I thought I was brave
I was not.
I was afraid,
to touch you,
to look into your dangerous eyes,
to call you mine.
Afraid you would see through my lies,
of getting my heart ripped apart.
I was insecure from the very start,
because I am just a diposable toy
to someone like you, a bad boy.

He seemed so big and bad
but I knew better
I recognized this
one emotion he had
it was familiar,
it was sad.

At that moment,
I lay on his chest
and for once he was quiet,
for once I was at rest,
In each others arms we lay,
a young vulnerable mess.

I remember wanting you so bad
I could taste you
strawberry kisses
and cotton candy blue
your love was like candy from strangers
I took it, but was not supposed too.

Greedy for pleasure,
thirsty for your touch,
ingredients went away, I began to rush
I was in the kitchen
and the heat I became too much.

And then like bubblegum,
sweet then bitter...
I  popped off...and
blew...........away my chance
at such a delicious romance.