After you left
Cigarettes were the best treatment for hang over kisses
Liquor to drown the butterflies in my stomach
               I'd rather stay with my bad habits
      Than being good to the person
                Who never loved you

For I am yours , your lips are the first thing I want to taste every               morning more than my coffee
    Eyes than seen through everything I am and could ever be
Take my hand and let each finger point out the roads we can travel
        Use my feet as wheels that could take you anywhere
    For every place seems so colorful
             Whenever your around

Beer doesn't go well with love
   Like a recorder it takes you back
From words you don't want to hear
  To memories that made you love and fear

For a beer fills the stomach
    Yet it makes my heart spill the truth
Rather waking up drunk
     While slowly letting go of you

I banged my head on the wall for the first time ,
it felt like the last time we talked
the hurt surrounding my head
was like the pain you done to my heart

  Was I thinking right when I hurt myself just to not let you leave
     Or was I wrong  
knowing you'll just turn your back and leave me banging my head more ?

The more I feel
The more you see
Difference has been set
but love comes to you and me
The less we talk
The more we hate
shared memories begin to fade
The less I talk
The more I think
love was never ours
efforts go down in the sink.

As time ticks to my last
I regretted everything

The audacity to feel safe
while casualty inflicts harm on yourself and others as well

3am thoughts about how beautiful life is
turn to 3am liquor pounding ,cigarette chasing smoke that blinds my eyes over things that are worth it

7 days God created everything
but it takes a second to pull a trigger