I dreamed today, before doing my devotion.
I was fighting with other people that turns out to be monsters, I was with my friend. Half way through the path where we were running, my friend was suddenly stuck in the middle of the way. Monsters surrounded her and she was helpless, for some reason I manage to get through as if the monsters are not anymore interested in me. Their skin touches mine but I don't feel strangled at all, a little suffocated, yes! but still I couldn't explain why I was closer to the exit.

I could never go and leave my friend behind, so I came back. I saw here in the darkness with a spotlight pointed at her, she was covering her ears and her head was tilted down just like a kid afraid of the dark. Held her arm while running, we runned as fast as we can. Do you know how we manage to get out? I just started shouting prayers and calling His name! I was even surprised when I woke up I felt safe because we manage to escape because of Him, surprised because I did not curse on those monster but just called His name.

The last thing I remember in my dream, was a kid. We were trying to escape and suddenly help came, humans, there was some guys and few people who came to tell us that there's a ride waiting for us. And suddenly, the real reason why we are running was because of a lady who I feel like I know but haven't seen clearly...the kid was her child. The child was a boy but he was beautiful and his eyes are as if speaking to me, my friend called me and shouted "Let's go! We can escape now!" But before I did run, I kneeled in front of the kid and continuously hug him after every message I say. I remember the kid crying and kept silent, but his eyes are telling me not to go. I felt like we are related and that I love her mom and she felt like a sister or friend to me. I can feel her watching us from afar but she's not chasing me anymore.

This is what I told the kid.
"Tell your mom we love her, but we have to go now!",
"Please grow up as a good man!" and while sobbing I said,
"You have a good heart, you're a good man, because you have a good God! stay that way!".

I don't know but it might be confusing to other people, but I think I was saying the a good person or a man is good because He has God in his/her life.

I ended up nothing getting into the ride, I woke up. But I felt comfort because I know I can be better and be a good person if I allow myself to be used by Him. And then I did my devotion, the title was "enjoying beauty", the content was "God's perfect time".

I wanted to share more!

𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞
"𝘈 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦
𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥".

𝐋𝐞𝐭 𝐮𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧
𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐭, 𝐰𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝
𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲. 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.

𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕠𝕠 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕣𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕦𝕟𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕕,
𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕 𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕠𝕠 𝕧𝕒𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗𝕚𝕤𝕙

how exhausting can it be?

physically, mentally, and emotionally tired.

how tiring can it go?

Having two of your genitori, and both of them being spregevole.

how weary can it get?

Having some who thinks irrationally and judge you based on their own verdict.

when can our oneself get their rest?
when can our oneself leave the rest?

𝔐𝔶 ℌ𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔦𝔰 𝔦𝔫 𝔭𝔞𝔦𝔫 𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔫𝔬𝔴,
ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔞 𝔣𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔦𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢.
ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔞 𝔟𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢.
𝔅𝔲𝔱 ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔥𝔞𝔭𝔭𝔶 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔢 𝔦𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔶𝔬𝔫𝔢.

ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔡𝔦𝔣𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔞 𝔩𝔬𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔭𝔢𝔬𝔭𝔩𝔢,
ℑ 𝔡𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔪 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔱𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔰 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔰, 𝔞 𝔰𝔞𝔣𝔢 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢𝔫 𝔱𝔬 𝔨𝔢𝔢𝔭 𝔪𝔶𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣
𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔯𝔫𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔢𝔬𝔭𝔩𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔰𝔭𝔦𝔨𝔢𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔩𝔡.
'𝔗𝔦𝔩 ℑ 𝔤𝔢𝔱 𝔒𝔩𝔡' 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔠𝔥𝔬𝔦𝔠𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 ℑ 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔪𝔞𝔡𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝔠𝔞𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔡
'ℑ𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫'.

ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴 𝔦𝔣 ℑ 𝔪𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔟𝔢 𝔴𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔡𝔞𝔶,
𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔴𝔥𝔬𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔴𝔥𝔬 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔰 𝔪𝔢 𝔴𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔤...
𝔪𝔞𝔶𝔟𝔢 '𝔱𝔦𝔩 ℑ 𝔤𝔢𝔱 𝔬𝔩𝔡' ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔢.

4:04PM 01/13/2021

"I missed, miss, and kept missing you".
though you are near, you seem so far.
though we share one space, you felt so distant.
I miss you, when we used to share the same reflection.

From I to you, from me to thee
"See you soon, my dear self".