1.0k · Oct 2016
I was the third party
Esther En Qin Oct 2016

You were the one for me
You were the one I cherished the most

You dislike coffee
Hot chocolate is your ultimate favourite

You eat every single vegetables
except for carrots

You love my naked face
You love my insecurities

We still need time to learn about each other
Unfortunately I had to stop it

I didn't know I was the third party
to your another beautiful relationship

We've been together for almost a year now
You've been with her for 5 years

I didn't know whether I was the foolish one
or you were the foolish  one

Was it my fault since I was the one
to interfere into your life?

I didn't know I was the third party
I'm sorry lets not contact each other anymore

By:Esther ong
735 · Feb 1
12.00am thoughts

It is funny how
I gave so much advice to people
To be strong
fight back
never hide your feelings
Instead,I was the one who couldn't do it
after helping others to be strong
I was the one who isn't strong after all

666 · Sep 2016
I was the target
Esther En Qin Sep 2016

Target locked
there he goes
aiming straight in front of me

He was the prey
I was the predator

He lured me with believable kind words
shot me with his gorgeous smile of his
made me fall into his trap
beautiful perfect man
that fluttered my heart

Who would know that
this beautiful man
targeted to break my heart
not to crack it
but to completely break it into pieces

My heart shards like glasses
he indeed aim it successfully
successfully to break my heart

my beautiful soul
soon became a dark black soul
why did I  not know earlier
that I was the target

What had I done wrong?
I do not deserve this
I cannot believe in the fact that
I was the target

By:Esther Ong
606 · Sep 2016
Please do not hide
Esther En Qin Sep 2016

Please do not hide
That sweet 'o beautiful bright smile
that brightens up a dim dark room
The girl who showed positive vibes
to the people's heart about to shard

Please do not hide
The girl that carried our problems
She lifted it strongly behind her back
yet she never complained
she never showed how painful it was
people were blinded by her sweet 'o smile
her sweet 'o smile that hides the pain

Please do not hide
Girl I can see it what people can't see
the truth behind that sweet 'o smile
must be really tiring for you
but why must you be smiling all the time?

Girl stop carrying other people's burden
That burden is like an infection
Spread upon you by your brethen
Girl you didn't know and it showed
The burden was a virus
An infection
That caused you pain

Please do not hide
Stop hiding your sickness
your pain
because a beautiful sweet girl like you
should not be in pain
girl please do not hide.

By:Esther Ong

We both are from different country
specifically very far from each other

You don't know my language
I don't know your language

our culture may be different
our tradition may be different
our belief may be different
our skin color may be different

both of us tried
I'm glad we tried
because there's a spark between us
that you and I can see

The few days we spent together
was the best days of my life

No I wouldn't want it to be over
This is just the beginning for both of us

Long distance relationship is absolutely hard
People say it is impossible
People say it is a joke
an infatuation

but I'll try for 'us'
and I hope you'd do the same as i do
I want 'us' to be real.

Because I wouldn't want it to end
Believe me I know,
This is just the beginning for us two.

578 · Jan 11
All I ask is you to stay
Esther En Qin Jan 11

I do not need
a fancy proper date
nor for you to wear suit&tie;
order the most expensive entrées;
Duck with Cherries In Chianti
names of the dishes that are outstanding
Servant to serve classy white wine
to cheers to our anniversary

I do not need
  a sparkling silver-white gown
made by luxurious fabric
embroidered with stunning floral patterns
countless layers of tulle
to have a dance with you
and your classy tuxedo
that'll make a spotlight
shine on us while we dance
gracefully upon the dance floor

I do not need
A diamond ring
platinum band
filled with distinctive characteristic
our love story in our engagement ring
finish it with a 20 karat diamond
that represents infinity of our relationship

All I ask is you to stay
by my side
when I need you
when I call out for your name
and you'd be there for me
comfort me
protect me
cheer for me

Is it a selfish request ?
because all i ask was simple
but you couldn't do that for me
you decided to leave.

563 · Jan 11
A message for you
Esther En Qin Jan 11

How are you?
I hope you are doing fine
but if you are not fine
here's a message for you.

I want you to know,
You cannot please everyone in this world
even you did something good,
something that helps the society
something that helps you,yourself
something that help your friends

There will be people unsatisfied with your actions
they'll haunt you with criticism
they'll compare you to someone better
they'll barge into your life
and bring you down

No matter how good you are
how kind you are
how talented you are
how much you wanted to be you
be yourself completely
You will never,ever
get to please every single one
in our society

I want you to know,
that I want you,
to be yourself.

Whether you are
transgender ,
love yourself.

Do what you love,
Do what you enjoy,
as long it can please you,
satisfy your day,
you are happy,
it'll make me happy.

I want you to know,
you have friends and family,
that'll always be by your side
they will help you through
the ups&down; in life.

Ignore what other people say about you
Do not let them pull you down
Be strong,
fight back,
move forward,
Care about what you think,
not what others think of you.

I hope you'll soon be fine,
I've been there,
I know how it feels.

My final message for you,
is to be you.

It is sad to see the society nowadays just keeps on giving negative comments on everything we do,I just want everyone to be yourself.
Esther En Qin Feb 18

Just to let you know
I'm finally moving on now
after a year of you stuck in my head
tossing and turning every night before I sleep
finally I won't do that anymore

Just to let you know
I've learn from my mistakes
I learned that I should never trust someone too much
the fact that I trusted you too much
that you'll be forever mine
forever by my side
was a huge impact on me after you left

Just to let you know
If I see you again
You'll see a new me
I'll be a independent strong woman
You'll see how good my life is without you
That it'll make you wonder why you left me
That it'll make you want me back

Just to let you know
I won't ever look back
I'll officially stop thinking about you
I'll take a step further now
Anything that is left behind
I'll never go and get it back
because I'm finally moving on now

Esther En Qin Jan 13

Please tell me
I am more than just a friend

Please tell me
you love me more than just a friend

Is it true?
  That I am more than just a friend?

The way you hugged me
The way you made me laugh
The way you stood up for me
Be my partner for prom
When you know I'm alone

Please tell me
The actions you showed
The way you treated me
Was so much more than just a friend

People say we are together
A couple
That I had to deny
Although I was hoping
it would be true
And answer
"Yes ,we are together"

Because  I am waiting
Patiently waiting
For 6 years of friendship
Yet you haven't ask the question
That I've been eager to answer
"Yes,all this while I've been waiting for you"

438 · Oct 2016
Esther En Qin Oct 2016

They told me not to be afraid
They told me not to hide
It is time to face it

I practiced every single day
practice makes perfect
It trained me to be better and better

I am now well prepared
I sharpened my blade
Ready to slice every obstacle away
Ready to cut through every single issues

I prepared a shiny armour
To avoid people from hurting me
Especially my fragile heart

I learned how to fight
So that I can fight for myself
So that I can stand up for myself
Because I have countless scars left on me

I am ready
I am ready to face tomorrow
I am well prepared
For all the obstacles I'm about to face
Because I am a warrior

By:Esther Ong (this is a note to my dear self to be strong and face every obstacle ahead of me)
Esther En Qin Jan 19

Countless times I told myself
Never ever fall in love easily

Countless times I told myself
Never ever repeat the mistakes

Countless times I told myself
Stop putting on high hope on someone

Countless times I told myself
Never trust someone easily

Countless times I told myself
Reminding dear self my heart is covered with scars

Countless times  I told myself
To be happy

Countless times I told myself
To put myself first instead of others

Countless times I told myself
To love myself more than others

Countless times I told myself
Stay away from from relationships

Because relationships
Was the reason to my scars
Of my heart that is now badly damaged

169 · Oct 2016
Esther En Qin Oct 2016

"Let's break up"
those three words
very strong words
was like a sharp blade
pierced straight through my heart

Now let's see whether I survived
either I move on to start fresh
or I cant move on
that's when I lay to rest

By:Esther Ong
147 · Apr 26
Esther En Qin Apr 26

"I trusted you,how could you do this to me?"
"I never ask you to trust me,
you yourself placed your faith on me"

146 · Apr 16
Esther En Qin Apr 16

For us,I will
Will you,for us?

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