Not sure how exactly I'm supposed to feel
Seven days of lovely views
Looking on the world anew
Colors bright
Loud and deep
But you're not here
You never will
I walk around with clouded eyes
Trying to hide my silent cries
I think of you
That's all I do

Every glistening piece
Perfect on its own.
Washed away and drowned
Every last breath
Wished away from you.

Broken hearts
Mine, in particular, was made of glass.
Yes it had cracks and scratches
From break ups, and let downs. And small little frowns
Never had I felt real heart break.
A heart made of glass.
And you dropped it.
Threw it onto the ground really.
And started to grind it under your ***** shoes.
And I looked you in the eyes, and told you that it was okay, I looked at you and smiled as tears ran down my face.
Not seeming to be able to get out quite fast enough.
You wispered lies to me.
And I almost believed them.
But you don't just leave, someone you care about.
You don't just give up and smash every bit  of them into tiny little pieces.
That is not caring about someone.
that is not love.
Worse than I'd do to any enemy.
Any foe.
Any rival.
You've broken my heart.
And I cant quite find the courage
To bleed and break my fingers
Picking up the shards

I'm afraid of the pain you hold in your heart.

If it becomes mine..

Will it tear me apart?

Faces of love
Hate
Friendship
And lust?
They seem to blur the same shade of grey
Being kind or making hints

Listening to her sob
Is like listening to a hammer
Pounding away at my heart
The peices settel in my stomach
As heavy as iron.

I cant imagine why
She would put her pain before mine
I would do anything to help her.
But i cant do what she wants.

The salt stains on her pillow
Her clothes
And her hands
Are all my fault.

Looking into the ocean.
I've got too many tears of my own to hold yours.
A hand full of spray
And it falls away.
A token of our love.

I can't fill my holes anymore.
Being empty is one thing.
Being completely riddled with holes and scars is quite another
Missing pieces
And I'm thinking that it's almost better
To lose everything
Or to never have
-Than to only miss one vital piece
And watch yourself struggle to go on
-surviving without it.

Look into my eyes.
Sharp and defined
With a single glance they crack your peace of mind
They open like vaults.
To hold all my faults.
They Peirce through your skin.
Your love and your kin.
They hold the same forgiveness as the sea.
None for either you or me.

Just a step away from you, my cheeks are red, but I'm still blue
A loss of you
Is one too big
A loss of your love
Is a needle in my heart
Letting in the sorrow
I can't breath anymore
Without you here
In this empty room.
My dearest love
I held you so close
You were mine forever.
You were mine forever.
Although that may not be true
I know, that my heart, will always belong, *to you

Happy and smiling I fly through the sky.

Moaning and sick I ask the world why.

Such hipocracy i see in my own situation.
I have created my own putrid cycle

in my mind my heart is weak.
On its own,my heart can't think.

desisions desisions
Insisions insisions