Broken Pieces

Broken Pieces Aug 2020

I have officially cleaned out any memory of you,
You can never take control of my room and make it blue.

I took my emotions and watched them burn,
Now what you're doing is none of my concern.

I feel so free but also so broken,
I almost wish your words remained unspoken.

I'll miss you but it's for the best,
Because if the room stayed, I'd be more depressed.

#memory #cleared #poetry #poem #depressed #alone #teen #gone #left

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Panic Attack

1...
I try my best to breathe and count to ten.
          2...
I'm trying everything so I can feel again.
                     3...
The shaking comes and I can't seem to stop it.
                               4...
All of my thoughts are just telling me to commit.
                                         5...
I'm trying my best to see the beauty in life.
                                                    6...
But all I can focus on is the glistening knife.
                                                              7...
My thoughts become empty as I reach for my heart.
                                                                         8...
My head is clear and I'm no longer falling apart.
                                                                                   9...
I'm no longer afraid of death, I welcome it with open arms.
                                                                                            10...
Now I don't even have to worry about the silent alarms.

#panic #attack #depressed #anxious #poetry #poem #anxiety #teen #calmdown

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Broken Machine

I'm not some broken machine you can f-f-fix,
Trying to make me ha-ppy just causes more conflicts.

I want to be happy, but I                                 Can't,
It's not a w       i     s    h   I can easily grant.

If I could magically be better I'd T             R                  YYYYY,
But my B      R    A    I    N        ..... is set on wanting to die.

#brokenmachine #broken #lost #searching #depressed #lonely #poetry

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Run Away

So easily you were able to leave me,
You come back and think I'll set you free!?

I thought we would be sisters forever,
But it's clear you don't want to live together.

You told me that you love me and you'll stay,
But you turn around and tried to run away.

#runaway #lost #depressed #siblings #poetry #searching

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Sisters

I thought we would be happier if we stuck together,
But every day I have more doubt that we'll last forever.

I hate that we seem more like two drifters,
Than being anywhere close to sisters.

#sisters #alone #lost #wandering #depressed #poetry

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Attention

This isn't something I'm doing for peoples eyes,
I'm so tired of all the pain and lies.

I don't want to feel this way all the time,
But it's really hard to just say I'm fine.

I wish people didn't have to worry so much,
I wish I wasn't scared of a simple touch.

This is something I want to barely mention,
Because I don't just hurt for people's attention.

#attention #depressed #searching #lonely #sad #afraid #lost #poetry

Broken Pieces Jul 2020

Eat

It's getting harder and harder to eat each day,
The food is tasteless and gray.

I want to eat but I can never seem to hold it down,
So instead I lie over and over and I begin to drown.

I haven't eaten much today, but at least I ate something,
Because something is way better than nothing.

I hope tomorrow I can bring myself to eat more,
And my need to eat will be something I can finally restore.

#eat #done #depressed #lonely #searching #poetry #sad