I'm surrounded by these four walls,
My thoughts bouncing off of them;
Loud and clear.

I find comfort in these four walls,
Knowing that my cries for help never leave,
That when I wail at night no one can get to me.

I also feel trapped by these four walls,
They make me feel small,
The white colour blinding me when I come up for air each time.

But these four walls know me better than anyone else here,
They know the real me.
Because when I leave these four walls every morning,
I leave as a new me.

Its midnight
I sit in my car
Swaying to Taylor swift
I think of you

I breathe in a smile
One I haven't felt in so long
I forgot this feeling
It's so pure

I can't stop gushing
And swirling
I'm not just hearing music
Now I can feel it

I'm like a teenage girl again
Excited and blushing
The feeling so innocent
Peaceful and adorable

All you did was smile
I breathe your smile in
My heart became full
Like it used to be around you

It's not a dark desire
Or a desperate want
It's a sweet kiss
A innocent bliss
A autumn evening
That keeps me believing

Love is real
When I see you
I can never have you
But that's okay
Because being around you
Is joy enough

You like me for me
I don't need to change
And that's so kind
Thank you
For being you
And making me
Believe

Walk all over me
I ask you to stop
That made you feel guilty
I'm so sorry please continue

My pain does not matter
I'm just a empty platter
Use me and take what you need
Grow only your seed

I'm sorry I tried to grow
I'm sorry I wanted to go
You demanded what you want
I'll take it like a servant

For a moment I stood up
Firmly on the ground
I stood on your toes
You exclaimed all your woes

I went too far
I'm so sorry
Run me over with a car
I deserve to be walked on
Beaten on and ran on
Until I black out

Please go on and pout
About
How I tried
To believe in myself
And it upset your self worth

Here here little bird
Come quietly without a word
Come see the shimmering beauty

It bounces off the moon
Into the lake
Red blue and green
Dancing like a ballerina

Chirp to me little bird
Sing your song with all your words
This night has a touch of magic

Why are you awake so late?
I'm glad you're here
But fear you may be misplaced
Entranced and misguided by her
Glowing touch

Use her warmth as a clutch
She holds the last hope
Only gliding softly through
Our dreams