To be human,
Means to Win,
Only to loose.

never to deep
never enough to die
but enough to feel the pain;
enough to scream inside

I want to stab my chest.
let the pressure hiss out like steam.
It’s lived here too long,

The same pressure
I've felt lying in this same bed,
staring through this same window,
with these same thoughts
in this same body
no matter how many times I beg it to leave

I want to stab my chest.
Cut out the rot of
never good enough,
of sorry for existing,
of always the one who ruins everything.

I want it gone
The weight.
The silence.
The drowning
The constant need to earn my right to breathe.

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sunk.

But I don't stab.
I just lie here
again
and the window doesn’t say a thing.

You touched me,
and I remembered how stars bleed
before they die.