Having a friendship with you was emotionally taxing. Some days you were awesome and on most,you were ******.  I'd wake up not knowing which you I'd get that day. You have messed me up more than anyone else,and what made it worse was you never even noticed . You might disagree but,when someone tells you you've hurt them,you dont get to justify it or decide that you didn't.

It was rainbows and butterflies and **** in the beginning but as time went on,it got real. You weren't there when my whole life was falling apart,on days I woke up hoping to die. You were never that friend I could rely on for emotional support..I'm just gonna assume it's because you're such a happy person so you have no patience for such?Don't know but ya.

I told you our friendship was slowly dying but you refused to believe it. While you were busy with your awesome life,I was learning how to not be so reliant on you,how to go back to life without you,how to fall out of love with you  (because i never really got over you) but anyway,I'm over all that. All the effort I put into our friendship, I'm gonna put into myself.

Oh and,nice move not putting up a fight,how easily you let me go shows me how much I meant to you. Anyway ,bye.

I think I'm better off admiring things & people from a distance.
I always mess things up when I get too close.

Even after you've made it very clear where we stand,I keep hoping you'll come back and tell me you realise what a fool you were to let me go.

I'm still waiting.

They're all staring at me,I know it
I can feel their eyes on me
                    Judging.
                     Hating.
                  Condemning.

Everytime a group of friends giggle,I just know it's because they're making fun of me.

I asked my mom why one day & all she could say was "nobody's even paying attention to you kiddo. It's all in your head."

But I don't believe it. So I lock myself up in my room where I will not be stared at,made fun of & judged.

My worst fear is that you'll wake up one day & realise that there really isn't much to me.
That I'm not as funny , outgoing or as pretty as the other girls.
That I'm just me.

"I've seen people with half your talent succeed. Imagine what you could do" he said. These are words I'll cherish forever.

Having someone who sees the best in you,even when you are at your worst is the most amazing thing ever.

No matter how long it's been,some scars never disappear
They only seem to get worse with each coming day.
Whenever you seem to be making progress,something cuts you even deeper than before..
Leaving you with the same,old,ugly scar.

I never really understood why people go back to the people who've hurt them the most. Well,I'm one of them now.

You made me feel worthless,unattractive, unintelligent, Every single day,yet when you walked back into my life,I stood there and welcomed you with my arms wide open.
I'm taking a chance on us and I do hope it pays off.

I haven't done half the things I wanted to do with you.
Haven't made half the memories I wanted us to
And now you're gone and it hurts to  know I'll never get to do the simple things like
Lie on the grass & gaze at the stars with you
I wish we had more time.

When we sat on that rooftop,staring at the clouds, talking like we'd known each other for centuries ..
that's when I knew that the rest of my life had just begun.