I'm struggling with a heaviness,
Not easily weighed
Or accepted,
Yesterday crushes me beneath failed dreams,
Our tears,
An angry ocean with a woman's name,
Yours.
Forgive me as I forgive you.
One day I know we will breath easy
As the regrets that choke soften with time.
Until then my burden grows as I add your name to the list,
An epitaph of the loving.

Love seems so far away.

When lust is available everyday.

Maybe I should be content
Perhaps life was being kind to me
It took everyone away gradually
Instead of in a handful.

I told myself
I’m going to pull
myself together and
swim until I reach
the surface.
But it’s been six months
since then and I’m still
stuck in this water.
I drowned, and under
the surface I could see the
midnight sun’s glowing halo.
“Grab hold of it”, I said.
But no matter what I do, I couldn't.
I’m stuck in this same place.
There’s dark water everywhere
and the sun never rises.
I feel like I’d been thrown overboard.
But in reality, I jumped into the water.
I said, “**** it, I’m done.”
I left behind the warship I was on.

Turn me over like your favourite novel.
Run your fingers along my spine.
Bite your lip at your favourite parts
Then read between my lines.

Imagine licking a Tootsie Pop,
And being unsure if the center,
Will taste like *regret

Secluded seat,
behind shaded scenes.
Jiving Jazz Jams
ring my soul!
Trail of smokey
piped breathe.
This is where
my heart resides.
Hoping that
Heaven on Earth
isn't a dead scene.

I write and write and write for you

I think and overthink of you

I love and live and live for you

I'm dead, I die & die for you

Sometimes I wonder what is real
Your absence
Or presence...