I was alone all my life
For a brief moment I thought I wasn't...
But that disappeared swiftly
And hit me harder than anything before...
It feels as if my soul is gone
I lost it with all my feelings...
I need to find it...
I'm slowly dying without it
But where to look?
Under the table? Behind the bed?
Maybe I need to go on journey?
Travel throughout the world
Seek something that cannot be found
Do you know how it looks like?
How it feels like?
Even I don't know how to find myself
So how can somebody help?
I'm all alone on this quest...
Will I find it or will I die trying?

Heart gets slowly consumed by darkness
Tears roll down red cheeks
Shaking hands hold deadly knife
asking whether to **** or not
to believe in god or to be empty till the end

Maybe it is god punishing me for all my sins
For all these years of denying his existance
Maybe I should go back to him and tell that he destroyed me
That I no longer had reasons to live

There is another sleepless night
chased out by recurring nightmares...
Will this night end?
Will my loneliness end?

It's good to be home
But what exactly is home?
Just a building?
                             Or is it love that makes it home?
Have I become homeless while having a house?
I always felt that my home was between her two arms
So fragile yet strong
I could crush them, yet she was the strong one
Now with all my love gone
I live in a homeless house
While neverending battle between death and life is fought in my weak head
Walls once filled with her paintings
are now screaming with emptiness
I walk through corridor, I see memories
Times when we were dancing, laughing, kissing
Planing our kids, our future, our life
How can I live with you gone, my love?

Grey clouds are all over the horizon
Snowflakes fall slowly on everyone's coats
Hands start to be coldly numb
Wherever you look, you see freezing, red noses
Silent nights come faster
Surrounding me with pitch black darkness
I stand alone in this world of loneliness
I lay in bed brokenhearted
betrayal taste sour on my lips
Lips once kissed so sweetly
Now left alone to speak thoughtlessly
Screaming sadly "Love me! Kiss me!"
Snowflakes still fall all around me
So innocently white
They don't know love or misery
Just falling down with mission to cover whole world with white, cold coat
I want to ba a snowflake

Old stronghold is burning down like dry lone flower
Making all gods disappear
Nothing in this world can make them come back
as fairy kingdom doesn't exist anymore
Dread and misery melt together
Spreading throughout the world
while lone flower's still burning
Everything has its end
Life. Love. Happiness. Sadness.
It's getting darker than ever
No light's left in this world
Nobody will ever forgive us
We'll forever stay humanless souls

How can someone miss somebody...
           as much as I miss you?
How can someone want somebody's attention...
           as much as I want yours?
How can someone want to see somebody's face...
           as much as I want to see yours?
How can someone desire to hug somebody...
           as much as I desire to hug you?
I've never dreamt of such a feeling
You are the one I truly love
You are the one I want the most
You are the one...
You've changed my life
Like nobody ever did, like nobody ever will
You've planted emotions again in me,
rescued old, dead feelings and showed me new ones
I LOVE YOU