On the outside, I am strong
I can smile at strangers
I can laugh with my friends
I can enjoy the breeze on a summer day
Everything is okay
But sometimes
There are cracks in my foundation
I can cry in the blink of an eye
I doubt those who I used to trust
I don't want to live anymore
On the inside, I am broken

Well well
It's been a full year
And I've finally gotten
"over you"
I still get flashbacks
From when we were close
But they've been
Far less frequent
I'm just glad I finally realized
I'm complete without you
Or any other boy
I'm a person too
And I finally know that
After one year
Without you

You
are my reminder
that with
darkness
always comes *light.

Every time I look at you
You're looking at her
Whenever you glance my way
Its like the sun shining on my face
Sometimes you tell me things
I already know
Like how beautiful she is
How smart
How funny
How she's breaking your heart

I just wish you would see
That I'd love you better
In fact, I already do

Different
That's what you are
So much that
I feel alienated
Like I shouldn't be here
I'm in the way
Nothing but a burden
To a whole new woman
You have your friends
And their friends
And I'm just wondering
Why I'm still around
Never being understood
Always being yelled at
Forever the brunt of every joke
You talk of "positivity"
But all I get is the negative part of you
That you don't want to show anyone
You are a stranger
That's what you are
"Mom"