only know where i
have been going to a new
place again again

what golden meaning
perceived when in this moment
is but reflection

i dream of lovely others
my mind wonders softly
you are there

you changed all that was
we built here now together
and this is just love

into the world i walk
again and again
or only once
i do not know

i dream this existance
the manifest now
i can change this existnce
the manifest now

but some  choices shorten
years of life
and causes the pain
i want to avoid

sometimes i don't know where to go
who or what is to blame
for my misery
guess and guess again

or see and see and see
what you don't want to
and call this life a memory
alive

i went to the narrow bridge
it was not that narrow
scaled the cliffs of death
i lived
went to the cavern of sorrow
cried and cried and cried
walked to the very end
it did not end
pondered the greatest riddle
the keeper gave up first

woke up looked in the mirror

biled catacomb of
thoughts grip my soul in darkest
chains which can be loosed

i have not come to
help you we have come to help
each other this now

a deep slated plume
of hatred for those telling
me what not to do
such a mindful waste

i stood on large rock
someone asked me for small help
i weakly chose no