future of your dreams,
Bring them into reality,
Believe in yourself,
And most of all baby girl...

Love
SiouxF Nov 2020
Bucket list item,
A dream come true,
In my 50th year
An extra in a film,
Not just any film,
But big feature film with famous stars!
5:30am early start,
Breakfast in individual covid pods,
Undergarments on,
Hair and makeup,
Outer clothes on,
Boots brushed,
Creases steamed,
Lipstick touched up,
Hair curled and sprayed within an inch of its life,
Top to tail inspection,
Bussed to holding area,
Hours of waiting,
Deep and meaningful conversations,
Histories divulged,
Books devoured,
Ping pong with sellotaped paper ***** and paper plates!,
Sleeping,
3 meals a day
Preened and touched up some more,
Line up
Yet another inspection,
Walk to set.
Back to holding area.
Walk to set,
This time we’re on.
Sometimes told where to start,
Other times make it up yourself,
With very little direction.
1930’s German,
Unshapely winter coat and thick woollen tights
Looking 20 years older ******!
Walking along German street
Trams and old cars,
And mashed paper snow!,
Glancing in shop windows
As the main protagonists walk on by,
Sometimes repeat after repeat after repeat after repeat
Of 10 seconds of filming from every angle,
And others wrapped after 1-2 takes.
Freezing cold, rain, sun, never puts us off,
******* screens to block out the sun
Blue screens at the end of the street and the top of buildings,
Sheltering from the rain in shop doors in between takes,
Bonnets on, masks on,
Get in position, bonnets off, masks off.
“Rolling” they shout,
Klaxon sounds,
“Action vehicles”,
“Action background”,
“Action”
Here we go again.
SiouxF Dec 2023
Life is a state of mind,
A merry go round of your choosing,
That either brings tears of joy,
Or screams of terror,
Peace,
Or Drama.
One you can never depart,
Until that one concluding breath.
Will you look back on the well trodden path
With recollections of joy,
Or regret?
SiouxF Aug 2021
An oyster starts off as pure and innocent,
Until an irritating parasite, wheedles it’s way in,
Instead of succumbing,
The mollusk covers it in layers and layers of elegant nacre,
Transforming it into something magical and beautiful and priceless,
One of nature’s miracles,
A strong iridescent unique pearl.

We must do the same,
Cover our failings and our insecurities and our sins
In layers and layers of kindness and compassion and forgiveness,
Till we too blossom and shine bright,
Becoming priceless in all our glory.
SiouxF Jan 2021
The tortoise is a gentle placid creature with a hard shell,
Peeking his head and limbs out
Ambling along
Eating lettuce and grapes
Slowly, calmly, patiently,
Knowing he can retreat into the safety and comfort of his shell
Whenever he feels in danger,
Or to rest, to recuperate, to sleep.

I feel like a tortoise
With my hard shell,
Rarely peeking my head out
But when I do,
Rather than gentleness,
There’s aggression,
Attacking with barbed words that
Slice like a knife through kindness proffered,
My filter of negativity, distrust and insecurity
Biting the hand of anyone who dares get close
Scaring them off
Before retreating back inside my shell
Bruised and battered,
But rather than being a safe haven, a home, a place of comfort,
It’s full of pain, torment and loneliness
SiouxF Sep 2020
When your mind is full of trouble and strife
Take a deep long breath and
Go inwards
Listen
Honour
Be patient
Be kind
To yourself
For your soul is desperately
Trying to get your attention
To help join the dots
To speak it’s truth
And bring you peace
SiouxF Nov 2020
Open your ears
And listen,
Truly listen,
With an open mind,
Inquisitively
Unjudgementally
Unfiltered,
With no pre-conceived false slights
Tainting what you hear,
No black tinted spectacles
Marring your view,
No perceived attack
Altering your perception.
Just listen,
Truly hear,
Notice
The tone of voice,
The intention behind the words,
Know what is really being said,
And understand
The truth of the matter
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