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ShininGale Nov 2022
𝘖𝘩! 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱, 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦.
𝘠𝘦𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥, 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘥, 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨.
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘮, 𝘐 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.
𝘚𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘳, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦.

𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘢𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘶𝘴, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 -
𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘬.
Dedication to my Father in heavens, Who awaits for my return and Who guides and guard my swim, so that when I drown He will always saves me.
ShininGale May 2022
Here's one thing:

I will find that life.
leave this life.
and live that life.
Short message to the ones that'll be watching me go.
ShininGale May 2022
ℑ𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔣𝔞𝔲𝔩𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢,
𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔯𝔶 𝔟𝔢𝔠𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔬𝔣 𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔡𝔦𝔡.
𝔅𝔲𝔱 𝔴𝔥𝔶 𝔡𝔦𝔡 ℑ 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔞𝔶 𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤,
𝔫𝔬𝔴 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔱𝔞𝔟𝔩𝔢𝔰 𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔫𝔢𝔡.

ℑ'𝔪 𝔰𝔲𝔯𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲'𝔳𝔢 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 ℑ 𝔡𝔦𝔡 𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔟𝔞𝔡 𝔞𝔤𝔞𝔦𝔫,
𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔥𝔢𝔶 ℑ 𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱 𝔰𝔞𝔦𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔰𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡𝔫'𝔱 𝔰𝔞𝔶 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔶𝔬𝔲...
𝔑𝔬𝔴, 𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔨 𝔞𝔱 𝔪𝔢 𝔫𝔬𝔴. ℑ 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔱𝔬𝔩𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔥𝔲𝔱 𝔲𝔭.

𝔓𝔯𝔬𝔟𝔞𝔟𝔩𝔶 𝔰𝔞𝔦𝔡 𝔦𝔱 𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔣𝔢𝔞𝔯 𝔬𝔯 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔲𝔪𝔞,
𝔟𝔢𝔠𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔞𝔰𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔦𝔰 𝔞𝔩𝔴𝔞𝔶𝔰 𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔱𝔣𝔲𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔦𝔯 𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔡𝔰.
𝔗𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔟𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔩𝔞𝔰𝔱, ℑ 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔯𝔶 𝔱𝔬 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔞𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔩.
𝔅𝔢𝔠𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢'𝔰 𝔫𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔩𝔢𝔣𝔱 𝔞𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔩.
It was you who pulled the trigger again, this wasn't what I originally wrote but hey it's gone now. I remember writing how the tables were turned after they called you disrespectful - But maybe, prolly, actually, out of anxiousness I lowkey stopped them because I know you'll blame me again. But guess what, I know you always did whenever I'm the one who started... whatever you do along the way doesn't matter, right? Today I was even told that I fear you more than my mother, nah I don't fear anyone, it's just that I'm tired of your cutting assumption, perception and words that is slowly making me believe that I'm always wrong. I don't want to care no more, because out of all - I hate to lose myself.
ShininGale Apr 2022
It was going smoothly, but suddenly there's a rock.
Good end just yet.
Had a nice talk with my youngest sister and all is well until that one **** thag made me fall. But in the end glory to God, there's more joy today as I enjoy fellowship with good people. All evil and hardship is nothing compared to what good and kind has come.
ShininGale Apr 2022
𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚞𝚗 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠.
𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠.
𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚘𝚛𝚜.
𝙻𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚍.

𝙲𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚜 𝙸  𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗 𝚊𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐.
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚞𝚢𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌 𝚜𝚞𝚋𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚕𝚢 𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚠𝚊𝚢.
𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚎.

𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚠.
𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠.
"ang hirap **** umintindi" said by those who can't understand a single thing. Justifying how sensible they're and how stupid I am, how they rant all they want and when you retaliate they become silent and suddenly firing the gunpoint at you. How funny, what a joke... We the whole circus.

My apologies to those who might read this, but let it be for now... This is the only place aside from God I can be true to. Don't get me wrong I love God and He's truly living in my life, to Him I give thanks because all the hardship is bearable. In the end of the day I am joyful, it's a different kind of happiness that's why I thank God! I still see the world beautiful and humanity worthy of change. I am just simple creating ways that will remind me how badly I want all things to change and be better.

By His grace, I am saved and my future is good.
ShininGale Apr 2022
𝘐𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦:
𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.
A short notice. Sooner or later.
ShininGale Apr 2022
ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔡𝔢𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔟𝔲𝔱 ℑ 𝔣𝔢𝔢𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔪𝔶 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔡 𝔦𝔰 𝔡𝔢𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔡.
𝔗𝔥𝔢 𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔨 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔭𝔩𝔢𝔱𝔢𝔩𝔶 𝔭𝔢𝔞𝔠𝔢𝔣𝔲𝔩, 𝔱𝔴𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔟𝔶 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔦𝔯 𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔡𝔰.
𝔈𝔪𝔬𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔞𝔩𝔩𝔶 𝔡𝔢𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔡, ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔤𝔢𝔱 𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔱.
ℑ 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴 𝔪𝔶 𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔪𝔰 𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔬𝔬 𝔟𝔩𝔲𝔫𝔱, 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔠𝔞𝔫 ℑ 𝔡𝔬?

𝔗𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔭𝔩𝔞𝔠𝔢 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔬𝔫𝔩𝔶 𝔥𝔦𝔡𝔢 𝔪𝔶 𝔱𝔯𝔲𝔱𝔥.

𝔄𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔰𝔢 𝔶𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔰 ℑ 𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔬𝔫𝔰𝔦𝔟𝔩𝔶 𝔱𝔬𝔬𝔨 𝔞 𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔬 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔦𝔰 𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔡,
𝔨𝔢𝔭𝔱 𝔞 𝔥𝔞𝔭𝔭𝔶 𝔣𝔞𝔠𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔞 𝔟𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔨 - 𝔭𝔢𝔬𝔭𝔩𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔞𝔯𝔱.

ℑ 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔭𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔢𝔡 𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔢𝔣𝔢𝔫𝔡 𝔪𝔶𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣 𝔦𝔫 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔡,
𝔬𝔫𝔩𝔶 𝔱𝔬 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔩𝔦𝔷𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔫𝔬 𝔪𝔞𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔡 ℑ 𝔯𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔞𝔩 𝔪𝔶 𝔱𝔯𝔲𝔱𝔥...
𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔦𝔯𝔰 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔞𝔩𝔴𝔞𝔶𝔰 𝔟𝔢 𝔡𝔦𝔣𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔫𝔱.

𝔗𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔪𝔞𝔨𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔪𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔳𝔢𝔰 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔢 ℑ 𝔡𝔦𝔡 𝔴𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔤,
𝔴𝔥𝔦𝔩𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔦𝔯𝔰 𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱 𝔣𝔯𝔢𝔢𝔡𝔬𝔪 𝔬𝔣 𝔢𝔵𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔣𝔲𝔩 𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫.

ℭ𝔞𝔫'𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔦𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔨 𝔫𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔮𝔲𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔶.
It's been a roller coaster for the past week, thank God whenever I thought of "Everything will be okay, please let me be okay" He gives me.

I don't know why I always let things go after being alright again, like in a week I have a circumstance with my... not once but several times in a week. It always crosses my mind that it's exhausting yet I am the one that makes the move, I a little convo and I'm good... and then it repeats.

I am not easily depressed and not a personal giver up.
But today I felt all those years, all these past days walks in mind,
it causes me a physical head heaviness, internal mind defense/confusion
- anxiety? I don't know yet, prolly in denial. I just can't be weak right now, not a chance and I can't let a lot down.

Well, this has been long... I know I said a lot but in the end - Just forget what I've said, I can't do that now nor I don't know when. Think of this as a venting session, in the end like always

I'll say this:
"Nah, I'm good! Let's just keep moving forward."

Peace out y'all, funny I'm okay now.
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