I sit in my bead alone each day, trying to be happy even if I don’t feel that way.
I’m still going through the pain in my mind, I haven’t met many people who are all that kind.
I try my best to be okay, but it’s hard when the people I love don’t wanna stay.
I lost my parents then my friends, Everytime I’m happy it just ends.
I still kept my head up and kept it going, And when I was alone I just let the blood keep flowing.
I tried a couple times to just take my life, whether it was with pills or a knife.
I had become so fragile one touch and I would break, I already felt like the biggest mistake.
I’m done trying my best, cause I’m just so depressed.
I loved, I healed but it never changed how I was treated, the cycle just kept getting repeated.

They say I'm gonna have to take this chance,

So that we can make my mind finally advance.


They say I should just be happier, no matter what,                                                

That I have no reason to want to cut.                                                                    

They say I can be so much better,

But then get mad when I try to write a happy letter.

                                                      They say I make up the sadness in my brain,

                      But I'm not sure they realize how much of my thoughts are pain.

They say I can make it another week,

But at this rate I can't even bring myself to speak.

Life is done with me,
So go ahead and set me free.
I won't scream and I won't run,
Because I understand my time here is done.

Are you happier?
You left just like all the others,
I thought you would be the one to stay.
But you walked out like my brothers.

I hope life treats you well,
Cause even though you broke me I care.
I'll sit here for awhile hoping you come back,
Maybe I need some fresh air.

I never knew a person could hurt this much,
But I guess that's what happens when you give someone your all.
I loved you more than words could describe,
But you left and I've begun to fall.

Maybe someday I will find a way to heal,
Maybe someday I will admit that they're real.

I thought the darkness would last forever,
But maybe I can fight it if we're together.

I used to think that darkness would always have a hold on me,
But with you here I might just be able to break free.

You don't see how you've helped me heal,
But that doesn't change how I feel.

I love you more than words can say,
I hope you love me enough to stay.