If the bar is low,
maybe I won't disappoint
you with my failures...

You don’t decide who
Will make your heart race.
The corners of your lips just
Upturn so suddenly
That you only notice your smile
When you step forward and feel
The cement  pieces
Of a shattered frown
On the ground beneath your feet.

People go
But the way they left
Always stays

Paint your pain on a beautiful canvas
Tears to be admired in heavenly waterfalls
Sadness in the abyss of the universe
Let it be joy to the world.

My heart feels like
it's about to shut down
from all the truths
that only I know

People view me
as kind
selfless
heartfelt
with empathy

Yet once they witness
my darker side
this inner demon
that is always
a few steps behind me

Once they see
the ashes and smeared blood
tainted within my mind and heart

I am once again alone
alone to pick up the pieces 
of a love that never was

I’m a paper girl
Rip me up and paste me together.
Dress me up in pretty crayon dresses
Add new pieces of me,
Take me apart.

I'm not heartless, I've just learned to use my heart less

"Tell me the truth baby."
"Do you love him?"

"Yes."

They're right.
Truth hurts as hell.