Why have I never come first?

Why do you always make me feel my worst?

Why can't I seem to find someone?

Why didn't you stop it when it all begun?

Why give me a song?

Why did you make me feel like I belong?

Why let me think its going somewhere?

Why are you always in my nightmares?

Why fool me when you already know?

Why can't you let me go?

If you didn't want to see me
you didn't have to lie
If you don't actually like me the same way
you need to let me go
If you want to get back with the other girl
you have to tell me

I can not bear to go on another moment
not knowing if you feel the same way about me
I can not bear to go on another moment
questioning if you actually want to spend time with me
I can not bear to go on another moment
feeling love for someone who loves someone else

I don't know why it is so hard
for people to be honest with each other
about they way that they feel.
Why lead someone on
if you know that they feel something for you?

Why do you let them continue down this path
of unrequited love
and perpetual sorrow
I need to know if you feel the same way about me
or if you will ever
Are you on the path to loving me?

I can deal with being in different places on the same path,
but I can't handle being in a different forest.
You need to tell me where this is going because
I've had enough of unrequited love

beware when you fall in love
with an artist
be it a painter, a singer, or poet

for the artist will
paint you
with strokes and hues
in shapes of every kind

sing about you
with heartbreak lyrics
and feelings which rhyme

write about you
with the simplest words
and a secret message she wants to say

beware of the artist,
and her love
one wrong move
and you're an artwork in her display

sometimes you're like homework
so confusing
and i just stare at you
absent-mindedly
hating you
yet you're important to me
it's so hard to finish you
and i lose inspiration every now and then
but when i get high as my grades
i come running back to you

i can't wait to graduate from school
get rid of this infatuation
we would be adults by then
and hopefully this mess will be sorted out

He says he'll teach me
how to french inhale
this means I'll see him soon

In the mean time
he satisfies me with videos
of smoke clouding from his lip

He knows how to captivate me
bringing his mouth near the lense
He licks his lips and blows out to me

If only I could get that close in person
he could satisfy me in another way
I wait for him to make his move

im scared
im scared you wont want to see me
im scared you wont want me
im scared youve lost interest
im scared it wont ever happen
im scared this is going to slowly
im scared youll wake up one day and decide im not enough
im scared to love you
im scared because if i love you youll leave inevitably
im scared you wont kiss me
im scared you wont want me to make that move
im scared of rejection
im scared ill say the wrong thing
im scared im not as good as her
im scared you compare us
im scared