In the next life
I hope I come back as a bird
So free and careless

She didn’t know where she was heading
She didn’t know where the path she has taken was leading
She was going to keep going as long as she was still breathing

Was she lost?
Maybe she was, but if she kept going what was she
Going to lose?
And what if she stopped?

She had hopes of making it big
Was it her fate to be big?
Or was this path only leading to a dead end?
What will happen at the end?

Is she lost?
Must she keep going?
Will she make it?
I don’t know
She also doesn’t know
I bet you don’t know either
She’s just a lost child

I failed to be the best I can be
I failed to take the chance that would have
Made me one step closer to my dreams
I played safe, so I failed.

I failed to be me I played pretend
I failed to always remember my dreams
Giving up on them sometimes seemed
To be an option
I didn’t take risks, so I failed.

I failed to wait my turn
I failed to understand that it takes time
In my dreams I thought I was already there.
I failed to face reality, I kept on dreaming without doing
I became impatient, so I failed.

I failed to put my all
I forgot who I was doing this for
I failed!!!   I failed!!!

Is it too little too late for me to start again?
Without forgetting this time, with my head held high?
I failed…

Dear heart,
How naïve of you to
Think it might work out.

Sometimes I wonder if its all just a game
And someone will come and tell me that "game over you lose"
But Then I won't be able to play again
Even if I want to, because you see this ain't a typical game

This isn't a game that you can just quit playing
Playing the game is not easy and quitting is even harder

There's no master of the game
We all trying to find ways of how to win it, but at the end is there a winner really?
Or do we all lose and we are given credit just for trying to play the game?

This game is called the game of life
Do we win this game eventually?

Or is this game a unique type of game that doesn't require winners but people who are strong enough to find ways of enjoying it without thinking about winning?

They said listen to your heart.
I tried doing that only to realize that
My heart speaks a language I don't understand.

Dear future husband,

I am damaged beyond repair
And since hearts don't come in pairs
This means I am now heartless  

I won't be able
To give you the love you deserve.
Am sorry

Yours truly
Your wife who's incapable of loving.

We played pretend
We pretended like it never happened
Like it was all just perfect
We chose to play the game
We turned pretence into art form.

Writing heals my broken soul

I shouldn't have went there
I shouldn't have gave him too much credit
I shouldn't have said it
How I wish I shouldn't have done a lot of things

I shouldn't still be thinking about him
I shouldn't have been a fool
How I wish I should have been stronger and acted differently
I shouldn't have let it affect me
I shouldn't have believed them because myb I would have been a different girl.... a better girl

I should have left everything in God's hands
I should have learned to love
I shouldn't be confused with my feelings
I should learn to follow my gut

I shouldn't have let strangers be part of my life
I shouldn't think that am not good enough
I shouldn't think about it anymore
I should have worked hard
I shouldn't feel like this
I shouldn't feel sorry for my self
I shouldn't have

All I ever wished for was to see your face
Hear your voice and start from the base
All I ever wished for was to have siblings
Love them all and see what the future brings
All I ever wished for was to talk to you once
And Maybe get some advice
All I ever wished for was to Hear you call my name
But hey we still playing the waiting game

I never knew
loving you
will hurt this bad.

How cruel of me
To drag you into my
Dark world my love