Mama warned me countless of times
Never walk alone along the alley at night, "Call me or papa to pick you up"
I took it lightly, thinking it was just another preach-teach
If only I'd listened to her
If only I was stronger

I still walked lightly drunken down that alley that
horrible night,
a pure, broken white lamb limping down the street
just waiting for a black fox of the night to
come enrapture me,
take me away from everything,
as I stood, cold and uncomforted from the night's drunken stupor,
and crying.

As I keep on walking
His voice was still there
In my head screaming,
"You deserved this, shut up!
Wearing like a desperate ****!
Just let me taste you stupid ****!!!"
No matter how i screamed, his immense hands shrouding my mouth tightly.
The more i screamed, the more pain he puts me in.

A couple shoves,
a few bruises,
a yank,
and my silenced whimpers
as he ferociously goes in,
once, twice, too many times.
I'm trapped, heaving...
I should have listened to Mama...

Flashbacks ran through my head
How defiant I am towards my parents
How I always skipped anything physical, always judging girls on how they look.
It's happening to me now
I can do nothing but cry and give in
When he was done, he told me he'll **** my whole family if I tell the police.
I continue walking as my worth fading slowly.

And my fire burned out,
as I stopped struggling,
stopped making any noises,
and just lay still,
as he licked me and caressed me,
he's new found toy,
only to be tossed away later.

As I finally reached my nest,
I couldn't find the words to tell mama.
Not one person, not my boyfriend, not a soul. His face still haunts me every now and then.
He became this demon in my head
That will never go away.
It's been months now,
But this demon got my soul caged
And my lips zipped.
Not a single soul will ever know

Aligned to unite
With others who lost their way
It’s a mess we perceived
To those in dismay
These lines create dreams 
For the broken
For the ones never spoken-
Of Love & Courage

Conjuring up notions of time
Structuring of desires preludes
To pursue what’s lost 
To preach and beseech truth
Faith denotes eternally
Surviving pain and deceit
What speaks only bleeds
To fabricate amity

Not fazed by power
But to denote greed
Greed of Love & Passion
Exhaling Hate & Deception
To succor the pillar of fate
To exist in this factual state

Your heart's a fragile thing. 
Everyone’s heart is. 
Don’t ever contaminate hatred
Contaminate love instead.

Everyday I walk this lonely earth crying.
What I once knew is slowly dying.
I remember the smiles, the laughing, even all the lies.
Most of all I remember finally saying goodbye.
You made my life a living hell.
Your love was nothing but a veil.
It hid me, it kept me alone.
I was hypnotized by the light you shone.
No more will I fall for your angel eyes.
You hid your demons under that disguise.
Without you I know I'm gonna die.
So I guess this is my final goodbye...

Hush little baby don't say a word, Mamma's gonna buy you a mockingbird. and if that mockingbird don't bite, Mamma's gonna buy you a brand new bike. and if on that bike you don't run away, Mamma's gonna call the Boogeyman to come out to play. if he comes out and you start to cry, Mamma's gonna make you slowly DIE...

Darkness seems to surround me.
Demons live throughout my body.
Unfortunately it's from my past.
I can feel only two things.
Hate.
Pain.
I feel no love, no happiness, only hate and pain.
I wish for a fast simple death so I can leave this pain behind.
Well at least forget the hate.
No.
Me demons will follow me into the afterlife.
No.
There is no afterlife only nothingness, emptiness, gone forever, goodbye forever.