Rebecca

Rebecca Nov 2020

home

Finding you was like finding a hidden gem of the world.
No other like you.
Sweet melodies encapsulated within a single human.
Nothing short of blissful.
You are everything I've ever dreamed of.
Waltzing around my thoughts so effortlessly.
Finding you was finally finding a home within this lonely world.
Entangled within one another.
For you are more than any multiverse could hold.
You are my home

#love #home #universe #relationship #happiness

Rebecca Nov 2020

struggling

No one sees the internal struggling.
The screams scratching their way up to the surface.
Endless nights crying an ocean into my pillow.
Everyone busy living lives while I am trapped inside my head.
Struggling.
Trying day after day to reach out only to be told that they are too busy to read my simple texts of despair or hear my whispers filled with screams.
"There will be better days ahead" is all I hear but my question is when?
When will those days come because all I can see are storm fog filled nights.
I am
Struggling.

#struggling #sad #light #sun #anxiety

Rebecca Sep 2020

The Worst Loss

Everyone prepares you for losing people in your life.
Best friends
Family members
Acquaintances
but, no one prepares you for when you begin to lose the person closest.
Yourself.
That's the worst loss of them all.
Seeing yourself fade away every time you glance in the mirror.
Feeling your brain unwind its very self.
Losing yourself until you no longer recognize who that person in the reflections is.
The worst loss of them all.

#loss #sadness #depression #mental #health

Rebecca Sep 2020

Destructive Atoms

You were nothing more than an
abundance of
destructive atoms
waiting to implode among themselves

#hurt #sadness #breakup

Rebecca Sep 2020

Growth

Even the most beautiful things
grow from the cracks of the concrete

#growth #beauty

Rebecca Jun 2020

Damming Thoughts

When alone, my thoughts flow uncontrollably like a river.
One thought right after the other.
Always constant.
Never ending.
Once thrown back into reality, my thoughts seem to come to a halt.
My brain building a dam.
Somehow stopping up every thought from over flowing into the unknown chaos of the world.

#thoughts #water #chaos #reality

Rebecca Mar 2020

Parasite

I had a parasite.
She (was) a friend.
In the beginning it was a mutual relationship.
Giving and Taking.
Then it turned sour.
One sided.
She took all she wanted and when I tried to retaliate to do the same she simply killed me

#friendship #friends #toxic