I'm afraid to kiss you
to lock our lips
and taste you.
I'm afraid that I will love you
and then you will leave
like most men do.
I'm afraid it won't be enough
to make you stay
and that desire you've always had
will finally go away.
I'm afraid of the damage
you will do to me
before I finally
let you go.

when i speak
to you
my words
become soft
and vulnerable
because
the last thing
i want to do
is leave you hurting

maybe
when you left
those scars
on my heart
i became
a beautiful poet.

the only hands
that are worth
holding this heart
are my own

this distance
you forced
upon me
burned my heart
to ash

and even though
you left me as dust
i still begged you to stay
but instead,
you blew my ashes away.

"I wish I had a boy."
She said.
"I wish that someone loved me more than the crashing waters of the ocean.
More than Art and the beautiful music.
More than the stars in the sky that twinkle like diamonds at night.

More than life itself."

Then a voice that seemed to come from the sky said these two words,


                                            "I do."

if he does not make
the effort
to love you entirely
then he does not
deserve you
at all.