I am finished trying to draw water to satisfy my soul,
from holes that cannot quench my thirst.
I try to draw water from holes of different names.
From friends and family.
From the words and approval of men.
From temporal pleasures and materialism.
But they cannot quench the longing for Love
in my thirsty soul.
I am like the Woman at the Well.
Tired of going to holes that I think are wells.
Trying to draw water.
Walking away still thirsty.
Again.
And again.
And again.
Then...
My Saviour and the Lover of my soul
comes to me.
And I drink from Him.
My thirst is finally quenched,
and I will never be thirsty again.
For He is the Living Water.
He is not an empty hole which dries up,
sending me away still thirsty.
He is the Love which my parched soul needs.
He is...
the WELL.

I was, of late, the punching bag
Of a poet remiss
This does not make me blue or sad
It doesn't end my bliss

I will simply state the truth
I do not know it all
I will admit my spiritual youth
This will not make me fall

Jesus loved the little child
He put forth His Hand
He loved his meekness, so was mild
He wants us to understand

By our brains we are undone
By worldly thought diseased
That His Kingdom, when it comes
Is made for such as these

I think on things with childlike faith
I admit to this "shortcoming"
I won't have the "minded's" grace
But i won't be running

I'll face this fight with open arms
With armor from above
I won't faint or be alarmed
I'll put on my g(love)s

You think you know the mysteries
With a three pound fallen brain?
Just look up some history
That shouldn't be a strain

Do you know everything? Don't lie.
The devil has his tools
Other men thought themselves wise
But they were really fools.

ABOVE ALL... DO NOT JUDGE GOD!!!
If you don't believe YOU DO.
When you are lost, don't find it odd

THE ONE TO BLAME IS YOU.


SoulSurvivor
(C) 6/5/2016

People think
That when you break something,
It has to make a clang,
Or a rattle
Or a smash.
But
The night my heart broke,
No one heard a thing.

In this moment I pray:
For peace
For strength
For life to slow down
to speed up
To give me all the things I want
To take away all the things that break me
To end my rollercoaster emotions
up and down
side-to-side
happy and sad

In this moment I beg:
To be successful
to feel proud of the strides I've made
to not feel like a failure
that I will be nobody forever
that I will be stuck in the same place
for the rest of my life
For the day I will see the light
and I will trust my feet to take me where I need to be
to appreciate all that I have
and to stop comparing myself to others

And in this moment I hope:**
That I will continue to fight for my life
That I will get better one day
That I'll no longer be sick and scared
That I will find what I'm meant to do
That God actually does have a plan for me
and I just need to be patient and have faith
That healing will take place
And that there will be a day
That I will no longer feel this pain
That it will be replaced with joy.